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I'm Sorry
By Alan's Only
Part 1
Sad endings
A soft whispers are all I hear…
A loud slaps are all around me…
A silent kiss is what I crave…
A hard voice is all I need…
Just to get me out of this world…
Of not reality…
If not to send me into a spiral of nothingness…
No hope…
But no pain…
No fear…
As I said nothingness…
As I pull my mind threw everything…
I lose a bit of myself…
I try to hold on…
Those hands, which try to hold me, they fall away…
I try to hold onto the falling hands…
But they still slip away…
My tears which burn my eyes…
Fall and they feel like fire upon my chest…
They make a sea…
Which I drown in…
The darkness of them soothes me…
They, finally, take me into the spiral…
Of nothingness…
And I wait for all feelings to leave…
The visions of you…
Your long black hair swirling in the snow…
Your dark brown eyes glinting in love…
They melt away…
Suddenly you come again…
And tell me nothing I can hear…
I start to cry…
As we walk away to our different lives…
As we try to forget what we had…
Dumbledore sat the poem down and looked around the students in the great hall, a smile on his face. All of the students, even most of the Slytherins, stood and clapped.
"Now, as all of you know this was not signed. So the winner of the poem contest shall go unnamed." Dumbledore said looking over all of the students. Many of the students looked disappointed. Dumbledore's smile grew as a young Gryffindor held a huge grin.
"Now as I promised time to eat!" Dumbledore said. As he spoke the lights brightened and once the last few words left his lips the food appeared.
Hermione smiled at the boys in front of her. One had bright red hair and the other had messy black hair and a lighting bolt scar poked though the bangs.
"That was amazing!" Harry said with a smile.
"Yes I would love to find out who wrote that…They have a way with words…" Ron said with a far away look. Hermione smiled and started to eat.
"I can't believe that school is all most over…it doesn't feel like this should be the leaving feast." Hermione said with a smile.
"Yeah!" agreed the boys. The all raised their goblets and gave a cheer. They drank deeply from them.
"So, Hermione. Do you have any idea about who wrote that?" asked Ron Hermione shrugged her shoulders and took a bite of ham.
"Oh Hermione you said you would…" Ron started to say but he looked over Hermione's shoulder. His eyes met the potions master Severus Snape. "Hello professor Snape." Ron said. Most of the hatred was gone scene they all worked together in defeating Voldemort. Although all of the insults could never be forgotten.
"Mr. Weasley." Snape said curtly. And looked down at Hermione. He bent over to whisper her ear. She was startled but his voice soothed her. "Very good writing Ms Granger…I loved the poem."
"What do you mean professor?" Hermione said in a normal voice. She only had a small crowd, Harry and Ron,
because everyone else was way to happy and celebrating.
"I know your writing ability…I have been your Professor for 7 years." Snape whispered. His eyes looked over at Ron and Harry they both had a weird look. "I miss you too…" He whispered he stood and walked out of the great hall. Hermione's glance followed him.
"What'd he want? Hermione?" Harry asked raising an eyebrow. Hermione looked over at them.
"Um…He wanted to tell me goodbye…" Hermione lied. Ginny looked over. She was a quite spectator and heard everything Snape had said. She knew what had gone on with them.
flashback
"Ginny!" Hermione said hurriedly she grabbed the other girl's arm and pulled her out into the hall.
"What's the matter Hermione?" asked Ginny. She looked Hermione over; she had some blood on her robes. She also looked out of breath.
"I-I was com-ming back from m-my rounds and found Snape…" Hermione said gasps for breaths broke her words.
"Oh no…What did Snape do to you?" asked Ginny her voice was full of worry.
"Nothing. I helped him into his rooms. I left him in okay condition and ran away..." Hermione said.
"Why did you come here and not to Pomfry?" Ginny asked.
"Because he told me not to…" Hermione said with a faint blush.
end of flashback
That was how it all started…Soon Hermione was making up reasons to see him. Then once her grades started to slip. Snape told her no more and left her to cry in the library. That's were Ginny had found her and that's when Ginny had found out about the whole thing.
Ginny looked at Hermione and leaned over to whisper in her ear. "You should tell them…"
"Harry, Ron, I'm sorry but it well have to wait tell I'm sure the surprise well not…um…stop." Hermione said she stood and walked out after Snape. Ginny sighed and looked at the boys. They looked sad.
"You guys don't take it to heart. I'm sure you'll find out." Ginny said with a smile.
"Professor?" Hermione asked she opened the potion's room door. He was not at his desk. Hermione walked into the room and looked around. Suddenly the door snapped closed. Hermione spun around and her eyes met Snape's in front of the closed door.
"Hermione?" Snape asked. She couldn't see his face but could tell he was sad.
"Yes…Severus" Hermione whispered back.
"I'm sorry…For before…I should've never fell into temptation…" Severus said he walked forward so Hermione could see his face in the bright moon light coming in from the windows in the front of the room. His face was full of regret.
"Severus, trust me, you did nothing I will ever regret." Hermione said as she walked up to Severus and leaned her head onto his chest.
He wrapped his arms around her and his scent enveloped her. It was new and much more pleasing. It was of lemons and 'Old Spice'.
"I like your new scent…" she whispered. He hugged her tighter.
"Yours hasn't changed…" Severus said. Hermione's eyebrows furrowed until he finished. "And it has the same effect on me." He pressed Hermione close to him and she could feel the 'effect'.
"I'll never change my scent." Hermione whispered she looked up at him and smirked knowing that it to will have the same 'effect'. "If it well all ways have the same effect."Severus looked down at her.
Hermione stood on her tiptoes and captured his lips in a long awaited kiss. A low moan came from his throat as she deepened the kiss.
Hermione looked down at Severus. He his eyes watched her as she moved. She kept the rhythm and sent him up the steep hill. She to was walking up the hill but a bit faster. She came before him and her cry brought him. She fell onto his chest and they just breathed their ragged breaths, as their sweat mingled. He held her to him and kissed the top of her head.
The cold of the classroom felt good on their hot bodies. And the black velvet of Severus's sheet let the cold Stone floor cool Severus's back. Hermione slipped off of him, carefully, and smiled.
"Are you sure that thing works?" Asked Severus in a low voice, looking down at Hermione's abdomen.
Hermione smiled and whispered, "Up to three times…" she slowly picked up Severus's hand and kissed it.
Severus laughed his deep rich laugh and stroked her face with a smile on his lips. "The one thing a mortal man can't say no to…" he said. Then he captured her lips in another kiss as he rolled on top of her.
Just as he kissed her chest a quite knock on the classroom door split them apart. Severus stood and grabbed his wand he made their clothes appear and the sheets disappear.
"But Severus I can't stand! The…your…will spill out…" Hermione whispered from her spot on the floor. She looked up with a sorry look in her eyes.
Severus nodded and walked over to the door. He took off the many spells he had placed on the door. He opened it and looked out. Hermione could hear Ginny's voice.
"Sorry to interrupt you Professor…I was wondering. Is Hermione was down here?" Ginny asked
"Yes but she can't come to the door. Wait out here and I well send her out." Severus commanded and shut the door with the normal bang. He put a silencing spell and walked over to Hermione.
"I will hurry…" Hermione said, as she looked up.
Severus's lips turned up and lifted her into his arms he walked to the door connecting his class to his office opened it, somehow, and walked in he sat her on the desk and whispered. "Take it out I will wait for you in the class..."
He turned to leave but Hermione stopped him. "You take it out." She whispered. She opened her legs and reached under her skirt her panties slipped down to her ankles. She took Severus's hand and pulled it under her skirt.
"Hermione…you must hurry…" Severus said. But Hermione just pushed Severus's hand further up. Snape sighed and felt around the tips of his fingers met plastic. She told him to twist it then pull it out. Which he did. A light moan from Hermione filled the room. He pulled out the muggle anti-birth thing and made it disappear.
"Now go see your friend and I will see you tomorrow." Severus said helping her off the desk. Hermione smiled and pulled her panties back up into their original spot. She gave him a final kiss on the lips and left.
"Hermione are you all right?" Ginny asked as Hermione opened the door and walked out into the hall.
"Yes, of course. I'm fine!" Hermione said with a smile.
"Oh…I was scared that…um…Snape was hurting you…" Ginny said with a small frown.
"Don't worry. Lets go." Hermione offered. Ginny nodded and Ginny followed her.
The next morning came faster than wanted for Hermione. She woke up and walked down with Ginny, Ron and Harry. Once they sat down owls started to fly into the great hall. A huge black eagle landed in front of Ginny. She smiled and took the little package from its beak. She untied the box and opened it. Her eyes felled with tears and she stood Hermione looked up after her with a frown. Ginny smile and walked over to the Slytherin table she found a certain blond haired blue eyed Slytherin and embraced him.
Hermione's hands covered her mouth as she put two and two together. She smiled for them then she notice all other 7th year females were getting packages and going to their fiancées. Ron and Harry even had women in their laps, Cho in Harry's and Juel in Ron's. No owls came to her. She looked up at the high table; Snape wasn't at his chair. She looked down at her food and ate.
She knew it was a tradition to ask your school sweet hart, in Hogwarts, to marry you. She had read it in 'Hogwarts a History'.
"Hermione?" asked Ron. Looking over Juel's rather ample breasts.
She looked up with tears in her eyes. "What Ron?" she asked. Disgusted at the sight of all the couples and the looks in all of the younger students eyes, they dropped and looked at the table.
"I thought you had a secret?" Ron asked. Hermione broke down crying. Her face fell into her arms and cried onto the tabletop.
"I thought I did to…" Hermione cried. Ron looked at Juel She got up, as did Cho. Harry and Ron walked over to comfort Hermione.
"Hermione…It's ok…" whispered Harry and Ron together. Hermione looked up and looked around tears spilling down her cheeks.
"No, it's not…" Hermione stared but Dumbledore standing silenced them all.
"Children, I have a very grave announcement." Dumbledore said, sorrow in every wrinkle and not a twinkle in sight. All of the students looked up at him and waited.
"Last night one of your teachers left us. He was a spy through all of the war. He helped us in our time of need and helped us win the war. But now it is past his time of need and we had to stand back and let it take its course. Professor Severus Snape has died in the hands of the few remaining Death Eaters. We have no body we are only going on what the last captured Death eater told us." Said Dumbledore. Hermione's eyes widened and she gave a cry. Her tears ran harder.
"Every one will get ready to go and well all met on the school grounds to leave." Dumbledore said over Hermione's sobbing. He knew why she was sobbing and it hurt him he couldn't comfort her because that would mean he had no problems with their relationship. Really, he only had one, it was that; it was a teacher student one.
Most of the students walked out of the room upon seeing that Dumbledore was done even Harry and Ron left a sobbing Hermione alone. Dumbledore took pity and walked down to her. He sat next to her and looked at her waiting for her to look up at him. When she did not he sat a gentle hand on her shoulder.
"Ms Granger? Are you all right?" he asked softly, fatherly.
Hermione looked up at him her eyes still making tears and they still rolled down her cheeks. "D-dumbledore?" she asked a little worried that her show of emotion would be punished.
"Listen…I never did like your relationship with him. That's why he called the whole thing off…" Dumbledore said and held up his hand when she tried to talk. "Shhh… But yesterday showed me that it wasn't a 'caught in the lust' sorta thing, you really loved him. I'm sorry that I doubted that fact."
"Thank you Headmaster…" Hermione whispered. Wiping her face and eyes with her robe's sleeve.
"And I know that if Severus was here today; you sure in the heck wouldn't be in here." Dumbledore said. Then a smile came to his lips and a look in his eyes like he just remembered something funny, "Do you know what about a seventh of the school is doing right about now?" Hermione cringed at the thought.
"Do you know how long it takes to get the smell out?" Dumbledore asked with another smile. Hermione cringed again but a smile came to her face as well.
"Be careful with Snape's class and sheets…" Hermione said with a little giggle.
"Oh my god! You two even did it in the class room?" Dumbledore said with a fake exasperated sigh. A blush came to Hermione's cheeks.
"Just last night…" she admitted. Dumbledore raised an eyebrow.
"About what time?" Dumbledore asked.
"Well…About 6:30...and we were done by 8…Ginny came by and I left about 8:30." Hermione said. Dumbledore sighed and gave a warm smile.
"All right…" he said he looked a bit disappointed as he stood. "You should get ready to go." He added as he walked away.
Hermione got up and walked out of the great hall and outside. She could see a couple of students were out buy the lake and Harry and Ron were under the great oak. She didn't feel like watching them snogg with there soon to be wives. She walked to the gates and sat down, the cold brass felt nice on her cheek. More tears spilled down her face as thoughts of Snape filled her head.
She cried quietly and waited for the so-called horseless drawn carriages.
TBC
An/ sad…I know…But I have a very big hunch that Snape will die in the seventh book…But I can only hope not…My mom says he well be a unsung hero.
AN/ Cover up Mr. Twitchy or you'll wined up itchy.