I knew the trouble being friends with the Winchesters would bring me. An endless amount of danger and the possibility of death would follow me around daily, I knew that. That's the price I would have to pay to follow those idiots around, and I paid it. I loved them, and they loved me. We were family, and nothing would ever change that. Not even me falling in love with the King of Hell.
Falling for Crowley was hard in more ways than one. It put a big strain on my relationship with Sam and Dean, most of all. Hell, it almost ended our friendship permanently. But, eventually, the boys realized the love Crowley and I shared, and no matter how crazy it was, they had to support me. My happiness was the most important thing to them, and they had to admit, I was safer with him anyways. And then Lucifer returned, and that all changed.
Next thing I know, he's after me. And it's all hands on deck to protect me from the damned devil's capture. Suddenly the Winchesters and Crowley are working together like crazy to try to protect me from becoming his prisoner. And here I was thinking that getting in a relationship with the king of hell was hard, ha! If only I knew then.
"I'm so sorry about all of this Kaia," Dean says to me as he sits across from me on my bed in the bunker. "I know you'd probably rather be in your big ass mansion with Crowley, but its safer here with us."
I sighed and grabbed his hand, "It's okay Dean, this place has always been like home to me. Just because Crowley spoils me doesn't mean I've changed. To be honest I've kinda missed this place."
"This place has missed you too, you know," he huffed, "Dancing around here half naked and singing your damn k-pop."
We laughed together. "You should be honored I have chose this place as my stage to dance around in my underwear singing my damn k-pop," I said to him as I stuck my tongue out of my mouth.
"I'll be glad when we get the honor to hear it again," Sam said as he walked into the room. "Although, I could go without you in your underwear. Seeing my little sister in her underwear is so wrong."
"Well, I believe your brother's a bit of a perv since he has expressed no trouble with it," I added in.
"A hot girl in her bra and panties in my house, shaking her cute little ass around, yeah I have no problem with it at all," Dean thought aloud.
"Oh come on man! She's like our sister!" Sam said as he tried to push his older, but smaller, brother off my bed.
"Hot step sister is more like it," Dean huffed out again and pushed Sam back.
"Watch it squirrel, just cause she's staying here, doesn't mean I'm not watching over her," Crowley's voice joined in as he pushed his way through the brothers and took my side on the bed.
"Oh come on guys, don't start!" I said as the three of them started to tense up. "We've got to get along, we're all on the same side this time, right?"
"For you, love, and you only," Crowley assured me as he took my hand.
"Look, can we talk about something serious here for a minute?" I said worriedly as I looked around at the three of them.
"I don't like that look," Dean said gruffly.
"Kaia, what's wrong?" Sam asked.
"Nothing, really. I just, I have something I have to get off my chest," I looked around at the three of them again. "I just wanted to say, if he gets me. If Lucifer gets to me and takes me, don't let him take me with him."
"We'd never let that happen Kai," Sam sad seriously.
"Never, my love," Crowley added reassuringly.
"No listen," I held up my hand before any of them could say anything else. "I mean it. If he get's me, if he captures me, you kill me. Please."
"No!" Crowley shouted. "No! No! No!"
"Shut up Crowley! This is my choice! I don't want to be taken by him, and he's fucking Lucifer, he's going to find me eventually. I'd rather die than go with him!"
"He'll take your soul then Kaia! He'll turn you into a demon!" Crowley hissed. "Is that what you want? You told me you never wanted that, even if that was a last resort to be with you forever. I couldn't let him do that to you! You don't want it from me, you're not getting it from him!"
"Crowley, please! You don't have to do anything to me, let Sam or Dean do it. You can do that for me, right boys?" I looked at both of them pathetically.
"Kaia," Dean began weakly, "I don't know if I could do that to you."
"Sure you can, one headshot and its done, or Sam can do it. It makes no difference to me really."
"You make it sound like you're turning into a damn zombie, Kaia! Come on! You know you can't ask us to kill you!" Sam replied.
"I'm going to turn into worse if he gets his hands on me!" I hissed. "The three of you are so damn frustrating. I should've known you would bitch about this request. Think of it as a last request, because it very well might be!" I looked all three of them in the eye. "I don't want to have to ask again. If he catches me, and he probably will, one of you Winchesters better take me out. I won't be his slave, or whatever he wants of me. I won't."
"But Kaia," Dean began before Crowley cut him off.
"I won't let this happen," Crowley growled. "I won't let any of this happen. You're not going to die. He's not going to get you, and you're not going to die."
"You can't stop this Crowley!" I yelled. "You will let this happen. You are going to have to let this happen!"
"Neither of us have agreed to kill you either Kai," Sam began. "You can't expect us to do this. You're our family."
"And sometimes family has to make sacrifices. Sometimes they have to make sacrifices they usually wouldn't' make!"
"This is insane, why are we even talking about this?" Dean asked.
"Hmm well lets see, Lucifer wants to fucking capture me and make me his slave! There should be no question about this! The two of you should be glad I'm asking you to do this! What? Do you expect me to give up? Let him take me away?"
"This is giving up!" Crowley yelled.
"No, Crowley," I sighed and rolled my eyes, "This is a last resort. I don't want to have to do this. I thought I'd have a nice, fulfilling life ahead of me, but things have changed. I don't want this anymore than you do. I don't want this anymore than you two either, Sam, Dean, but what other choice do I have? I can't stay locked in here forever."
"She's right," Dean sighed, "She can't stay locked in here forever. I know she's going stir crazy in here. Look, Kaia, if it comes down to it, I'll do it for you."
"No!" Crowley shouted again.
I snapped my fingers in front of his face and put my finger to his lips. "Shut. Up. Crowley. I want this. Can't you accept that?"
"And he's going to take your soul whether you go to heaven or hell. You're just making it a little difficult for him. Then he's going to kill whoever killed you, then kill the rest of us for fun!"
"Is that your worry then? Yourself? Afraid the devil is going to take you out too? Lose your spot as King?" I said to him, my voice full of acid.
Crowley looked at me, eyes full of hurt. "I can't believe you just said that to me. When you find Kaia again, you let me know. Until then, you don't have to bother to hear my opinion anymore." And with that he disappeared.
Sam shook his head, "Never did I think I would defend Crowley, but Kai he loves you. You shouldn't push him away in a time like this. Especially if you're willing to die. Shouldn't you be spending all the time in the world with him?"
"I'm not going to be yelled at," I said flatly. "You wanna yell at me too? If so, please feel free to leave."
Sam shook his head again, "I'm not going to yell at you. That doesn't mean I agree with what you're doing, though. I don't like this idea. I can't believe Dean is agreeing with it."
"Because, I'm doing what the girl asked me, Sam," Dean replied in annoyance. "I don't want to do it, but if she wants me to do it, if she thinks it'll save her, then I will."
"Look guys, I'm tired. So, how about you two go and talk this out over a beer, and let me get some sleep, hmm?" I said as I looked between them.
They both nodded and came and kissed me on the forehead before leaving the room. As soon as I knew they were gone and wasn't coming back I started crying. As expected, I cried myself to sleep that night.
I woke up sometime in the early morning freezing my ass off. I got up to get another blanket, and jumped about ten feet in the air when I saw that I wasn't alone.
"Hello gorgeous," Lucifer said with a wink as he sat on the corner of my bed.
"Please tell me this is a dream," I begged.
"Oh it is, sadly. Seeing as you've been running and hiding from me. I find that so offensive. When are you, finally, going to grace me with your beautiful presence again?"
"Hopefully never," I said flatly. "You're not going to let me sleep in peace, though are you? You visit me, almost, nightly. When are you going to get it through your thick archangel skull, I don't like you! I don't want you bothering me, and I'm never, willingly, going to come with you!"
"Aw come on Kaia! Don't be that way! You know I'm going to find you eventually. I'll win you over some way, you'll see. We were made for each other. The quicker you realize that and give in, the less people get hurt."
"Leave other people out of this!" I yelled, "This is between you and me! No one else! No one should get because of me."
"Well I've left your precious Winchesters alone at least and that silly demon who calls himself the king of MY hell."
"Yeah, and I don't understand why you have left them alone. I'm tired of you playing games with me. You're putting a strain on my relationship and driving my friends crazy trying to protect me. You know, if you ask me, it doesn't seem like the big bad devil is as bad as everyone says he is."
"If I didn't know any better, I would think you're trying to provoke me."
I smirked, "Maybe I'm trying to insult you, but I guess you can recognize an insult when you hear one."
"No," he shook his head and tapped his chin, "You're attempting to provoke me. It's really cute actually."
I huffed in frustration, "What do you want Lucifer?"
"I want you, Kaia. You ask this question every night and you get the same answer. I want you. It'd be better for everyone if you just give yourself to me. I can give you so much, Kaia, everything you've always wanted."
"You don't know what I want, you don't know anything about me!" I yelled back.
"I know more than you think I do. I know you've always wanted to be something more. I know you can be something more. You think that, to me, you're this simple little human who could mean less than nothing to me, but you're wrong. You're the perfect vessel for something powerful. You could be more powerful than that measly little king of hell. You could be my princess, my queen, and trust me, I'd never treat you any less."
"You can try to win me over with your sweet little promises, but they're nothing more than just that. I don't believe you, I don't trust you, and I'm never going to go willingly. You'll have to take me kicking and screaming, if you can even get me before that. Plans are already set in place for if and when you come. And, if I can help it, you'll never take me alive."
"We'll see about that, my love," he got up and came over to where I was standing. He pushed a stray hair out of my face, looked me in the eye and said, "See you soon."
I woke up again screaming. This time I knew it was reality and not a dream. The boys bust in my door, guns ready to blaze. When they saw I was alone, they relaxed.
"He's coming," I cried, "He's coming! He came to me in a dream, and he said he'd see me soon. He knows where we are!"
"Kai," Dean whispered, "Shh, it's okay. He's not coming. He just said that to get to you. Come on, its okay."
"No! You don't understand! He's come to me almost every night. He's never said that. He's always said something along the lines of "I look forward to seeing you again," he's never said this. And the way he talked to me," I shivered, "He's never talked to me like that before. It's different. I was so cold! He's close! I can feel it."
"What did he say to you Kaia?" Sam asked.
I shook my head quickly, "Don't make me talk about it. I don't even want to be thinking about it."
"I'm calling Crowley," Dean growled. "I can't believe you've been hiding this from us! He needs to know. And you're telling us whether you like it or not Kai!"
"NO!" I shouted, "You're not calling him. I don't want to bother him. I didn't want to bother any of you! Why do you think I've kept it to myself all this time? There's been nothing for you to worry about."
"Come on now, don't you two start fighting. That's the last thing we need." Sam had cut in between Dean and me.
I sighed and ruffled my fiery auburn hair, "Look, can we just get out of here and have breakfast. And when I say breakfast I mean whiskey."
"Ah that's my girl!" Dean smiled as he put an arm around my shoulder, ruffling my hair himself, in the process.
"Hey! Watch it!"
"Oh come on! It was already messy!" Dean looked at me with a smug grin that I quickly wiped off by hitting him in the arm with a bruise-inducing punch. "Ow!" he boomed.
"Never tell a girl her hair is messy," Sam said as he smoothed my hair into place.
"Thank you Sammy!" I said with a toothy grin. "See your brother knows how to treat a lady, you ass!"
"I'm your ass," Dean said as he smacked me on mine, running ahead to get out the best bottle of whiskey we had laying around the bunker and made sure to pour mine and give it to me first.
"Crowley would kill you if he knew you slapped her on the ass when he isn't around," Sam said seriously to Dean as he pulled out my chair for me at the kitchen table.
"Even if he did know it was only in good fun," I added.
"Oh he's seen me do it, threatened to cut my hand off and keep it in a jar," Dean replied.
I laughed, "Oh that's epic!"
"I'd pay to see that," Sam agreed.
"Oh shut up you two," Dean said as he took a sip of his drink.
"Dean's just mad cause he knows Crowley would take his most useful hand, if you know what I mean," I said as I suggestively elbowed Sam in the ribs.
In that moment we all laughed, and it was great. Little did I know that was the last time I'd laugh for days, weeks even. Little did I know that would be the last time I saw I boys like this for a while. Little did I know my life would never, ever be the same again.