TITLE: Killing me inside

SUMMARY: This story is placed 4 weeks after "Promises" and then after "Drp Zone"and none episode after that never ocurred.I think i'm still obsessed with Season 5.Get me a shrink please! LOL!

CLASSIFICATION: A Mac - Harm shipper story, rated PG (some adult language)

SPOILERS: First 5 seasons and a very strong influence from first 9 episodes of Season 9.

DISCLAIMER: JAG belongs to Paramount , CBS and Belisarius Prod.. No Copyright infringement is intended with this work of entertainment only. "Wherever you are" is sung originally by Celeste Prince and you can find it in the soundtrack album of "Sweet November" (that movie starred by Keanu Reeves)

FEEDBACK: Yes please!! I would be very happy to read what you think about

AUTHOR'S NOTE: I have borrowed some quotes from my other favorites shows and movies. I hope you don't mind :) The Harm I describe here is not one I believe that could exist but I exagerated a little his attitudes for writing purposes only and for the good of the drama here ;-) (as you can see i don't want you kick my butt ladies LOL!).I wanted to refer about "Promises" because i have changed my mind since i saw some scenes from "Exculpatory Evidence".

BTW My English sucks since my mother tongue is not English

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Sarah Mackenzie was tired .It had been a time of hell, four weeks where she lived...well, better she didn't want to remember.Harm barely spoke with her. But she only was sorry about the circumstances not about her decition.

Mac rubbed her forehead a minute.A migraine was coming up and she knew that wouldn't stop till she talked to her partner.She went to Harm's office.He was working with a lot of books and notes over his desk.

- Harm- she said from the door- we have a meeting in Annapolis at 1600 hours

Mac didn't know why but she couldn't say anything referring to their relationship.

Harm only looked at her for a second and said dryly:

- Thanks

- Mmmmm...Are you going to have lunch?

- Actually yes- he made very clear she wasn't invited

And that hurt her.So much

Mac went back to her own office.Darn Harm!She was doing her job.It was true she didn't like Reneé at all.She was very upset wih Harm because of her but never she would allow her personal feelings affected her senses as lawyer. And with that Bitch from Hell it wasn't an exception.

- Whom you are trying to deceive Sarah Mackenzie? You are dying inside.This is killing you.Oh God.Why do you love him so much?

And she burst into tears.

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