Sarah vrs the Ghost of Christmas:
Merry Christmas to all the Chuck fans and cast of Chuck. I know it has been some time since the show has gone off air, however many of us still have hopes either for a reunion show or a movie. Also a big Merry Christmas to Yvonne and her two cute pooches, may you have a sweet Merry Christmas and a safe and Happy New Year for 2017.
It was Dec24th and Agent Sarah Walker lay in her hotel room trying to sleep, but could not. The day's events still reeling on her mind, The hostage scene at the Buy-More, lieutenant Mauser and having the subsequently shoot him to protect Chuck, Chuck giving her the charm bracelet . As she played with it in her wrist, Sarah fantasized how she longed to be in Chuck's warm embrace. Feeling so warm and safe his arms wrapped around her and feeling him kiss her head and lips. It made her body tingle, as her dreams kept pushing her to this view of her life. She thought to herself secretly, can I do this? Can I tell chuck how I truly feel and still protect him? Suddenly as if being hit by a brick wall it was no longer Sarah the woman but agent Walker came into her psyche. The unfeeling Ice Queen, Langston's wildcard Enforcer emerged and the sole thought entered her mind.
"No, Spies don't fall in love!"
Sarah just laid in bed at her alter-ego her spy persona telling her the harsh reality that had always been drummed into her since joining the CIA. But inwardly the woman side cried and a single tear escaped her eyes as she tried not to let the emotions overwhelm her. Sarah Walker had never know love, given it not received it either. Men just looked at her as a dumb blonde, a trophy, something to be used and thrown out when they were through. She knew how cruel many men were in her career as the top- CIA agent. Partly for this reason she did not like being assigned seduction missions. She preferred being the kickass enforcer even though her looks could accomplish it far easier. After her missions in Russia and Paris she reinforced her Enforcer role after nearly being raped by several marks. She had promised herself never to allow any un-worthy man to use her in that way.
However she did have a sprint with Bryce Larkin her old partner, she did have a sexual relationship but it was not for love or affection it was filling a mechanical need. Many times it was just to get it over with since Bryce just thought of her as something to conquer. Many a time Bryce could care less about her needs and just want to satisfy his own needs and then let her hanging. Many a time after Bryce had fallen asleep she would awaken and masturbate herself to find some release. Many a time in her mind she would think about the friend Bryce would endlessly talk about from Stanford. Bryce would tell her stories about this dream man, his kindness, his willingness to put others first. Sarah at this point would just have sex with Bryce just to hear those stories she loved and this wonderful man. The man of her dreams, she would often lay awake thinking to herself.
"Could this dream man really exist?" Sarah thought to herself.
The next moment Sarah felt an eerie sensation she felt as if a presence were in her hotel room. Looking around she found no one but then suddenly found her name being called. She reached for her gun ready to use it on any intruder. When suddenly before her was her previous boss Langston Graham.
Sarah was confused and unable to think, her former boss was dead, Killed when Fulcrum sent a fake Intersect component which had blown up killing Graham and 10 other agents.
"But your dead, you were blown up." Sarah responded
"Yes Sarah I am but I have been given one last chance to redeem myself." Graham said
Sarah looked at her former boss, and saw that he was covered in blast wounds but was covered in long chains, with heavy weights. One chain in particular was the thickest and heaviest of all. It was 5 times the size of the other chains and seemed to be the most burden of all.
"Director I don't understand all this, and why are you covered in chains?" Sarah asked.
"These Sarah are my sins, of all the people I have hurt over my lifetime. I thought doing the greater good was enough. While it may had been true I also hurt many people who were innocent and did not deserve to be hurt. But this large chain, my heaviest burden is what I have done against you Sarah. I made you into my wildcard enforcer an assassin. I did you the most wrong against you and against Chuck. You deserve better Sarah, I knew that then but my ego, my arrogance didn't let you have what I knew you wanted most of all."
Sarah could not speak but just continued to listen.
"Sarah I was wrong about your feelings for Chuck and I was also wrong when I had ordered for Casey to terminate Chuck."
Sarah's mouth dropped at that revelation, she had never known that the order had been given out and it was her telling Chuck about the Intersect blowing up, saved him moments before Casey would have put a bullet in his head. Sarah remembered that night when Chuck had invited her for a real date; he was making her dinner when she rushed over to tell him the news. The pit of her stomach ached if she was a minute or two later she would have found him in a pool of blood. Her emotions threatened to overwhelm her at that news. Her anger lashed out at the apparition of her former boss. Cursing him for what she would have lost, had Chuck been killed.
"I am sorry Sarah I was wrong but I want to help you both , Sarah these chains are nothing compared to the ones I have helped you forge. I created you to be my Enforcer but I was told the chains you forged are twice mine already. But you have a chance to redeem yourself Sarah before it is too late. That is why I will have 2 more spirits come to visit you before this night is over to show you two possible futures for you if you do or do not let chuck into your heart. "
Crying out Sarah yelled," Why don't you just tell me?"
"Because you need to see for yourself Sarah, please take what intel they have for you and learn. Your life depends on it Sarah."
With that the spirt left leaving Sarah sitting on her bed, thinking she was either going crazy or someone had pumped some nerve agent in her room. Then she heard a noise and turning saw Ellie standing in the middle of her room. Sarah confused,"Ellie what are you doing in my room and more importantly how did you get in?"
"Sarah I took on the appearance of someone very important to you and Chuck, so please don't freak-out. Let's take a walk outside" and grabbed Sarah's hand leading her to Echo Park and the apartment the real Ellie and Chuck lived in.
Once in the courtyard she saw Chuck entering the apartment, she tried to get his attention but it was as if he did not hear him. She tried to grab him but her hands just passed through his.
'I'm sorry Sarah but we are only observers, we cannot physically interact with them. You love him don't you?"
"It's very complicated, "she replied.
"No it's not Sarah, it is rather simple but you build these walls around yourself to shield yourself and your heart from being hurt. But in actuality it is you who are actually hurting yourself."
"You don't understand"
"I beg to differ but I do, I know everything you and Casey being spies, the Intersect, even about those that would hurt Chuck. But the worst threat before Chuck is not fulcrum Sarah it is you!"
"ME!"
"Yes Sarah, you!, because you are afraid to open up to him you will hurt Chuck more than any other physical threat, you will hurt his heart and his love for you ."
"Wait, you said he loves me?" almost not wanting to believe what she had just heard, but her heart already knowing what her mind refused to understand.
"Yes Sarah, he loves you, he fell in love with you that very first day you entered his life.