Summary:
After the tragic murder of the Potters, Sirius is thrown into Azkaban for betraying them. The thoughts that torture him of his last year in Hogwarts are the only things that are keeping him on the bridge of sanity. He begins to think back about how his best friend finally captured and won Lily over.
AN: Hello Everyone,I hope that you all like my story and I would like to thank my wonderful beta KD for working with me to make this possible. Please Read and please leave me a review as well.
Disclaimer: I do not own any Harry Potter characters besides my own. All the credit goes to the wonderful JK Rowling.
Prologue: Distant and Painful Memories
It was cold, dark and damp. He was being dragged across the hard, stone floor by two heartless creatures who sucked all happiness out of the gothic structured building. But the young handsome man didn't care where he was being taken. He didn't care about anything anymore. There was no more joy across the once handsome face, it was now lifeless.
He could no longer feel any emotion except deep and intolerable sadness. His two best friends were dead because of him. He, Sirius Black, had delivered Lily and James to the darkest wizard alive, Lord Voldemort. Sirius had to rephrase that last thought. Lord Voldemort was the darkest wizard up until he was defeated by the Potter's infant son and Sirius's godchild.
The dark soulless creatures that were dragging him came to a stop. He was at his new home now. Sirius would be spending the rest of his life in Azkaban being known as the Potters' betrayer.
They pushed him in roughly and he stumbled to the concrete bed in the corner of the cell and began to weep for the first time after their deaths.
Sirius new in some way that he was innocent and in others, guilty. No happy thoughts came across his mind. He knew that the person who had delivered the Potters to Voldemort was still out there since he had faked his own death. Sirius couldn't believe that his school friend, Peter Pettigrew was the one who worked against them all. He had fooled every one up until their friends" deaths.
In the other part of Sirius's mind, he knew he was guilty since he told James and Lily to make Peter their secret keeper. He thought it was the perfect plan. A decoy. He thought for sure the Dark Lord would go after him since he was the stronger one. Never once did he think that Voldemort would go after the weak one. But, I guess that was what he was hoping for. Waiting for the word that Peter had been made the Secret Keeper in order for him to get to the Potters.
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Sirius had been sitting in his damp and lifeless home for three days, all of them without eating during that period of time. He was still in shock of what had happened only nine days ago.
Still standing outside of the betrayer's cell, the dementors could still not suck the happiness out of the man for there was nothing to feed off of. Sirius was filled with only the deepest, darkest, and the most depressing thoughts a person would have thought impossible to think about. He was the only person in all of Azkaban who wasn't affected by the dementors' cold and terrible power.
He began to think of how he got to Azkaban in the first place. He remembered flying his motorbike to what was left of the Potter's large manor to collect Harry but to no avail. Rubeus Hagrid, arrived and told Sirius Dumbledore had given him specific orders to take Harry to his aunt and uncle. He argued with Hagrid saying that he was Harry's godfather. In the end, Sirius gave into Hagrid, telling him to take his motorbike as well. Sirius didn't need it anymore. He remembered being surrounded by Ministry members waiting to take him down and send him to Azkaban. He remembered seeing Barty Crouch for the briefest moment. In that one moment, Barty was the person who decided to send him, Sirius, to the wizard prison without holding a trial. The last thing that Sirius remembered was how he had crossed the vast water on a boat to reach his new and dreary destination. A new and sad beginning was waiting for Sirius.
As he began his new life as the man who betrayed his best friends, the man his other friend, Remus Lupin, would now think of him as cold and heartless and how he would never visit him or have contact with him. He thought of Peter Pettigrew, the true betrayer, still out there in his animagus form. Sirius began to look back on his seventh year at Hogwarts when he and his friends were happiest.
The only difference was that when he thought back on these precious memories, he did not feel the warmth of happiness flow through his veins. No, he felt only the remorse in his body.
Closing his eyes, he saw flashes of colors and faces. James and him laughing at the beginning the term prank they had just pulled, Lily finally, seeing the brighter side of James and never thinking that she could fall in love with him. The last memory that Sirius saw was the most painful for it consisted of a single person.
This person had changed his view on girls as objects to real people with feelings as well of life. She had opened his eyes to a new light and he began to love her. He remembered how they got Remus and Rosalie together and how he pursued her during their times together.
Thinking back on his painful memories, he began to drown in them and was soon lost in a whirl wind of color. He was beginning to remember his whole final year at Hogwarts and soon became apart of his own memories.