I sat there staring blankly at the floor. I had slowly drifted away from earth and into my daydream land. I had nothing left. Everything I cared about was slowly slipping through my fingers. Every move I made I felt as I was going to die. I just couldn't take the torture anymore. That huge mistake I made, I so wished I could go back and erase it. But, I was depressed, and wasn't thinking straight at the time.
"Are you all right?" Eli said looking at me confused. I sat on my front porch looking at the ground. I couldn't tell him had happened that dark and rainy night. After he rejected me and I ran of all alone, I just couldn't bare to tell him what happened after I ran off. I suppose he's here to tell me he's sorry for rejecting me and he would do anything for me to forgive him. Well, it's to late now. Because of him I got hurt, really bad, and he can never change that. I didn't have the guts to tell him the truth about what happened in the alley, I never will.
"Clare?" he said still looking down at me.
"What do you want from me?" I said still not looking at him.
"I want to know if your still mad at me?" He said quietly almost whispering. I got up and looked at him with my eyes starting to fill with tears.
"What do you expect?" I said really loud and he looked at me as his face dropped. "After you rejected me like that…I practically threw myself at you and you turned me down."
He stood there silent and then after awhile he decided to speak up. "I thought about what you said…Clare I really care about you and I want to be with you, and…I decided that it would be okay if you stayed with me tonight…if that's okay with you."
"You really think you can come here and say that I can come over and spend the night after you rejected me like that. Then think that I would say yes and everything would be all peachy and fine." I said angrily and Eli's face dropped once again, "Well that's not the case is it!"
"Clare…please…I really do care about you. You have no idea how hard it was to say no to you. You are the most beautiful, sweetest, smartest, caring person that I've ever met. If you don't forgive…I just don't know what I'll do…" He said. Then the tears filling my eyes started falling down my face."
"Why are you doing this to me!" I said to him, "If you cared about me so much you would've never rejected me like that!"
"I was concerned about your faith!" he said looking at deeply into my eyes.
"Eli, you think my faith is bogus and we both know that!" I said looking back into his eyes.
"I'm not lying! So your saying that because of your parents that you would throw the most important thing in your life away, just like that!" he said now screaming at me.
"My virginity means NOTHING anymore! It, by far, is definitely not the most important thing in my life. The most important in my life is you." I said also screaming but my voice softened when I said "you" . His face softened and he looked at me as I stared at the ground. I then started to cry and I put my hands over my face as a sobbed my heart out. I expected Eli to say something but he didn't. Instead he wrapped his arms around me and squeezed me tightly. I then wrapped my arms around his neck. I cried on his shoulder while he still held me tightly.
"I'm SO sorry Clare. I promise, I will never hurt you again." he said still hugging me.
"So?" I said slowly letting go of him. "May I come over or what?"
He then laughed and gave me that famous smirk of his. "Of course you can."
I then wrapped my arms around his waist while he put an arm over my shoulder while we started a long walk to his house. Being in his arms again made me forget what happened in the alley. I was on cloud 9 and wasn't sure what I'd do at his house. We finally made it to his house we went upstairs to his room.
"So…" he said.
"So…" I said mocking him.
"What are we gonna do?" I said. He shrugged his shoulders and started to stare into space. I then scooted closer to him and whispered in his ear, "You know what I want to do?" He then looked deeply into my eyes. My heart started to beat really fast and I couldn't stop staring at him. Damn hormones. He leaned in closer to me and kissed me passionately. I kissed back harder and put my arms around his neck. He wrapped his arms around my waist and held me tightly. He got so close to me there was no more space between us. I was so got up in the moment I never had a thought of stopping. He grabbed me tighter and then fell on top of me…
I made a BIG mistake. I was caught up in the moment and was acting like a mindless teenager. I was scared out of mind of how I was going to tell Eli. I just decided that I would never tell him. At moments like this there was only one person I could talk to…Alli. I slowly picked up the phone and dialed her number. When I held the phone to my ear my hand was shaking. I didn't know what I was going to say.
"Hello?" she said.
"Hey…." I said almost in a whisper.
"What's going on Saint Clare?" she said.
"Please…..don't call me that…." I said slowly. I was no longer a saint so I didn't deserve that title anymore.
"What's going on…." she said really worried.
"Alli…no matter what, you'll always be my friend right?" I asked.
"Clare, what kind of silly question is that? I'll always be your friend no matter what" She said all cheerful.
"Well….." I said slowly.
"Well what? Clare your scaring me…." she said all worried like.
"Alli…I'm pregnant…." I said slowly and quietly.
"What? You. Pregnant. At 15. No way…no way…." she said screaming and dumbfounded.
"That's not my problem…" I said.
"What? I'm sure being pregnant would be a HUGE problem" she said back to me.
"I don't know who's it is…" I said not even believing myself as I spoke those horrible words.
A/N: Ok so this is just a story I wrote cause I got bored. In this story Eli is NOT a hoarder. And if you are confused, don't worry, confusion shall disappear in the next few chapters ( If I write anymore chapters ) I'm not sure how far I will go with this story. Maybe…5 reviews will get me to write another. IDK…I might write another if I get no reviews….IDK. So I'm going to stop rambling on now so PLEASE review. Please…..for me?