Destruction of Property
Quick Note: Trigger Warning. Self harm is included in this story.
It's rainy tonight at Diamond University. It was almost a miracle, seeing as how it's been so utterly dry these past few weeks. Everyone who lived on campus were happy for a reason to stay inside, even happier when they had heard that this was announced as a "teacher work day". Everyone knew that the instructors were just as happy for the rain as the students were.
The only exception to not confide herself in her room was a girl of below average height. She wasn't short, but she wasn't tall either. The girl danced in the rain, her arms acting on their own as the water fell on her lithe body. The droplets of rain seemed to bounce off of her short, silken dress. Her bare feet splashed in tiny puddles as she stepped to the melody in her head, her hair weaving to and fro with her movements, water being flung from her blue locks.
This was the best feeling in the world to Lapis Lazuli. Ever since her parents taught her to swim, she knew that water was her sanctuary. She felt happiest under the shower of the skies, but also a deep sadness as well. It was hard for her to explain to anyone how she felt during these times.. In simplest terms, she felt that when the clouds began to cry, something horrible happened to the world. But in those tears, she believed stemmed happiness, for how can someone be sad without knowing how to be happy?
This rain is what made her feel most alive.
Lapis suddenly stopped her movements. Her eyes shot up to the windows of the dorm she lived in. The girl couldn't see quite that clearly through the water in the sky, but she could have sworn that she saw something.. someone watching her. But the windows were all dark except for one or two rooms. In one room, she knew a party was going on, so it couldn't have been anyone from there. Her best friend was most likely in the other room, but she was probably working on the homework for next week.. the nerd liked to stay ahead. Maybe it was a trick of the rain..
Lapis decided that she was done dancing for the night. Taking one last look up at the black sky riddled with water, she made her way back inside to her dorm.
She's so beautiful.. Peridot thought as she watched her best friend dance in the rain. She found Lapis' symbolism for the rain to be quite beautiful as well.
But.. why was she being so secretive about this? She had her back to the wall next to her dorm window, peeking just from the side so that Lapis wouldn't notice her.. but why? They were the best of friends. Peridot knew that if Lapis happened to see her, it wouldn't mean anything. She would probably just smile and wave, continuing her dance. So why was Peridot hiding..?
She knew the answer to that question. Peridot was in love with her best friend.. why did this have to happen to her? The girl dressed in a green tee-shirt and black shorts hated this about herself. It had to be Lapis, it just had to! Why?! Why did it have to be her?!
Peridot pulled away from the window when Lapis stopped dancing. Did she see? No.. it was impossible. Not through this rain.. Clutching at her chest, Peridot found that it became quite difficult to breathe. Why was this happening..?
She needed a release, she needed to do something! She had to tear her thoughts away from Lapis, she had to get away from her emotions! Peridot ran to the bathroom, tears streaming down her face. It's been so long since she did this.. so long since she had to remind herself that feelings were meaningless.
She opens her medicine cabinet, sifting through the clutter of different medications she has to take. An inhaler for her asthma, band-aids, acne medication, her contact solution, eye drops, night time pills to help her sleep.. then a razor blade.
Peridot has been known to harm herself in the past. She had even visited a help group in an attempt to kick her habit, and it helped.. well, just a little. The only people that knew about her past injuries were her mother.. and Lapis. She couldn't let her crush know that she was doing this tonight. Not after such a long time of being clean.
The blonde sat on the edge of her bathtub, her breath heavy as she stared at the blade held between her fingers. Just a scratch.. she just needed a scratch.
Slowly, Peridot brought the blade to her left wrist. Her breath hitched when the cold metal sliced through her pale skin. Sliding the blade across her wrist, Peridot watched in wonder as the blood slowly escaped her. It gave her comfort.. a comfort that told her that everything would be okay, that there was a way out if everything in the world grew to be too much. She cut again.. and again. Each mark was barely noticeable, passing over one another. When she wiped the blood away with a wet cloth, she couldn't even tell that there was a cut to begin with, until they scabbed over, at least. Peridot felt elated.
This pain is what made her feel most alive.
Peridot was suddenly brought back to the real world when she heard Lapis' voice.
"Peri? You in here?" Lapis was surprised that her friend wasn't in her dorm. She never leaves her dorm except for classes, and especially not in the middle of the night.
Peridot nearly panicked again. Why did Lapis have to visit her at this time?! The blonde desperately looked around the room, and her eyes fell on her green hooded sweatshirt that was in a lump on the bathroom floor. She had forgotten to wash it, but she was thankful for that, now.
She first went back to her medicine cabinet, shoving the blade behind everything else after washing the blood off of it, along with the blood on her wrists and rag. Peridot grabbed the box of band-aids, pulling out a patch meant for large wounds. Fumbling with the wrapper, she dropped the box. Though it was light, it still made some noise on the bathroom tile.
Lapis didn't fail to hear the sound and knocked on the bathroom door.
"Peridot?"
The girl in green answered as she picked up the box, placing it back in the medicine cabinet after she had finally placed the band-aid on her wrist. "I-I'm fine! I'm just.. not feeling good.. sudden change in weather and all that. I'll be out in a sec."
The girl in blue was worried for her friend, but decided to let it go. She had to trust Peridot.. hopefully, she would feel better soon.
Peridot dressed herself in her hoodie, making sure that the sleeves covered her wrists. She flushed the toilet, not needing to, but she wanted to use the noise as an excuse. She would pretend to have thrown up earlier, before Lapis entered her room.. yeah, that was it.
Peridot opened the bathroom door, putting on a rather sick look. She wanted to be convincing.
"Hey Lapis.. why are you wet?" Peridot already knew though.
Lapis ran a hand through her dyed blue hair, watching stray water drip onto the carpet.
"I was outside.. you know how much I love dancing in the rain."
"Yeah.. yeah, I forgot." No I didn't.
"Anyway.. you look awful. You really are sick, aren't you?" Lapis put the back of her hand to Peridot's cheek, checking her temperature. Thankfully, the blonde's embarrassment, along with her little panic attack, caused her body to be more heated than normal. "You're burning up.."
Peridot averted her eyes, stepping passed Lapis to sit on her bed. "Yeah.."
Lapis moved to the mini fridge that was on Peridot's desk. Every dorm room had one. She grabbed a bottle of water and returned to Peridot's side on the bed.
"Here.. drink as much as you can handle." Peridot took the bottle being handed to her. Slowly, and feeling pressured under Lapis' gaze, she brought the bottle to her lips and drank. After two gulps, she handed the drink back to her friend, whispering a small 'thanks'.
"No problem.. I told you water would come in handy. Seriously, you need to stop drinking all that Mountain Dew.."
Peridot smirked, lightly elbowing her friend in the side. "In your dreams." The two laughed together, Peridot staying at a light chuckle to keep up the appearance of being sick.
Lapis sighed, standing from the bed. "Well.. I'll let you get some rest now. Knowing you, you probably already did some school work for next week, right?"
"You know it. You can never be too prepared."
"No, you can't.." Lapis walked out of the room. Peridot stood up, following her friend to the door.
"Goodnight, Lapis.. and thanks again." Lapis turned, smiling. "G'night Peri.. hope you feel better soon."
With those words, she walked down the hall toward her own room. Peridot sighed, closing her door. She removed her hoodie, climbing back into her bed. I'm too smart for all this shit.. She thought as she closed her eyes, laying on her stomach. At least they weren't roommates.. That would make hiding her actions much, much harder.
On the verge of entering the realm of dreams that she loved so much, a sudden thought forced her to lift her body from the bed with a start. She forgot.. Lapis and Peridot requested that they become roommates last week!
Author's Note: I hope you guys enjoyed the first chapter to this story. I apologize for my absence in "When Love Has Come to Fruition", but I feel like I need a break from it after trying to work non-stop on it for such a long time. Also, I just can't think of anything for Double Date Part 2. xD I'll still be writing, but I'm working on other projects, like this little story here. As always, so long for now.