I see him there with her at the Vic acting like the perfect couple, it makes my stomach turn. I wish I was in her place being able to publicly show my affection, put my hand on his cheek and kiss those soft lips. But I can't its against his religion.
She's running her fingers through his silk hair, what I would do to be in her place right now. We know our feelings for each other but he sees Amira and his reality kicks in. Marry the perfect women, have kids, keep mommy and daddy happy and living a lie.
Syed since we first kissed the sparks were flying and they still are, only I'm more open with them, just accept it Syed. Masood I think would be okay with it but his mom would probably have a fit knowing that she isn't gonna have grand kids and complain about what people will say and how a disgrace Syed being true to himself is.
I love this man, there's nothing I can do about my feelings. They are too strong to just ignore and im sure he feels the same. He does have self control cause when were in bed hes an animal, image what he would do if we could show our affection publicly, the love bites are still fresh on my torso.
Its clear that he does have some feelings for Amira but if he did he wouldn't of kissed me and be sleeping with me. And I know that he only proposed to her because he was trying to say he was straight, but it hurt so much when he proposed to her in front of me, I felt heartbroken and upset.
I want to tell him that I love him and just spend a day with him cuddled up to him, running my fingers through his soft black hair, not worrying about anything else just the two of us.
No Amira
No Zainab and Masood
No Jane
No problems, just two lovers cuddling on the couch with two glasses of wine, the curtains shut and a old romantic film on, then sweet, romantic, passionate sex.
What am I thinking about he will never tell Amira and his folks hes too scared to do it. Ever since Lucy was black mailing him he has been freaked out that everyone knows and becoming paranoid....
But he gave me cofindence to go to the police and leave my apartment, I will give him confidence to tell everyone before his wedding.