A/N: I apologize if it's OOC, I'm only on Episode 2 (and a half); AU?

I hate you!, you think, I fucking hate you!

But you know you're lying, you definitively are; because you're here, wrapped in her sheets, and you like the feeling of how her nude Tom Ford lipstick smudges into your lips.

Do you know how you ended up here?

Of course you do. She played the innocent girl card once again, she invited you into her hotel room, it's not her home, she lives in her brother's hospital room nowadays (another pity story she tells you to forgive her, you think highly of yourself for not giving in).

'I really regret the whole Nate thing,' she claims. You don't believe her, you aren't stupid, you're going to Yale.

'Whore!' You shout, 'Skank!' You've had enough.

And her eyes focuses on yours, giving you the same look she used to give you when you were flirting with older guys in order to get free drinks, the same look she used to give you when you set up Chuck on blind dates with the ugliest girls in school, the same look she used to give you when you two were experimenting those Sundays, after the sleep-overs, before Breakfast At Tiffany's.

'You don't love him,' She insists, and you want her to shut up. 'You think you do, but you don't. I know you B.'

You don't say anything, she keeps talking, you hate her.

Nate, the future husband, together forever; I'm never going to divorce you, don't even consider a prenuptial.

Serena, the best friend, together forever; stop stealing everything from me (and you wonder if those kisses apply too).

'I didn't come back for Nate, I came back for you.'

'Shut up... Shut up!'

'I love you B—'

And you kiss her, you're tired of the lies, you needed her to shut up; counterproductive.

She wins, you're stupid, you're not going to Yale, are you? You could have avoided this, you're stupid.

She wins, she steal another thing from you; it starts with Nate, it follows with your spotlight, keeps track with your kisses, your virginity (do you even regret not regretting it?), it finishes with your heart.

"I hate you! I fucking hate you!" You lie.