A/n this is sort of like another 1 of my fics, called "the joys of discoveries", but there is 1 main difference, in later chapters. Hope you like it. I give you hidden lives.
"Ugh, you make me so mad sometimes, James Potter!" lily yelled at the top of her lungs. "Yeah, well, that still doesn't mean that this whole thing was my fault!" James yelled back. Lily could feel the tears spill from her bright green eyes, no matter how hard she tried to hold them back. They had been fighting a lot lately. She always felt like it was her fault, but she never really knew what she did wrong.
"Well, I'm so sorry! I had no idea that you felt that way!" James glared at her for a moment after she said that, then practically whispered "well, maybe we don't belong together anymore".
Lily couldn't believe what she was hearing. Sure, they had fought before, but they always made up. After all the times he had said that he loved her, it was all going to be over for 1 of the stupidest things. The tears came pouring down like a waterfall now.
"Well" she said quietly "if that's the way you want it." She turned around and ran to her room, slamming the door shut, even though she was sure that the neighbors would complain later. She leaned with her back to the door as the worst of the tears started. How could this happen, they had been together since they were in Hogwarts. He had even proposed to her. She took 1 last look at the ring before getting up to flush it down the toilet. Hearing the toilet flush made her sick to her stomach, and she threw up, another thing that she had done a lot of lately.
Meanwhile, James was sitting in the middle of the living room with his head in his hands. 'What have I done now? How could I have done such a thing?' he thought to himself. Not only did he just break up with his girl friend, but he ruined their wedding plans and kicked himself out of the apartment.
James picked up the phone and dialed Sirius's number. "Hello" he heard Sirius say on the other line. "Hi, this is James. Listen, Sirius, I've got a huge favor to ask of you." James started off. "Yeah, sure, anything." Sirius told him. James sighed. "Lily and I just broke up; can I stay the night at your house? I've only got Remus left, and he can hardly afford to take care of himself, much less me. So, can I stay?"
"Sure, prongs. Anytime. Do you need help packing your stuff?" Sirius asked, sympathetically. "Yeah, that'd be great."
"Alright, I'll be right over." With that, Sirius hung up the phone.
2 days later, James was all packed and lily had still not come out. Sirius and James were moving out the last boxes. James went up to knock on lily's door to give her the extra key back.
Lily opened the door after a few minutes. Her hair was a mess and
Her eyes were blood shot. There were tear stains running down her face and she looked as though she had not slept in days. "Yes" she asked. Her voice was terribly hoarse. "Uh, I came to give you the key." She nodded and held out her hand to catch the key in. he dropped it into her hand and made for the door.
Sirius smiled at lily. "Don't worry, lily, he'll be back begging for your forgiveness before you know it." He said once he knew James couldn't hear. "I hope so." Lily replied in a whisper. Sirius nodded and hugged her good bye. "I hope this won't be the last time I get to see you again." He said before turning to go.
As soon as she heard the front door shut, she fell to the floor, her arms wrapped around her knees, rocking herself back and forth, crying harder then she ever had before.
James was living at Sirius's house, and he felt heartbroken. The worst part about it was, he knew it was his fault, but he knew that lily would never take him back. It just wouldn't happen.
All James had done since they had broken up was mope around the house, whishing that he could change the past. But it would never happen. Remus and Sirius had tried numerous times to get him to go to lily's house to kiss and make up, but every time, James would walk up to the door, ring the door bell, then chicken out and leave just before lily would open the door.
Lily continued getting sick for along time after the break up. So, she, like any person would, went to the doctor. 10 days later, they called her back saying that she was pregnant.
"You're kidding me, right?" she told the doctor when they called her back. "I'm afraid that, as doctors, we're not aloud to joke about these things. Yes, you are pregnant, but if you choose not to believe us, I suggest a pregnancy test and…" but the rest of what the person on the other end of the line lily never knew, because she had slammed down the phone and raced down the street to the grocery store down the street.
Indeed, the doctors were proving to be right, as the test proved positive.
Lily was curled up in a ball in the corner of her bathroom. This couldn't be happening. Not now, of all times, it just couldn't be. So, she did what most teenagers would do, she went crawling to 1 of her dearest friends for advice. Lily had called all of her friends, but the only 1 that wasn't at work was Amanda Miller.
They agreed to meet at the nearest coffee shop.
"Oh my god, are you being serious?" Amanda asked when lily told her. "Oh, Amanda, I'd give anything to be lying to you, but I'm not. What do you think I should do?" lily said, on the verge of tears. "Well, do you plan on telling James? Well, if it's his, I mean?" lily looked shocked at her friend. "Of course its James's baby, what do you think I am a hoe?" Amanda shrugged. "No, I was just asking, that's all. Anyway, are you going to tell him? You should." Lily nodded vigorously. "No way am I going to tell him! He doesn't deserve to know, after what he did!" Amanda sighed at lily's stubbornness. "Well, are you just afraid to tell him?" lily looked sad. "Yes, I guess I am. But I still don't want to tell him."
"You could write to him and tell him that way." "No way," lily started. "You don't just write to people telling the 'oh, I know that we broke up, I just thought that you ought to know, I'm pregnant'. If I did that, he'd try to come and find me."
"But isn't that a good thing? I mean, if he found you, then you could get back together, and the wedding wouldn't be called off." Lily sighed. "He wouldn't want to get back together with me. Sure, he might want to know about his child, but we could never be together again. And, incase you don't remember, my parents divorced before I was born. Sure, my dad knew that I existed, but he last time I saw him was when I was 2 years old. I don't want to put any of my children trough that."
Amanda and Lily thought for a minute. Then Amanda thought "well, if you're not going to tell him, do you mean to say that you're going to raise this thing on your own?" Amanda asked. "Well, no, I don't want to do it on my own, but what choice do I have," lily said, miserably. "Honestly, I'd do anything to not have to see a living reminder if James ever day for the rest of my life." Lily sighed. "What do you think I should do?"
"Well, I already told you, you should tell James. But, if you don't like that, you could always put it up for adoption."
Lily considered this. "But where would I go if I wanted to put it up for adoption?" Amanda smiled. "My sister works for an adoption center not to far from here. I bet she'd be glad to help you."
Lily got up to leave. "Thank you so much, Amanda. You've been a life saver. You'll let me know what your sister says, right?" Amanda smiled. "Sure. I'll see you later."
It was 6 months later (A/n last time we checked up with lily, she was 2 months pregnant, so now it'll be 8 months) and it was very obvious that lily was going to have a baby soon. She had gotten a letter from Christine Miller, Amanda's sister, saying that she had found parent that lived about 50 miles from where lily lived. Lily had found out that the baby was a boy, and the family that was going to adopt him said that she should name him so that she would be able to find him when he was older. Lily decided to name him Harry. Harry James … whatever his last name would be.
Lily had a few more weeks until she could get off work, so she was trying to work extra hard so that she would be able to pay the rent for her apartment while she was out. Most nights, though her boss, Joanna McElfish, told her not to, she would work the night shift. The only part that she didn't like about that was that she remembered that that was the shift James had worked.
If they were not both Aurors, then that would not be a problem, but they were, so it was a very big problem. Lily always had to be on her toes so that he would never see her, which had never happened yet, but she had had some close calls. Every time she saw him, her stomach would go into knots, and her heart would ache. Joanna, who did not let the fact that she was lily's boss stop her from being very good friends with lily, had moved lily to an office on the other side of the room from where James's cubical was (A/n lily gets an office because she and Joanna get along better then Joanna and James) but there were still some times when lily would see James.
James had just sat through another long meeting with his boss and was not in a good mood, so he went to visit Sirius. They were talking for a few minutes when Sirius pointed out "hey, isn't that lily over there?" James turned around so fast that he hurt his neck doing it.
There she was, talking to a friend with a cup of coffee in her hand. She had a smile on her face and was laughing at something the person had said. It took James a minute to notice, but she looked different, somehow. Was it a new haircut? No, her hair was longer then it was the last time he had seen her. Had she lost weight? 'No, that's not it, if anything, she's gained weight' James thought to himself. "Padfoot am seeing what I think I'm seeing, or has lily just gained weight?" Sirius just shook his head. "No James, I mean, I wouldn't know, but if I'm right, then I think she's pregnant." James felt his jaw drop so that he was gaping stupidly.
"I guess that means that she's moved on." James mumbled as he ran turned his back to her. He hardly said anything the rest of the day.
Well, that's the first chapter. The next chapter will be where Harry is born, so please read and review!