It started out as just a simple kiss. It meant nothing; it was nothing. Just a random moment that doesn't often occur in my life, having never been kissed. But, now that I think about it, it meant everything. It was life-altering to me and I can't even begin to tell you why it was. It was supposed to happen; it was supposed to change me. Now that it has, I wish I could turn back time and pretend like it never happened. I just want my emotions to turn back to normal instead of insane because, right now, that's what they are. I've fallen in love with my best friend…and I don't want to be.
It was just an ordinary day like any other. The sun hanged high in the clear, blue fullness of the sky and the clouds were nothing but little white puffs. A small breeze blew against the trees, shaking their branches and rustling the leaves. It was a regular training day in the forest and, what seemed at the time, a typical, boring day. I didn't think of it any different. My short, dark hair blew with the wind as it touched my skin. I sat on the branch of the tree, looking out and watching the others. I smiled, seeing them working hard for our next mission. Those blue eyes stared up at me, so innocent and bright that it almost made me want to smile back at him. I looked away though, as he did. With his view away from mine, I looked down at him and smiled. "Are you gonna sit there all day, Sasuke, or are you going to finally decide to join us," my Jounin, Kakashi, yells from the ground staring up at me.
I looked down at him in my usual cold-shouldered face and jumped out from the tree to join them. I could feel the spring breeze around me. That blond-haired, blue-eyed boys' smile returned to his face. It glowed like the rays of the sun, my eyes not wanting to look away from it. "I'm so gonna beat you this time," he says with arrogance at me as we walked back to the village to gather equipment. "You'll be the one eating my dust when I beat you there."
I roll my eyes and remain silent, knowing this ignorance of me answering him bothered him. It was enjoyable to watch him angry to say the least. His cheeks would turn a bright red and his whiskers would be colored in a reddish tint as well. His eyes would glaze over and just stare at me. I had to hold back any sort of laughter that came to my throat. "Awe c'mon, Sasuke, aren't you gonna say anything at all? You've been silent like this for the past three days. You hardly talk to anyone. C'mon…just one witty line," the blond-haired boy asks me.
I couldn't resist an answer at this point. His voice seemed to be begging me to talk. I had to though; watching him annoyed made me smile. I simply shook my head "no" in response. He remained silent, waiting for an answer; those blue eyes piercing into my skin. I looked away, part of me wanting to turn from them yet part of me desperately wanting to keep that gaze forever. Those blue eyes that haunted my dreams and stayed with me even when we were miles apart. I had a hard time admitting to myself how much I loved those blue eyes, let alone admit to him how I loved his eyes. Even daring to say those words to him would be a death curse, or worse. "If you don't talk to him, he's just going to keep begging so why don't you do us all a favor and talk to him," Sakura says, glaring at me as she looked back.
Must have been her time of the month. She's always temper mental when she's on hers. It's something you just know when you've been team mates since you were 12-years-old. I looked at him, his pathetic annoyance almost killing me. "I'm in no mood to talk and haven't been for a while, Naruto. Is that so hard to expect from me," I finally say to him. "So please, go bother someone else for a bit."
Naruto almost screams after I finish and turn my gaze back towards the front. He desperately tries not to, though it doesn't seem like it was working. I roll my eyes again, wishing he would just leave my side and walk behind me or in front of me so his gaze wouldn't be so close to mine. If I looked too long, something else would happen that I was afraid I wouldn't be able to hold back on. Making a move that I knew wasn't the right thing to do at the time. So I simply walked ahead of him, still having the knowledge that those eyes were blazing into my back. He didn't say anything for the rest of the time; just a simple annoyed groan and crossing his arms across his chest.
As we reached the inner gates of the village, Naruto finally couldn't resist his pestering nerve to speak. It was peaceful to say the least, the silence of the forest surrounding me and calming the treacherous thoughts that roamed through my mind. Things I'd rather kept locked away instead of blurting them out to a crowd of friends that would surprised to hear what was reeking havoc through me. In any sort of way, it wasn't at all pleasant. I needed that quiet peace of the forest; it's calming; it's relaxing; it's a complete escape from the inner workings of a teenage boys' sexually active, hormone-pumped head…brain. But, as it has been said many times, all good things must come to an end. And it did as soon as Naruto opened his mouth. "So, when are we leaving for the mission? I want to get some ramen in before we go," he announces.
Kakashi turns his head back towards him. "You'll have plenty of time to eat some ramen before we leave, Naruto. We won't leave for another week. We just need this extra time to practice on the basics. Seeing as how you struggled standing on the water, we'll start with chakra training tomorrow."
"I wasn't struggling," Naruto lies. "I just got a bit distracted by…something." His awkward pause and abnormal embarrassed blush ponder me to stare at him for a moment. He seemed almost nervous; suspicious to say the least. As I look at him, he tries to return my gaze but is too nervous to look my direction for long. He clears his throat, finally able to speak. "It was just a bird I saw flying by us. Just a bird," he lies again.
I look at him. He completely turns his head in the opposite direction. He refuses to look at me let alone even gaze in my direction. It just happened randomly and I didn't even know why it happened. I could tell it was really bothering him. I kept my mouth shut; kept my gaze in the direction I was walking so not to scare him in any sort of way. I hoped he was ok though. We reach the village 15 minutes later and he's still silent. I wave to the others, turning away from them to walk home. Naruto turns towards his apartment; an improvement in what he used to live in. An increase in his salary will do that to you I guess when you have enough money to afford a bigger place to live. I reach my home, drop my stuff inside, and run back to his apartment. It's still in the same area; still has the same glorious views of the city. I can see him through his window, which remains without glass for easy access. It's not particularly his nature to care about other ninjas or people getting in and robbing him; he doesn't have very much as it is.
Leaping through the curves and turns of the village roads, I make it towards his apartment building. He's sitting on the window seal, his face staring into the distance. His eyes looking into the serenity of his home and the entire town. It was breath-taking to see him so calm and peaceful; a sight that is usually hidden from me. He's usually hyper and rushed when I see him. Puberty has finally taken it's affect and calmed him down a bit. Nothing was wrong with that. He still possessed the occasional 10-year-old Ritalin-rush child that I had grown accustom to, but just more relaxed than he once was. "Do you always look like this or is this something I might not want to get used to," I yell from below, staring up at him.
He looks down at me, rolls his eyes, and looks away. He signals with a single arm motion that it's ok to come up. I jump up from the buildings below. He moves over as I jump through his window, then moves back. "I wasn't expecting to see you so suddenly," he replies. "I thought you'd be busy at home."
"With what? Cleaning the cob webs from the pillars or dusting off every surface in my house? There isn't much to do in my house," I respond.
"Well anything besides coming to see me. You've been avoiding me for a while so I figured that something had to have been bothering you. Besides, when did you actually care enough to come see me?"
"Well you're sudden awkward silence didn't help much. What was that about anyways. You're usually chatting up a storm once we get back to the village and today, you didn't have anything to say at all. Why the sudden awkward silence?"
Naruto is quiet once again. He doesn't say anything and turns his sight back to the outside. His face changes once again. It's more awkward and nervous, like before in the forest. Now I know something is bothering him. I walk up to him and press my hand against his shoulder in a comforting manner, though my brain is thinking a million other things right now. I can't help myself; I'm a teenager. I've already established that I liked him but I haven't directly said it until now. "You know you can tell me what's wrong. I might have my ass hole moments but that doesn't mean I'm not your friend."
He looks back me, my sincere eyes looking down at him. His blue eyes look back into mine; unable to look away. I feel my breath become weak. My thoughts spin at a hundred miles an hour. I feel myself being drawn towards him. The hairs on the back of my neck stand upright. My lips quiver in fear. And suddenly, my lips meet his. I can feel the back of his hand against my head. I grab his head in return. I could feel his lips opening slightly, my tongue taking it's opportunity to slip through. This kiss wasn't just passionate; it was fiery and heated. As I separate from him, I look him in the eyes. He looks back at mine, dumbfounded by what happened. "Apparently there's something you haven't told me that I think you should tell me now," I say.
The End…for now!