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Author's Note: HEY GUYS! It's me again, submitting yet another dramatic fic of those wonderful characters of the Ouran High School Host Club anime series! (Huzzah!) So much feeling will be injected into this fic, it may be too strong for some to handle therefore you should:

LISTEN HERE; I'm warning you now that everyone's emotions and personalities are going to be set on overdrive, so just be prepared. There will be some SERIOUS issues (AND I MEAN SERIOUS) going on in the Host Club. This story has: twincest, lemoniness, violence, strong language, and other stuff I can't say because it will ruin the story!!! D:

ALSO! Pay attention to the words that are in these things: because those are OOC, or, out of his POV. Italics are either thoughts or repeated phrases. If you tell me it's confusing, you do not get a cookie :P

Enjoy, and please R&R

Chapter 1 – Stifled Love

Sloth

I woke up lazy-eyed that morning. My eyes tried to shut themselves as the sunlight beamed through my bedroom window. It was yet another tiring Monday morning. I slumped one arm off of the edge of my bed in a weak attempt to get myself to stand up. I then laid there for a moment and sighed. Too tired to turn around, I reached back and felt around the clean satin sheets. My bed was empty.

My growing curiosity pulled me out of bed and led me into the kitchen.

"Rise and shine," Kaoru greeted me as I walked into the room. He was sipping tea, as he normally did on school mornings. Sometimes it was Green Tea, sometimes passion fruit, other times English Tea mother had gotten abroad.

"Why are you up so early?" I asked, scratching my lower back. I walked towards the table he was sitting at and sat down next to him.

"I couldn't sleep," he answered plainly. Sensing that I wanted him to elaborate, he continued. "You talked in your sleep again last night." I felt my face turn red of embarrassment.

"W-what did I say?" My dreams hadn't been the purest, lately. I couldn't seem to get that thing off my mind. Somehow my thoughts had over analyzed it and brought me to the position of having 'bad' dreams about it every night. Kaoru wouldn't understand. I would need to come up with an excuse.

"First you grumbled a bit, and then you wrapped one arm around me and rubbed your face against my back. At first I thought you were flirting but then you said some gibberish and then kicked me out of the bed- literally. When I looked at your face, I saw a tear roll down your cheek."

There was an awkward silence for a moment. Kaoru was dangerously serious and it almost frightened me. I wondered if he was telling me the entire thing, but then he took a long sip and continued.

"I was looking for you yesterday afternoon."

Shit

"I'm sorry. I wasn't feeling well so I went for a walk." I lied. I was lying. I was lying to my best friend; my companion; my brother. I wanted to cry and tell him the truth but… I just couldn't. Bedsides, it would only make matters worse.

He looked up at me, away from his tea, and squinted his eyes. He knew I was lying. Something in his eyes told me he was thinking, 'you can tell me anything', or 'why can't you tell me?'

"Is this about Tam"- I stood up abruptly and slapped the table to stop him.

"I need to get dressed. Don't worry about it, I'm feeling better now." I said, walking away.

I'm sorry, Kaoru.

We pulled up to the school at 7:20, just in time for me to grab breakfast. Neither Kaoru nor I talked as we walked together into the building. In fact, we hadn't talked at all after our conversation earlier.

After I ate, I walked up to the music room and opened the doors. I saw everyone there sitting at a table discussing the next theme to do for tomorrow's Cosplay. I sat between Mori-senpai and Haruhi nonchalantly, ignoring the fact that Kaoru had saved me a seat. I pretended not to notice, but I felt his pain as I sat across the table. He stared at me as I sat down and then slouched in his chair. I tried not to look at him; instead, I turned to Haruhi as she turned to me and smiled, opening her mouth saying, "Good morning, Hikaru."

I merely smiled back.

The entire discussion was awkward for me. I sat there with my chin resting on my palm while my brother stared at me, filled with revulsion.

I then began to think; who was I turning into? Who had I suddenly become? A small hand to my shoulder brought me back into the room.

"What do you think, Hikaru?" She asked sweetly; then again, she was always like this. Our lord then cut in.

"Pirate day will definitely be a big hit, right?" His face was beaming with juvenile delight. I then rolled my eyes and shrugged my shoulders.

"Whatever." I didn't want to have this stupid discussion. But I couldn't help but think someone would ask me what my problem was, so I covered up my indifference.

"I like… er… the idea of being an animal." I had no idea was I was saying.

"Ha! See? My idea was a good idea!" Hani-senpai chirped. His pure unremitting bliss puzzled me. Tamaki then spoke up once more.

"[Sigh Alright, alright; we'll dress like animals tomorrow, but next we're pirates!" Haruhi turned to me once more.

"Did I see you yesterday walking down my street?" She asked kindly. I grew nervous for a moment and then shook it off. She couldn't possibly think I was there.

"Yesterday? I was at home… must not have been me."

And with that, we were sent off to our classes.

For the entire class, I found myself staring at her. I watched her write her notes – smoothly with every delicate letter – and I watched her run her fingers through her hair as she tried to answer the questions in her math booklet. God, how I wished I could run my fingers through her hair. We were dismissed from our class for lunch and I caught up with her to walk her to the cafeteria. This had become normal nowadays, though usually Kaoru would walk with us as well. He walked with another girl that day (one of our customers). I peered over at them as they made polite conversation, but I could see the despondency on his face.

Kaoru and I refused to speak to each other on the way home. We didn't talk during dinner. We just didn't talk. Kaoru got into the bed before I did. I walked into our bedroom after brushing my teeth and opened the covers to get in. With his back facing me, he pulled his side of covers towards him as I did this, and I noticed his back was bare. I just so happened to be topless as well. I laid down, facing towards the window, and pulled the covers up to my neck. It was if we were reflections of each other in a mirror. I then let out a sigh and lowered my covers.

"Hey," I mumbled.

"Hey…" He mumbled back. I then felt the bed move as he turned to face me. "What's going on?" Kaoru asked sincerely. His voice nearly trembled.

"I'm sorry." I answered plainly. I knew he wanted more, but I refused to say anything else. I turned to see his expression and we just stared at each other for a while. He then sat up, got up on all fours and hovered over me. I knew what he wanted.

"Why don't we have fun anymore?" He then lowered his head down and kissed me on my lips, trying to get me to react positively. He stroked my stomach teasingly, as he knew I liked, and then withdrew his lips from mine. I then turned to the side in disinterest. He sat up and then laid back down, back facing towards me, irritated with my attitude.

"I'm sorry…" I whispered.

OH BROTHAH! (Literally) Yes, it is a short beginning chapter but at least it's a start! Deceit, love, mystery… who knows what will pop up next? Tune in next time to find out; same time, same place!