He rolled over into his back as he had so, many times before. It was almost a ritual as he buried his face into his warm pale back. That freckle he could always pick out no matter how dark it was. His finger touched it gently as he felt like he could never have him. Mello wouldn't let him have him. They were friends and nothing more, right? Roommates he had remembered him saying.
He let out a breath at this thought as he turned over on his back staring up at the apartment ceiling. He had fallen in love with Mello a long time ago. It had been a sweet soft affection and it only continued to grow with each passing day. Only, his longing for Mello's attention grew to the point where now it wasn't bearable, but Mello had told him he could never love him. How he wanted him to love him, but it had been he still had feelings for someone else and that he wasn't ready to move on; he'd never be ready to move on, but damn he wanted him to look at him! To see him! He didn't though. Matt shifts beside the blond turning his head to the side to get a good look at the blonde's sleeping face. It was calm and collected as though relieved that the days worry are of no concern now. He smiles at the thought as he lightly touches him on the cheek with his index finger. He can feel as his body is tense at the contact. Its almost too much for him that it scares him to pull back. However, his eyes continued to stare as a thought teased his mind. Its a dangerous thought, but he doesn't care as he plays with it in his mind.
Shaking his head he sat up. Could he? What if Mello hated him for it though? Or he would love him for it one day. He shook his head looking over at him. Pulling back the blanket he touched his warm pale skin his hand sliding down the expanse of his side grasping his hipbone that slightly protruded. He could feel a tingling sensation up his arm as he continued to touch him. His pelvic bone, his waist, and back down again until in his mind he knew what he was going to do despite the consequences he wanted this, he'd make Mello want it too.
Should I write another chapter?