Dear Bro,
In case you're not aware…it's Dave. I'm writing you a letter cause well…I won't be around to tell you myself. I'm going on away for a while. For…a long, long while…
Bro I don't really know how to…to write this. It's so hard to put these damn feelings into words you have no fucking idea. The only way to really, truly understand how I feel is to show you, but you'll see that after you find this letter. Bro please remember that I love you…so, so much…probably more than anything. You're the best big brother any kid could ask for. I'm sorry I'm such a disappointment, a failure. I mess up a lot I know. And you punish me for it as you should. I should be punished for my mistakes. I mess up too much and it's getting worse. Now I mess up at least ten times a day and I just can't…deal with any more mistakes.
I never really seem to be good enough for anyone. Jade left me for Karkat, John left me for Vriska, and Rose left for Kanaya. You left for Jake. Now I'm alone with no one. And I don't really think anyone understands how much that hurts. I have no one to fucking talk to about these feelings, or anything for that matter. Everyone's always out not giving a single fuck about me.
Bro what I'm going to do tonight…will probably be the worst decision I ever make but…I feel like it's the right thing to do. I'm not needed here anymore. My part is done. What is one person to billions. The answer is nothing. All that "we all have purpose in this world" is total bullshit. If I had purpose then I would've found it and I wouldn't be writing this letter to you right now.
You used to beat me. Do you remember? I do. Before you were with English you used to beat me up if I didn't do something right when we strifed. Then you changed. I thought it was good at first because you were a lot nicer to me but then I realized that it only made things worse. You're never home. You're always with Jake. Never with me. Remember when we used to watch those stupid movies you like? Yeah well I remember. I hated those movies but I would watch them anyways because you enjoyed them. I used to do shit for you to make you happy and to see you happy made me I love you I really do but…I…just don't feel wanted by anyone anymore.
If you give this to John, Rose, and Jade, then good.I want them to read this too. Consider this a good-bye. You guys were always my best friends and you always will be in my heart. I hope you enjoy your lives with your boyfriends/girlfriends. I'll be hanging here, alone.
Now…Bro what I'm going to say next is probably the most important thing of all. I need you to go to the roof. I'll be by the TV antenna. Please don't freak out. Remain calm like you always are. Things might be red up there, depending on if what I'm going to do worked. Either way…I'm going to miss you, bro. I said I was going to go away for a while, a long while. Well that translates for…forever…I hope I'll see you all again someday. I…I love you guys…
Love,
Dave.