natsu sat on the seawall overlooking the bay in magnolia behind his guild fairytail, his home away from home.
Tears slowly cascading down soft pale cheeks, the wetness left in their wake glistening in the light that came from the moon and stars.
If one cared to listen small sobs and wimpers would be heard but who would expect a normally bright, happy and fisty person to be crying as if thier heart bleed...
*natsu pov*
(one hour earlier)
I push the guild doors open with the slam and bounce over to the bar wear mira was. "I am really happy our mission to stop those wizard robbers went awesome" I exclaimed happily to mira. i ordered some blood pops and waited for gajeel to come back from his mission. 'He should be back soon if he didn't get hurt i hope he didn't', as if On Cue with my thoughts gajeel walked through the doors and I have to work hard to hide my smile and i feel my heart flutter and my dragon self purr with happiness.
He walks right up to the bar ask for a drink and before i can even say hi or trow a fake insult at him he turns around and gets of on a nearby table and yells for the guild attention gajeel says he has and announcement to make.
As the room quieted "Levy i have a question for you would you like to go on a date with me", and as he asks her for a date my heart plummets I slowly choke a sob back my ear tuning out everything my eyes and throat start to sting and i sit up wiping eyes and sprint out of the back door of the guild trying to run away from my brolen heart i never see mira, gray and gajeels. I end up looking at the water siting at the edge of the bay. After sitting there for a long time i get up and head to east forest were his cottage is Grief consumes me my mate does not even care, 'does he know that im his mate, i dont knknow im not good enough anyways look at yourself natsu your ugly not at all someone he would like, just look choseing levy over you he must not like your mustles and your flat chest and butt and your hairs to short and how you dress not to mention your personality just face it there is no good quality that you have,your not even a little bit cute or attractive who would want someone as useless, ugly and talentless as a mate mush less a friend' im right more tears of self hated flow from my eyes as i drage myself across the bridge and thru my door past the couch, happys bed and the kitchen and up the stairs to my nest of blankets a pillows does the dam of the beginng stages of getting rejacted by one maye kich in my teas flow my sobs turn into keening wails of agony my body and heart heavy with pain.