This is a short thing based on nine lines from Whisper by Evanescence.
It is Ianto's thoughts as he lays dying.
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Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me I fear
She beckons me
Shall I give in
Upon my end shall I begin
Forsaking all I've fallen for
I rise to meet my end
From Whisper by Evanescence
It's nearing, I know that as the blood seeps out of me. People say your life flashes before your eyes before you die, but mine isn't. Not that I mind too much. I don't know if I want to see it. So much pain, so much death. Lies, betrayal. Now it's my death. My breathing is getting more and more shallow. I can barely see my chest rise and fall now. That can't be a good sign. My hand automatically moves to cover the gunshot wound. It's sticky now, and cold. All of me is cold. It seems to be seeping through my veins, running through the little blood left in my young body. Young. That word stings me. Death is lying beside me, and I am only twenty-five years old. I take another breath, more painful than the last. It feels like shards of glass are piercing my lungs. I scrunch my eyes, silently wincing. It's bad enough that I've been shot, but does all the rest of me really have to bloody hurt as well? I really don't envy Jack, coming back each and every time, just to die again. I couldn't do it. I'd wrap myself in cotton wool, I'd never put myself in any life-threatening danger. Anything to not have to go through this again. Death is here, I can sense her. She's edging ever closer to me, whispering. Such sweet whispers…
Do I give in? I have so much to leave behind. Torchwood. My friends, my family, Jack. What will happen to the team without the regular cup of steaming coffee I provide them with? My body shudders. It doesn't bear thinking about. I'm going to miss Torchwood. It may have done this to me, but…
I drifted away there, but I'm back, I'm okay. Death took over, but just for a second. As I was saying, it did this to me, it caused me to lose Lisa. She was so beautiful, so amazing. I loved her so so much…
But not as much as I love Jack. Captain Jack Harkness. The man who doesn't exist, the man who can never die. The most impossible man I have ever met. But also the most wonderful, the most sensational, the most caring, the most loving. The list is endless…
But he'd not all Torchwood is. He is the leader and the centre, but it's the others who hold it together, in their own little ways. Until Toshiko and Owen left us…
Toshiko Sato, the smartest, cleverest genius who ever lived. She kept everything inside. Until her final message, the last thing we ever heard Tosh say…
Dr Owen Harper, the best doctor there ever was. With the worst bedside manner. He should never have died, the first or the second time…
Gwen Cooper, the heart of Torchwood. She cares about the people affected by us. And she made the rest of us care too…
I'm giving in to the whispers. I can't do this any longer. It is time I let go. It's time for me to meet my end…
These are the dying thoughts of Ianto Jones…
I'm going…
It's over…
I am gone…