So I'll go sit on the floor
Wearing your clothes
All that I know is
I don't know how to be something you miss
Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips
Just like our last kiss
Forever the name on my lips
Forever the name on my lips
Just like our last...
Last Kiss -Taylor Swift
Letty's POV
I don't know how to be something you miss. My mom never loved me. She always had problems. Drugs mostly. Funny thing is I never thought she would choose them over her own daughter, her own family, her own flesh & blood. She abandoned my father and I when I was 12, running away with her dealer. Apparently they were lovers. She was always cheating on my dad, yet he still loved her. He was always trying to get her help, but she would never go to rehab. My dad was loyal as hell to her. He loved her with everything in him. Aside from our love for cars, that's how we're so much alike. I'm loyal as hell when it comes to Dom. I love him with my mind, body & soul. Yet, here I am again, left alone, sitting in one of Dom's old shirts. My head is consumed with thoughts of him. I don't know how to be something you miss.
Our last night together Dom was so worried that we would get caught soon. The cops were getting hungrier which meant they were close on our trail. I tried to get him to stay. I saw the pain and guilt in his eyes. He knew I couldn't handle being abandoned again. I thought I could actually get him to stay. We made love when we got back to our bungalow. We would always have rough sex, so when we would make love it was that much special. However, that night was so much more intimate and passionate. I had never felt so much love for Dom and from Dom before in my life.
Flashback
After making love Letty and Dom lay in bed looking at each other. They could express so much more with their looks then with their words. Dom placed a sweet, chaste kiss right under Letty's earlobe.
"I love you" he softly whispered in her ear. Letty didn't say anything but smiled. He didn't need to hear it from her. He always felt it. He just wanted to cherish her for the night. Give her all the attention.
"One day we're gonna settle down and have a family. We'll have a little girl and she'll be a spitfire just like you. She'll have brown curly hair and big brown eyes. She'll be the perfect combination of us. She'll be a daddy's girl. She will always run to me when you get after her for something. We'll have a little boy that will be sneaky and mischievous like how I was as a kid. Yet, secretly he'll be a mama's boy. He'll love you just as much as I do and then some. Together, we'll teach them all about cars." Letty loved the words he whispered only for her. She looked at the clock. 1:58. She wanted to remember this moment. She closed her eyes as Dom pulled her close to his chest. She drifted off as she listend to his steady heart beat... for her.
End of flashback
His heartbeat. Everytime he hugged me I would listen to his heart beat. It always had this calming affect on me. Every time I heard it I knew I belonged. If my mom didn't want me then it was ok because at least I had him.
Flashback
She had been gone for far too long visiting family in the Domincan. They were her mother's family. It never got easier seeing them. As much as she loved to visit her grandparents, she hated seeing the rest of the family just as much. The looks her uncles would give her at times were of pity. She would always hear her aunts whisper about how sorry they were for her when no one thought she was around. Her older female cousins would constantly gossip about how she turned out being a tomboy, loving cars because she never had a mother to raise her properly into a lady. While her male cousins would laugh and joke about her tomboyish attitude being the reason her mom left in the first place.
The moment Letty stepped off the plane she could smell the rain. She looked around for her real family and spotted Dom waiting for her like he always did when she got back from her yearly trip. July 9th. It had been a long 6 weeks since she saw her best friend. She ran to him wrapping her arms around his waist. He was the only one who knew how much her family's words and actions pained her. Not even Mia knew. He kissed the top of her head as she listened to his heart beat the confirmation that she was right where she belonged, in Dom's arms.
End of flashback
I can still feel his arms around me. Just as strong as when he got me to dance with him for the first time. I love to dance but I was never one to do it in front of people. At least not until that night.
Flashback
Letty felt like she was on a high. She had just won her first real race against a bunch of show offs that thought Letty was just another racer chaser. She proved them wrong as she passed the finish line a whole car lengh ahead. To top it all off, Dom had seen the whole thing, so when she stepped out of her car she didn't miss the look of pride in his eyes. Not once did he take his eyes off her when he made the announcement to the entire racing community that she was an official racer on his team. All she did was smirk.
Dom walked into the party at his house and immediately was the life of it. He began showing off for the skanks. He wasn't just going to brush them off. After all, they most likely prayed to God every night, hoping he would spare them a glance so they could try to get a chance in his pants.
Letty stood watching the scene take place and she couldn't help the roll of her eyes as she muttered something about the skanks being a disgrace to all female drivers. She started to turn to leave only to be pulled on to the dance floor by the king of the streets himself. She wasn't much for dancing but she was willing to make an exception, especially after seeing the fuming looks of the skanks he just ditched for her. Smirking at them, she turned her back to his chest letting Dom wrap his arms around her so they could move to the music together.
End of flashback
In that moment, in his arms, I just knew he was the man I would eventually be introducing to my dad as the love of my life. He was a great man just like my father. I knew he would welcome Dom as part of our family. He already was, but knowing that my dad accepted him as something much more in my life was the best feeling. He approved of my choice. Like I did, he knew Dom was good for me.
Flashback
Letty was sitting on the hood of Dom's car as he stood between her legs facing her. She couldn't help the smile form on her lips as she went on and on about her dad. He was coming home from a 16 month stint with the army. She was finally going to introduce Dom, to him, as her boyfriend.
Letty stopped talking as she heard another car coming. Quickly turning to see if it was her dad, Letty heard the soft chuckle escape from the lips of her Italian boy toy. "Shut up! You know I can't help but get excited. This moment is really important to me."
"I know babe, but just relax. He'll be here soon." Dom placed a tender kiss on both of Letty's cheeks.
"I know that but-" Dom interupted her with a passionate kiss to her lips then slowly kept massaging her lips with his.
"Leticia, you better have something on your face and real good reason why Dominic is taking it off with his lips. Your arms better be broken, boy or they're about to be." Letty and Dom froze at the sound of her father's voice.
Letty quickly jumped down to greet and hug her dad. "Dad, obviously there's something we have to tell you."
"Let, I know. Tony and I knew this day was coming." Srg. Ortiz walked towards Dom sticking out his hand for him to shake. As Dom shook it, Srg. Ortiz couldn't help but warn him "Break her heart and I'll break your neck." At this, Dom couldn't help but nervously laugh. He knew he was joking, yet 100% serious.
End of flashback
I'll never go a day without missing his rude interuptions in the form of a kiss. I never thought we'd have a last kiss. I guess I should try to move on. As angry as I am at him I hope the sun shines and it's a beautiful day. I hope something reminds him of me and how much I love him so he wishes he had stayed. He can plan for a change in our circumstamces because he believes that's the only way for us to be together, but I never planned on him changing his mind. I guess his name will forever be the last name on my lips. Just like our last kiss.