Title: Feels like Home to Me

Author: D. Sollers
Subject: "She was fiercely independent; Brooke Davis. Brilliant and beautiful and brave. In two years she'd grown more than anyone I had ever known. Brooke Davis is going to change the world someday and I'm not sure she even knows it. BL post season 4 with NH, JP and a little BC/LP

Disclaimer: I own nothing to do with One Tree Hill. Obviously.

Author's Notes: Okay, so originally the plan was not to put out any new stories until one of my others were finished. But after last night, lets just say I have finally got my inspiration back. It's been a crappy season for the BL (and JP) fans, thank God it's finally over!! (party, anyone?)

It Feels like Home to Me

By:

D. Sollers

Lucas Scott had always believed that writers block was something that writers claimed to have when they just simply ran out of ideas. To him, the idea of not being able to express himself with a pen and paper or a computer was laughable.

With a book under his belt and another one on the way to being published, Lucas was at the top of his game. But that didn't stop the empty computer screen staring back at him. He hadn't been able to write a thing since a little over a week ago.

When he last saw her.

She had taken him by surprise, as she entered Nathan and Haley's house with a huge brightly colored present in her hands. It was little James' fifth birthday and the first time she had been back to Tree Hill since she left right after graduation with Peyton.

They didn't talk much that afternoon, between her saying her hellos to old friends and the fact that he kept a safe distance from her Somehow even after all the time and space that had been between them, her smile was still enough to make his heart skip a beat.

"Are you going to call her?"

His mother's voice called from the doorway.

He wondered quietly just how long she had been standing there, her back leaning up against the door frame of his room. And even though she didn't call her by name, Lucas knew she was talking about Brooke.

"She gave me her phone number, said that she was moving back to town over the next couple of weeks."

Brooke was moving back to Tree Hill?

The news had surprised him, not understanding why someone who loved the city life as much as she did would not stay in New York.

Lucas struggled with what to say in response to his mothers questions. He didn't want to face the truth that he had been trying desperately to put behind him, that he had never really gotten over the girl behind the red door.

"You know Luke," Karen said as she made her way towards him and sat down on his bed. "There are so many things I would have liked to say to Kieth, so many things that I regret never being honest about. I have to live with it everyday because he was taken away from me too soon. But you have a chance here Luke, a chance to be honest to yourself. To Peyton. And to Brooke."

Lucas nodded his head, knowing that his mother was right. With his second book in the works he knew he had to make amends with the people around him. That was what had led him back to Tree Hill, right after college graduation. He had been back for a little over a year and had spent the time either writing or working at the car garage that he had bought, in Kieth's memory.

When Deb had offered Nathan and Haley their old house so that she could travel, Nathan and Haley decided to move back as well. Nathan spent most of his time coaching the Tree Hill Ravens and Haley had accepted a job at a local elementary school.

"Lucas! Will you play hide and seek with me?"

Lilly stood in the doorway, a warm smile on her lips. She looked at her mother and then to Lucas and stuck out her lip. "Please!!" She begged.

Lucas laughed and with a nod of his head he walked towards her. "Thanks mom," he said with a smile as he chased after his little sister.

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"Are you sure about this? I mean you really want another one?"

Haley stood in the closed bathroom, her fingers wrapped around a pregnancy test. Nathan was in the other room, waiting for her to deliver the news. She wasn't sure how she felt about having another baby but Nathan was ready. He wanted another baby, a bigger family.

"Baby, I've told you a million times. We're ready for this. I want a little girl who looks like you, someone that James can play with."

Haley smiled. If someone would have told her years ago that she would be happily married with one son already and quite possibly another one on the way, she wouldn't have believed it. But still, as the timer went off she took a deep breath and stared down at the results.

Two lines pregnant.

One line not.

Tears sprang to her eyes as she saw the results and she wasn't even sure why she was crying. Taking a hold of the results in her hand, she opened the bathroom door and approached Nathan who was sitting comfortably on their bed.

Deciding that it was best he saw for himself, she handed him the test slowly. "Nathan, I'm sorry... I know how much you wanted this," Haley said as he looked down at the results.

He shrugged his shoulders and laughed it off. "It's okay Hales, no big deal. We'll try next time."

"Nathan," Haley said quietly.

He stood up and wrapped his arms around his wife, kissing her gently. "I mean it baby, we'll just keep trying. This doesn't change how happy I am with us, with James."

"You promise?" Haley whispered.

He nodded his head as he held on to her.

"I promise."

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"Are you really doing this?"

Brooke pulled out the last of her clothes from the dresser and nodded her head sadly. As she placed her clothes in her suitcase, she turned her attention back at her boyfriend.

"It's for the best," Brooke said honestly. And it really was. Their relationship hadn't been the same in a really long time and they had been holding on for all the wrong reasons.

He shook his head, not agreeing with her. "You're pregnant Brooke," he said.

She stifled a laugh. "Between the morning sickness and the doctors appointments, do you really think I don't know that? We're not happy anymore, it doesn't change anything."

"It changes everything!"

"We're doing the right thing, at least this way we're not going to hate each other." Brooke shrugged her shoulders as she continued. "Besides, moving to Tree Hill is the best thing for this baby. God knows I don't know how in the hell to be a mom."

Taking a deep breath, her boyfriend began to speak."I can't believe it's come to this, what about the apartment? About Ryder?"

At the mention of his name, their dog that they had gotten more than a year ago came bouncing into the room. The pit bull stood at his feet as he continued. "I don't want to lose you," he said honestly.

Brooke sighed. "I love you, you know that. But it's different now, it's not just the two of us anymore. And you and I both know that but we've drifted apart. We've tried to make it work but it just... doesn't."

"But Brooke..."

She shook her head sadly and wrapped her arms around him. "It's for the best Chase, I promise." And even as she said those words, she struggled with actually believing them.

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After an hour of playing with Lilly, their mother had insisted that it was time for Lilly's nap. His phone rang and he pulled it out of his pocket. "Hey Peyt," he said as he smiled into the phone. He hadn't seen or heard from Peyton in a little over two weeks and was surprised that she was calling him now.

"Hey Luke, I just got back into town. You want to catch a movie or something?" Peyton asked.

Deciding that his book could wait, he agreed to meet her so that they could go and watch a movie. A little over a half an hour had passed when he arrived at the local movie theater. Sitting down on the steps in front, he waited for his friend.

"Over here," she said as she approached him.

Lucas turned his attention to Peyton. "What did you...Your hair!" He laughed, embarrassed by his hello. She shrugged her shoulders and played with the much darker locks. Gone were the curly locks that he had grown to love and in their place was a shorter, more edgier cut. He still couldn't believe that she had dyed her hair brown.

"I decided I needed a change," Peyton said with a grin. "You like?"

Lucas nodded his head, not really sure if he did or not. He brought his ex girlfriend into a hug and pulled out two tickets. "We have about an hour before the movie starts, want to get something to eat?" He asked.

Peyton nodded her head and the two walked towards the small diner next door. As they ate their food, they talked about everything that was going on in each others lives. "It feels like I've been gone forever and it's only been a few weeks," Peyton said honestly.

"Yeah, you missed James birthday."

Peyton sighed. "I know but I got him a kick ass gift to make up for it. How's your mom?"

"She's good, I think she might even be dating again."

After a few minutes of silence, Lucas began to laugh. Peyton raised an eyebrow, curious as to why he was laughing but soon found herself laughing as well. "Is this weird?" Peyton asked finally, wondering the same thing as Lucas.

"A little bit but I don't see why it has to be. We've always been friends Peyton, we're always going to be friends."

Peyton sighed. "Yeah but it's different now, it's like... we've finally moved on to a place where we're not as important to each other as we once were."

Lucas nodded his head, understanding just where she was coming from. They had been broken up for a little over a year but still, they had remained the closest of friends. But for some reason, the last few months had been more difficult staying in touch. Their friendship had been put on the back burner as they both moved on with their lives.

"I love you Luke, I just don't want you to forget that."

"I'm not going to."

TBC...

Okay everyone, what are your thoughts? I have four chapters already written, working on the fifth and sixth now. So this story will be updated quite possibly everyday or every other day. Please R&R, as always I love your feedback. Hopefully this chapter isn't off putting any BL fans because of the LP friendship and the BC baby. I promise this story will be very, VERY much a BL love story.