It's over. Everything is over. I feel like the world is parting where I'm standing, like if I had been thrown on a cold floor after hearing she prefers Konno over me. I know, it was a hard decision for her, but I can't help feeling really hurt. Really, really hurt. She called me to tell this, she didn't want me to keep fighting with Konno for her attention because I had already lost the battle. I can't help feeling terrible, but I try to stay stoic. I don't want her to worry about me; I don't want to see her anymore. The fact that she loves another man and the fact that that man had been my friend - that overwhelms me. Because of her we have been separated, I already knew since the beginning one of us would end up hurt, and I think I knew since the beginning it would be me. I was hoping it didn't end up like this, but it seems it couldn't be helped.
I want to leave now; I don't want to be with this woman anymore, doesn't she see I already got what happened? I don't want anything to do with any of them, they will be happier without me…
She finally stopped talking. It's a relief; I can turn back and leave right now. My chauffeur asks me if something is wrong, I lie to him I'm ok. During all the way home I keep what I feel to myself, and it isn't until I get off the car, walk in the hall and walk upstairs I start to cry.