Author's Note: Okay, this is my first official fan fiction, so please review to tell me how I did! And I would like to tell my friend Erica thank you for convincing me to post this on here. I wasn't going to, but now, as I'm typing this, I'm glad I decided to. Thanks Erica! I love you! And I love everyone else here too! Oh, and if you review you can have a cookie! -waves cookies around in the air- Uh..yeah, anyway, here ya go!

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the Bleach characters. The only things in this story that I own are the plot and the character Ayame, though, I wish I did own them. They're amazing!

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Please, Never Leave My Side

Chapter One

By: lovelybabe123

I sat looking at myself in the mirror on my dresser. My long black hair descended down past my shoulders in silky smooth curls. Two emerald green eyes started back at me and I looked away, sighing.

No matter what I did to make myself look better, it just wasn't good enough. Even when I fixed my hair and did my makeup, I still wasn't pretty enough. I wanted him to notice me as someone who's gorgeous, someone he'd be able to love…

I closed my eyes and images of him slipped through my mind. His spiky white hair and perfect green eyes haunted me every time my eyes closed. His beautiful voice echoed in my ears and I could see him move so gracefully. All the images I saw seemed just so real. Like I could reach and touch them but I knew that the moment I opened my eyes, they'd vanish.

Toshiro Hitsugaya.

He was the one man I was truly in love with and couldn't get out of my mind. When he's close, my heart pounds and flutters and happiness overcomes me.

He's the man I want to be with. No matter what it takes, even if I have to change myself completely, I don't care. I just want him to be able to finally love me.

Sometimes, I try to avoid him, trying to just forget the obsession I have with him for a little while and trying not to embarrass myself. But, I find that a difficult task to accomplish seeing as he is my captain. My name is Ayame Sikuzi. Third seat of division 10 and definitely head-over-heels in love with the one person I can never be with…

Standing, I went to the bathroom to get dressed in my shihkusho, or my soul reaper uniform. I left the curls in my hair, not really caring anymore. It looked pretty bad either way, so what did it matter? I would just pin it back with a bobby pin to keep it out of my eyes and call it good.

A light knock sounded through my apartment as I put the bobby pin in. I ran to open the door, worried that I had done something wrong…again. As the door swung open, I found myself face-to-face with Rangiku Matsumoto, my lieutenant.

"Good morning, Matsumoto." I said, bowing my head slightly as I stepped aside to let her in.

"Ayame," She said, turning to face me, a small smile on her face. "I came to tell you that Captain Hitsugaya would like to see you." She winked. "He needs your help with his paperwork."

A wide smile spread across my thin lips as I ran to hug her. "Really?" I squealed, excited.

"Yep." She nodded, laughing slightly at how excited I was.

Matsumoto and I have been best friends for a long time and she knew just how much I loved our captain. She did all that she could to help me get some time alone with him, but it still didn't happen very often. She couldn't keep squirming her way out of her work. Today was different though. She must have made up some insane excuse to get out of the paperwork so I could do it, and personally, I was thrilled.

"Well, you should probably get going then." She smiled, and winked again as she started to walk back towards the door.

I nodded nervously. "How do I look?" I asked, biting my lip.

"Beautiful! He won't be able to resist you!" Matsumoto laughed as she turned and disappeared around the corner.

My heart was pounding anxiously in my chest as I grabbed my zanpakto and slipped into my shoes, walking towards Toshiro's office. I reached it in a few minutes, even though it felt like it took an eternity to get there. I took a deep breath and fixed my hair before knocking gently on the door.

"Come in." He said wearily.

I turned the door knob slowly and slipped into his office, silently closing the door behind me.

"G-Good morning, Captain Hitsugaya," I stammered as I bowed my head quickly in his direction.

At the sound of my voice, he looked up in surprise. "Ayame…"He breathed, a light pink tint rising in his cheeks. "I figured you wouldn't want to come."

I looked at him slightly confused, my head cocked to one side. "Why wouldn't I want to come?" I asked.

He shook his head slowly. "I don't know. Just…Just forget I ever said that." He sighed, standing up. "Oh, and you don't have to bow to me." He added, smiling delicately.

I blushed and looked down at my feet, my smooth curls falling softly around my fragile face. Suddenly, I felt his hand gently turn my face up so I was looking directly into his eyes. He was so close I could feel his warm breath on my as he spoke.

"You look pretty today with your hair curled like that." He whispered, blushing and letting his hand fall from my face. He gestured quickly to another desk beside his. "That's where you can sit if you still want to help me…"

"Of course I still want to help you!" I said sitting on the chair behind the desk.

He smiled gently at me before taking his own seat, and passing me a pile of his paperwork. He didn't bother explain what I was suppose to do. I'd done this before and was actually quite good at it.

We sat there working in silence for awhile and when I was sure he wasn't looking, I would steal glances at his perfect face. I even caught myself staring at him a few times. But what really made me happy was that sometimes, when I looked over at Toshiro, I caught him staring at me too. When our eyes locked, we'd both blush and hurriedly turn away before continuing our work.

After a few hours, Toshiro turned to look at me, one arm on the arm rest of the chair he was in. His chin was resting gently in the palm of his other ivory hand, a small smile playing on his lips. I silently admitted to myself that he definitely looked like a male model.

"Hey Ayame," he started softly. "Do you want to take a break? We've been working for awhile now. Or, you can go home if you'd like. You could even leave for awhile and come back later if you wanted to." He stood up from his desk and stretched his arms above his head, watching me calmly.

I stood up too and flashed my gorgeous smile. "I'll take a break with you and finish later." I said.

He was still watching me, the shadows of a smile etched into his flawless face. "Okay, but I'm just going to walk around for awhile. You mind?"

I shook my head. "No, no. Not at all! I still want to go with you, if you're okay with that. Do you mind?"

Toshiro shook his head too. "No, of course not, Ayame."

I smiled as he said my name. "Thanks Captain." I murmured under my breath.

He started walking towards the door, but when he reached it, he paused and glanced back at me, smirking just slightly. "You know, you don't have to call me 'Captain.' You can call me Toshiro."

I blushed and looked down at my feet again as he walked out of the room, chuckling softly to himself.

"You're going to have to move from that spot if you want to come with me." He called from the hallway, humor hidden in his voice.

I blushed even more, turning an even deeper shade of red. "C-coming!" I said, rushing out of the room after him.

We walked around for awhile, laughing and talking a lot. Matsumoto had once told me a long time ago that I was definitely one of the few people that Toshiro would talk to casually. He was always so quite and serious, but when we were together, he was open, and I really loved that.

"Ayame Sikuzi!" A voice called from behind us. Both Toshiro and I stopped and automatically turned around.

"Hello Gin." I said, smiling at the creepy captain of squad 3.

"Good afternoon, Ayame! And same to you, Captain Hitsugaya!" Ichimaru said, paying little attention to Toshiro. Gin was about 2 feet in front of me now, smiling down at me in a way that sent icy chills down my spine.

"I would hardly call this 'afternoon.'" I said, looking around me at the sudden darkness that was beginning to set in.

"Yes, yes. That's true. So why exactly are the two of you walking around alone together?" Ichimaru asked, eyeing Toshiro suspiciously.

"Can a captain and squad member not walk around together?" Toshiro asked coolly.

Ichimaru's grin widened at Toshiro's bitter tone. "Well, I'm just worried about my sweet Ayame. I don't want her to get hurt, ya know."

Toshiro's eyes narrowed. "And you think I do? Besides, she's with me so she'll be perfectly safe."

I bit my lip nervously. I didn't like them fighting because I knew it would end badly. Besides, they weren't great friends to begin with.

"Hey, Toshiro, don't you think we should get going?" I asked, forcing a smile.

Both Toshiro and Ichimaru turned to face me, their faces hard and emotionless.

"Yeah, we probably should…" Toshiro muttered, shooting a nasty glare at Ichimaru quickly.

"It was nice talking to you, Gin!" I'll see you around, perhaps tomorrow!" I called over my shoulder as Toshiro and I headed back to his office.

After a few minutes of walking in silence, Toshiro turned to look at me. "Why are you always so nice to him?" he asked quietly.

I laughed. "You know how I am. I'm nice to everyone, even if they scare me a little, like Ichimaru. God…I hate being alone with him. I'm always afraid he's going to try to like rape me or something!" I shuddered. "But, that doesn't mean I'm going to treat him differently."

Toshiro was laughing at this point and I laughed along with him. I made me feel happy, hearing him laugh like that. Matsumoto was right, not many people could get him to talk, let alone laugh like this. It made me feel almost special that I could and I gladly committed the sound to memory.

When we finally reached his office again, we both went inside and returned to the seats we were in before. Again, we sat in silence as we worked, stealing glances at each other whenever we could. I was laughing to myself silently at our behavior. It reminded me of how we were when we were little. I felt a small smile spread across my lips at the thought of the memories.

Hours slowly crept by and I could feel my eyelids growing heavy but I had to stay awake. I had to finish the paperwork in front of me. Besides, I didn't want to leave, not yet.

I could feel Toshiro's eyes on me.

"Ayame, you look really tired. You can go home if you want. I'll finish on my own." He whispered softly.

"No! It's okay! I can handle this! I'm almost done!" I said, trying not to sound too eager to stay.

"Are you sure? I think you should get some rest, but if you want to stay and finish, you can." I could sense the concern in his voice.

"Yeah, I'm sure. I can definitely handle this!" I said, flashing my breathtaking smile at him.

He smiled back at me and shook his head. "Always the same, aren't we Ayame?" He sighed, turning back to his work.

I laughed. "Yeah, I've been like this ever since I was a kid, haven't I?" I turned my attention back to the pile of paperwork in front of me. My mind wandered though, back to when I was a child, alone and lost in the soul society. I thought back to when I first set eyes on Toshiro, always too afraid to approach him. In the end, he was the one that came to me. The memories weaved in and out of my mind, showing me the fun times I use to have with my captain. I missed it all, especially spending so much time with him. It was pathetic, I knew, but I had been in love with Toshiro Hitsugaya ever since I'd first laid eyes on him. But soon, I grew too tired to stay awake and in a few moments time, my eyes began to close and everything around me went black, casting me into a deep sleep.

Well, that was the first chapter. And sorry it was so short. I'm not positive how long all of the chapters are going to be because 1) when you write it on paper, it's a lot shorter when you type it and 2) It's not split up into chapters right now. I'm doing that as I type it. :o

Please review and until next time, farewell!

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