A/N: So this is a collection of snippets from my personal diary (so it may be a bit rough, I didn't change a single word just copied and pasted) that I thought may relate to Leah. Or maybe not. I don't know. Anyway enjoy. May do a second chapter it's up to you guys :)
Disclaimer: don't own Twilight.
"It's when it's all over and it's time to say goodbye that's when you realize that the journey WAS the destination." -Unknown
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Have you ever waited? Waited for something exciting to come along to prove your alive but then it never comes so you must accept that this is your life!
Welcome to my life, cause that's what has happened I'm waiting simply never giving up chasing that feeling it's more important to me then love. To me love is boring common I guess I was looking for that feeling.
To me I imagine it being electric when I sit and think about how it will be all I picture is that moment of silence in the middle of a crazy thunder storm when the airs warm but the rain bucketing down is cool, and the sky is flashing light even in the dark. I even know what the air should smell like that fresh smell where you can't stop breathing in... It's crazy how clearly I know what it should feel like. Dangerous fresh peaceful and wild. And yet have never actually felt it.
I'm a mess of contradictions and internal mess and yet... That is the one thing clear the feeling.
And every morning I make a promise to myself. One day I'll get that feeling no matter what it takes me!
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I'm back home well no not really see home is where your heart is and if you don't have a heart you got have a home.
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It's not that I'm sad exactly it's that I'm bored I can't explain but when I think about the rest of my life I can't cope it hurts and so I don't think not cause I'm impulsive but cause it hurts and I need that to end.
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Fairy tales don't exist. Your imagination hypes something up and makes into so much more then it is. But then your left cold alone because life doesn't work that way.
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When you do something or a long time it all sort of blends into one big hazy memory a few parts stick out but for the most autopilot goes on brain goes off.
When I handed my resignation in to my boss I felt light for a split second u felt free. But cold water hit me when I still had me whole life left feeling that way.
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A/N: I'm quite nervous posting this ice never posted something so personal but too late now. Hope you liked it. Review of you agree or have felt like this before. It be nice to know if I'm alone or not. And since you just read my diary I guess you should know my name. Its Alli.