I Can't Fight This Feeling Anymore Chapter 1: Thinking of You, a grey's anatomy fanfic

I can't fight this feeling any longer.
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow.
What started out as friendship,
Has grown stronger.
I only wish I had the strength to let it show.

Alex was lying in bed thinking about the past few months, working with Addison and now he was finally working in plastics. His mind kept wandering to Addison Montgomery the beautiful red head that has been pre occupying his mind for the past few weeks. He hasn't worked with her in weeks and he hated her when he worked with her for forcing him to work on her service when he wanted to be in plastics. She was holding him back from doing what he loved to do and was meant to do.

I tell myself that I can't hold OUT forever.
I said there is no reason for my fear.
Cause I feel so secure when we're together.
You give my life direction,
You make everything so clear.

But now for some weird reason every night for the past two weeks he hasn't been able to get her out of his mind or forget one of the last few words she said to him before she let him off her service, "For what it's worth I think your going to miss me" Was she right was he missing her? His mind wandered to several of the patients they had worked on.

And even as I WANDER,
I'm keeping you in sight.
You're a candle in the window,
On a cold, dark winter's night.
And I'm getting closer than I ever THOUGHT I MIGHT.

His mind wandered to one of the last times they worked together

And I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
It's time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever.

Flashback:

Addison: Karev

Alex: How's she doing?

Addison: She made it through the surgery and so did the baby which is uhmmm...well it's just like I said the kids a fighter

Alex: You think she'll call the guy? The dad?

Addison: No it takes more then a well meaning speech to get a girl to make a commitment like that

Alex: Yeah

Addison: I appreciate it though you take...aaa it was surprising

Alex: Surprising

Addison: well for a Mark Sloan protege

Alex: lacky

Addison" Your a decent guy Alex I'd hate to see Sloan beat that out of you

Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
And if I have to crawl upon the floor,
Come crashing through your door,
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.

He remembered the intense moment they shared when their eyes met for those few seconds before they broke their stare.

Addison: Anyway

Alex: Yeah thanks

Addison: Alright then

Alex: Okay

He remembered how he felt as he watched her walk away.

My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you.
I've been running round in circles in my mind.
And it always seems that I'm following you, girl,
Cause you take me to the places,
That alone I'd never find.

He couldn't get out of his mind that she said he was a decent guy what did she mean? His mind was interuppted when his alarm went off he shook the feeling of Addison from him as he got ready for work.

And even as I wander,
I'm keeping you in sight.
You're a candle in the wind,
On a cold, dark winter's night.
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might.

The same night Addison was in her hotel room lying in bed with Mark. She was lying there but she couldn't stop thinking about Alex and one of the last times they worked together.