Warning: Rated for narrative self harm and attempted suicide. This is not that depressing dont worry.
Len.
I stood there in the altar, waiting patiently for the most beautiful bride that I have ever seen in my whole entire life- she was my friend, bestfriend, girlfriend, fiance, bride and soon to be wife just now, Miku Hatsune.
As our theme song for each other, Everything's Alright, was heard in the whole church. My twin sister was the one who was singing it with the help of our two friends Meiko and Luka, they were the one who's playing the instruments: violin and piano. I smiled. This is it. The day that I can completely call her mine.
Short steps,
Deep breath,
Everything is alright,
She was slowly walking in the long aisle together with her older brother, Mikuo, her arms were intertwined with his. I just cant help but blush. Nobody knows how thankful I was that I met this girl. Meeting her was one of the best things that ever happened to me.
Chin up,
I cant,
Step into the spotlight,
I admired her beauty while she was slowly walking in the aisle. She was wearing a long white A-line shaped silky gown that was reaching the red carpet that she's walking to. Her hair was loose down and a little silver tiara with a bunch of diamonds was on the top of her head with a long veil complimenting her long teal hair. Over all, she's totally breath taking.
She said,
Im sad,
Somehow without any words,
I just,
Stood there,
Searching for an answer,
She was close, a couple of inches away from me. Another smile crept into my lips as soon as I saw my beautiful bride getting closer every step that she is taking.
When this world is no more,
The moon is all we'll see,
I'll ask you, to fly away with me
Finally, she has reached the altar. Mikuo then transferred Miku's arms into mine and tapped my shoulders saying the words,
"Take care of my baby sister, Len. I trust you,"
I nodded. I turned my gaze into the beautiful girl beside me as she flashed a smile at me. I silently chuckled. I am the luckiest guy ever.
And when the stars all fall down,
They empty from the sky,
But I dont mind,
If you're with me,
Then everything's alright,
The piano and violin went into the outro, Rin has cut the song off since my bride is beside me already. I looked at my twin sister as she raised her thumbs up. I smiled and mouthed her thank you.
The pastor cleared his throat, causing us to get more attention from everyone.
"Dearly Beloved, we are gathered together in this beautiful afternoon with this man and this woman in Holy Matrimony; which is an honourable estate, and therefore is not by any to be entered upon, nor taken In hand, unadvisedly, lightly, or wantonly; but reverently, discreetly, advisedly, soberly, duly considering the causes for which Matrimony was ordained. In short, we are gathered today here to witness them exchange vows of their everlasting love," the pastor said causing everyone to laugh a bit because of his hidden humour, Miku and I laughed a bit as well.
"Matrimony was ordained for the mutual society, help, and comfort, that the one ought to have of the other, in both prosperity and adversity. Into which estate these two persons present come now to be joined." He paused, "Therefore if any man can show any just cause, why they may not lawfully be joined together, let him now speak, or else hereafter for ever hold his peace." He continued, everyone went silent.
I started to get nervous.
What if someone barges into our best day and refuse Miku and I to get married?
Or someone from our friends or family will split us up?
But I noticed that everyone was just silent. Meaning- no one objected.
I sighed in relief and chuckled silently, Seriously, What am I thinking? Those only happen in movies and novels.
The pastor laughed at my reaction but continued to speak,
"Wilt thou, Len Kagamine, have this woman to be thy wedded wife? Wilt thou love her, comfort her, honour, and keep her, in sickness and in health; and, forsaking all other, keep thee only unto her, so long as you both shall live?" The pastor said looking at me. I looked down at my bride, she was biting her lip.
I smiled, "I will."
"Wilt thou, Miku Hatsune, have this man to be thy wedded husband? Wilt thou love him, comfort him, honour, and keep him, in sickness and in health; and, forsaking all other, keep thee only unto him, so long as you both shall live?" The pastor once again asked, but it was for Miku now. She looked at me as well and flashed another smile, as her cheeks were quite flushed.
"I will," she said as I grinned. We now exchanged our rings.
"I now pronounce you, Mr. and Mrs. Kagamine," The pastor said, smiling at us. "You may now kiss the bride."
A smirk slowly crept into my lips as I soon heard the sentence, 'You may now kiss the bride.', Miku blushed furiously while the smirk remains in my lips.
I smashed my lips into hers as I cupped her cheeks and closed my eyes, savoring the sweet taste of it. She was taken aback but responded anyways. Closing her eyes as well as she snaked her arms into my neck.
After a couple of seconds we both pulled back catching our breaths. Everybody cheered for us. I looked at her eyes and she looked at mine.
"I love you, Mrs. Kagamine," I whispered our forehead were touching. She giggled.
"I love you too, Mr. Kagamine," she said as we shared another kiss. A short but passionate one.
After the ceremony in the church, all of us headed into the wedding reception which is held into the one of the most famous hotels here in Japan. Me and my wife are in the love seat, my arms were on her waist hugging her body protectively while her hands were on my thighs. Our friends and family were starting to give us sweet and funny messages and wished us to be happy and have a thousand lenku babies as they say. Miku and I just cant stop laughing at their ridiculousness.
Once all of their speeches have finished the caterers have come rushing in from the big doors carrying various cuisines in their hands that we have chosen specially for them when we were still planning our wedding.
"Are you hungry or thirsty? Or do you want anything? Tell me, I'll get it for you." I said, she shook her head and laugh a bit.
"No, I have what I wanted already." She said as she hugged me side wards whilst resting her head into my broad chest. I chuckled and stroke her teal hair and ran it into my fingers smoothly,
"If you say so," I said. She giggled as she took out something from her pouch... it was a senescent paper. She looked up at me and handed me the paper.
I hesitatingly took it and look at her,
"What is this?" I asked in curiosity, she pouted but the hint of sadness showing in her eyes, "I dont want to talk about it. But you can read it first then I'll explain to you," she said, I shrugged and started to read but got off when she spoke again, "I wish that you will not look at me as a filthy woman if you finished reading it, I hope you will still love me." She said with a hint of sadness in her voice.
What is the content of this piece of paper that she has said things like that?
I started to get nervous and my heart started to beat so fast and loud that it feels like it wanted to jump out of me.
I decided to start reading the paper she handed me. It was her handwriting. The content of this paper is written by her and shockingly this paper is already old.
July 13, 2008
Today is the day that Im gonna be happy and be free. Today... I will commit suicide and this is my suicide note. Its hard to write something like this especially when your tears are blurring your vision. I dont know if someone will be able to read my nonsense note since I am unwanted by everyone. But to whoever who is reading my note- If you're reading this I might be dead already. You see.. I was once a jolly and a happy girl... that was when I was eight years old though. But when I reached 16 years old, my life went upside down. My parents died, my brother shut everyone out of his life, and I was unwanted by everyone. I have no friends and nobody was loving me. Nobody loves me... anymore. Because of frustration, I started to cut myself since I have once read that cutting yourself gives you pleasure and will make you erase the nightmares from you. I enjoyed, I continued it. But I realized cutting myself is not enough. Why? Because the nightmare really never ends. The nightmares get worser and worser every passing day. So, I decided to make a move and kill myself. Suicide. Suicide is the best answer for all of my problems. Suicide is the one that I needed. They say suicide is not an option.. but they never gave you a better one. So I came up with this. Anyway, you, yes you who is reading this, dont worry, Im happy with my decision. Oh, I remember. No one gives a damn in my life anymore. That's the main reason anyway why I want to be vanished by space and time.
If you reached the very end, then I'm thankful. Since for the first time someone cared for me. Bye.
-Miku Hatsune, the girl who is unwanted.
I noticed that my cheeks were already wet from my hot tears. My hands were shaking. So this was what Miku is hiding from me. All of those sleepless nights that we had whenever she stays with me, all of the nightmares she had was... this? I cant imagine her being like this. I mean, she's different right now. She's happy, cheerful, jolly and caring... and her brother is normal right now as well. I didnt know such thing happened to her.
"I-I'm sorry, Len..." she said, pulling away from me and grasping her gown. "For all these years I didn't want you to know how foolish and unstable I was back when we met. But even though you didn't know, you saved me. See? The date... that was when the day we met when I bumped into you. I don know why I mentioned this topic to you, but I felt like I had to since you are a big part of my life. You are the reason, why I changed and my brother welcomed me in his arms once again.. all I want to say is thank you, Im sorry... and I love you. I hope your love still remains though," she said as her voice broke.
I looked at her with awe and I took a deep breath. I held her cheeks and made her look into my quite swollen eyes. She was tearing up as well,
"I dont care about the past, Miku. I mean, I care for you and I really wish that I was there back then to comfort you. But it doesn't mean that the moment I learned about your past I wont gonna love you anymore. Whatever you are, whatever you do, whatever you did, I will still love you. Because you know why?" I asked as I pushed a strand of her hair to the back of her ear. She shook her head. I gave her a small smile.
"Because you're my life, you're my everything, you're my strength, you're my weakness, you're my beloved girlfriend, my beautiful wife, the mother of my future children.. and I love you," I said as our forehead's meet, she looked at my eyes. She was tearing up but she was smiling sweetly and innocently.
"I love you too, Len. I really do. You are the reason why I am still here in the earth... alive." She said as she chuckled in the last word of her sentence, I nodded and wiped her tears away using my thumb.
"Now, dont cry anymore. I'm here. There's someone who loves you. And that someone is me. I will be here forever with you," I said and she nodded. I hugged her and rub her back trying to make her calm. I started to look at the paper in my hands and folded it as I hid it in my pocket.
Today, my wife handed me a suicide note when she was 16.
It was dated the exact day we met each other.