A/N- With Spring Break coming to an end, I thought I should do at least one thing productive. It appears that I've been neglecting to finish... well... every story I've started for the past few months now. I went through my computer and found some half stories here and there so I decided to make a completely new one. haha. This is actually based on a true story, so there will be quite a bit of ooc-ness. I'm sorry. Like it, hate it, whatever. I just really needed to let this out. Enjoy~!
Disclaimer: The only thing I own is the concept. Kingdom Hearts will never be mine. Boohoo.
No Regrets.
Roxas looked at the wall in front of him. He half laughed, "You've got to be kidding me."
Axel shushed him and half whispered, "Do you want to wake up my grandparents? Just climb over the wall."
Roxas took a deep breath. He came this far didn't he? He lied to his parents and walked twenty minutes, including the amount of time he spent getting lost; he wasn't about to just pass up an opportunity like this. The blonde stepped up onto the lowest part of a connecting wall and continued to slowly inch closer to the brick wall separating him from Axel's backyard.
"Just climb over. I'll catch you okay?" Axel stood on the other side with his arms outstretched slightly. Based on his skinny arms and lanky figure, it looked as though he would break the instant Roxas made it to the other side. Never the less, the blonde climbed over, gently finding the ground with some guidance from the redhead. He let out a small sigh of relief; he made it over with only three scratches.
"Come on, this way." Axel was already walking around the side of the house. Roxas followed silently, ducking underneath the first window he saw.
"Just climb through the window." The redhead pointed to a small, open window which Roxas assumed lead to his room.
"You first," Roxas said nervously. Axel shrugged and climbed in. The blonde followed and found himself atop a flower-print bed.
Roxas began to scan the area with his eyes. The room itself was very small and messy with three beds. He presumed he was sitting on Axel's sister's bed based on the flower pattern. Next to him was a bunk bed, probably for Axel and his brother. The tile floor was littered with empty boxes and clothes. Everything was cramped together. Roxas broke his mental scan as he heard Axel click the door locked. He walked across the room and sat on the bed next to the blonde.
"I haven't really talked to you much in person, have I?" Roxas was playing with his own fingers nervously, only looking up at the redhead every once in a while. He's known Axel since the summer, but they only ever talked through the phone. Roxas knew he was shy, but at that moment, he just felt ridiculous.
Axel smiled a bit, raising his teardrop tattoos closer to his green eyes, which narrowed a bit in a silent chuckle. He brought his gazed up to Roxas's baby face. "Yeah, I guess not."
Roxas laughed nervously, looking up to let blue eyes meet green. "I guess we didn't plan this out very well." He continued fidgeting with his fingers as he spoke.
Green eyes fell again in silent thought then looked back up with a fire in them. "I guess I'll be the one to make the first move then."
Roxas gasped slightly as his hands were grasped by larger ones and was pushed to the flowery bed. Axel attached his mouth to his, skillfully. He tasted like mint and chocolate, and Roxas liked it. Axel's hands roamed down his shirt to the blonde's pants, undoing the button and trying to pull them down. He scowled, "Skinny jeans…"
"Here," Roxas sat up and began to take off his own pants, bringing along his boxers. Axel smiled slightly as Roxas got his own foot stuck in the pant leg, "Don't laugh!"
"I'm not. I'm not." Axel chuckled softly a bit as Roxas fought his pants off. Blushing, the younger of the two pulled off the elder's shirt. Swiftly, Axel laid him back down and resumed their mini make out session. Their tongues fought, but Axel was obviously the more skilled of the two.
The blonde began to tug at the fabric of the redhead's pants. Despite the fact that they were sweat pants, they weren't moving. Axel smiled into the younger mouth then pulled back, taking off his pants, exposing himself completely. Roxas gasped. He couldn't help but stare and slightly caress the redhead stupidly. He concluded that Axel looked much skinnier without bulky clothes to conceal him, but it made other aspects of him look much... grander.
Roxas could feel himself blush as he huffed his hair in front of his eyes, completely embarrassed. He then flailed his arms in a childish manner, looking up at Axel, laughing nervously, his voice raising a few octaves. "First time."
Axel smiled and laughed coolly, making Roxas shiver. The redhead looked into Roxas's ocean blue eyes before lowering himself down between his legs. The blonde ran out of words from his already scarce supply. Axel was very skilled. As his mouth worked wonders on his hard member, Roxas began to breathe harder; he'd never felt this infinite ever before.
"Are you okay?"
Roxas swallowed dryly. He could barely register what Axel had said, but knew to reply, reflexively, in a positive way.
The redhead continued to suck until the blonde couldn't bare it anymore. No mess; it was quite impressive. Axel smiled seductively as he brought himself back up to Roxas's face. Lips crashed together once again, but now it was slightly rougher.
Between hasty breaths, Roxas squeaked. A finger had slipped into his entrance.
"Can I?" Axel looked down into Roxas's eyes. How could he say no? The blonde loved those green eyes, his cat-like smile, him.
"Do it, Axel. Please," Roxas moaned out. Axel proceeded. The blonde squirmed slightly as another finger was added, both moving pleasurably in sync. The redhead attached his mouth to the blonde's neck, leaving an obvious mark behind.
Then Roxas felt the fingers leave and something much bigger find his way to his entrance. He smiled in anticipation, but the penetration was delayed.
"Are you sure you want to do this?" Axel looked down at the quivering boy of fifteen beneath him, green eyes bright. "I don't want to take it unless you want me to."
Roxas groaned with impatience. "Do it, Axel."
"I just want to make sure that you're sure," Axel replied breathlessly, still staring soulfully down into blue orbs.
"I trust you."
At that, Roxas's eyes widened, he gripped the redhead closer and gasped. It hurt more than he thought it would. So why did he like it so much?
"Are you okay?" Axel's voice sounded concerned, but Roxas couldn't see his face.
"Yes!" Roxas was enjoying himself; all of his shyness flew out the window right then and there. The previous pain turned into pleasure. Axel chuckled and began to thrust more forcefully. The blonde quickly fell into rhythm with him as his hair was being gently pulled by the older male. Thrust after thrust, the blonde concealed his want to vocalize how he felt; in the back of his mind he still remembered the sleeping relatives in the next room.
Axel's thrusts began to grow harder and longer until they both felt each other peak. It was ecstasy.
The redhead pulled out of the younger boy and laid down beside him. Roxas rolled to his side, laying his head on Axel's shoulder. A lanky arm snaked its way around small shoulders, drawing circles with long fingers onto pale skin. Roxas sighed and closed his eyes, growing sleepy from the aerobic patterns being left on his arm.
"Hey, don't fall asleep now." Axel lazily looked down at the blonde on his chest.
Roxas smiled. "Try and stop me."
"You know I'd love to let you sleep with me naked, but my dad's coming home in thirty minutes." Axel laughed, nudging Roxas up. The blonde's face fell; he immediately rummaged around for his phone. Ten missed texts from his mom. Lovely.
"Oh fuck… My mom wants to know where I am… I'd better go."
"Yeah." Axel stood up, putting his pants back on. He outstretched a lanky arm offering his hand as Roxas pulled his own pants on as well. Taking the hand, they shook.
"It was nice having you over, Roxy." Axel smiled his signature smile, the one that made Roxas fall for him.
"It was nice to be here." Roxas smiled back. They dropped hands as the blonde crawled back out the window, over the wall, and started walking back to his own home.
"Sora, it's been five days." Roxas threw his cell phone in disgust and sprawled himself out next to his brunette best friend. "Why won't he text back?"
"I…" Sora looked over at Roxas. His hair was a mess. He hadn't changed his clothes for two days now. His eyes were red from another day spent crying at home. His left sleeve was always rolled all the way down, despite the brutally hot weather Destiny Islands was facing. How could he possibly tell what he really thought to his obviously hurting best friend? "I don't know what to tell you."
"How could I be that stupid?" Roxas wasn't yelling at Sora, but was yelling nonetheless. "Who would actually love me back? Why did I think someone would actually fucking love me back?"
"Hey, hey." Tears were streaming down the blonde's face. Sora felt awful. He put his arms around the broken teen and spoke softly. "It's okay, Roxas. Alright? He'll come around. He'll talk again I promise."
"You don't know that. If he fucking gave a damn about me, he would be talking to me. But, no," Roxas's tear-stained face hardened as he shook his head in the brunette's embrace. "He used me, Sora. Like the god damn rest of them. He used me!"
"Roxas…"
"But I don't regret it."
Sora's face turned to confusion. He knew Roxas wasn't like anyone else, but that sentence just seemed weird to him. He didn't regret being used? Axel took his virginity then threw him away. The brunette's nosed crinkled up in wordless question.
"I really love him."
A/N- And that's the end of that. haha. Tell me what you think. Love it, hate it, it's your opinion; voice it. Also you could tell me if I should expand. Add a sequel? Prequel? It could use both, but I don't know how badly it really needs them. Anyway, thank you for reading, my lovelies.
-The Raven.