Disclaimer: Don't own anything just the story.

AN: Inspired by the episode Wrongs Darker than Death or Night. At the end of her life Kira Meru does some thinking.

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How many days has it been since I've come here?

That question comes to my mind as I look up at the ceiling; a few days ago I was completely healthy, then there was a bomb placed inside the shuttlecraft that Dukat took me on. Now I'm lying on a hospital bed in a Cardassian hospital, all because of Dukat.

Dukat; my mind spits his name out with contempt. I tried to convince myself that I love him, but I don't. I never have and never will.

How can I love the man that represses and orders the deaths of my people? How can I love a man who took me away from my family? My loving husband Taban, my beautiful children, Nerys and Potr. Are they all right? What did Taban tell them? Do they hate me?

I never had an answer to those questions, except for that message Taban sent to me telling me they were home, that he still loved me for what I was doing. Then a bomb Laurel had planted went off.

Laurel; to this day I miss her and I hate her for making me see the truth, I am a collaborator and I did deserve everything I got. I told her how much I adored Dukat but I hated him then and I hate him even more now.

Ten years I've been his comfort woman, although whore is a much more fitting term. The only reason I did it was for Taban and our beautiful children; children whose lives I have missed, children who never got to have the mother they deserved. I hated him touching me but somehow I found the strength.

I feel the strength leaving my body and the coldness creeping on me ever so slowly, but I don't want to fight it; I'm tired of fighting, I'm tired of suffering from the touch of a man that I hate. The dictator of my world.

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Just then the object of my scorn comes in, his face is filled with concern but it means nothing to me. "Meru?"

"How long have I been here?"

"Three days but you took some shrapnel in your chest and stomach, the doctors have tried everything they could think of but there's nothing they can do for you."

"I know I feel the end coming, Dukat are my children safe."

"They went home with their father when we got together."

"When I became your captive whore, Laurel was right about you Dukat."

"Meru please."

"No Dukat, I'm done listening to you and your lies, I hate you with every fiber of my being. Maybe for awhile I thought I loved you but Taban is the only man I've ever loved, I hated you for taking me away from my children, I hated every time you touched me. The Prophets have finally answered my prayers, to get me out of this hell. I'll hate you to the end of time!"

He says my name again but a spasm of pain ripples through me and so do the prayers.

Taban forgive me, I loved only you.

Laurel forgive me, you were right all along I was a fool not to see it and you killed yourself trying to show me.

I wished every Bajoran could forgive me; I've always been one of you.

Nerys and Potr, please be the ones who most of all that forgive me. I tried to protect you even though I wasn't there personally.

Prophets forgive me.

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AN: I think Major Kira had two brothers in that episode but I can't remember the name of the other one. I hope you enjoyed the fic.