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Full Summary: After discovering Logan's betrayal, Heaven decides that she should have followed her heart in the first place and stayed with Troy despite their relation. However, she is unable to find him and tell him of her change of heart. Will she do anything to contact him again, even if it means being manipulated by Tony once more?

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"It's Logan who made me pregnat, that's what. I'm the one havin' yer husband's baby, not you."

Fanny's words continued to echo through my mind long after I had hung up on her. Betrayed once again by someone I had trusted. As silent tears coursed down my face I clung to the fact that maybe Fanny was making it all up. Holding on that thought I dialed Logan's number to his office.

"Hello." I heard Logan say quickly.

"Hello, Logan."

"Oh Heaven, how are you?" Logan answered lovingly. I took a deep breath.

"Logan...Fanny called."

The silence that followed made my heart clench in anticipation.

"She's pregnant." I continued breathlessly.

"Oh?" Logan replied.

"Yes...and she said it's yours." I held my breath, hoping that at any second Logan would deny everything and call the very thought preposterous.

However, only silence reigned again. And in that moment I knew that even if this baby wasn't Logan's, he had still slept with Fanny.

That was all the answer I needed, he had still betrayed me.

"Well... Logan, I suggest you come back to Farthy so we can discuss...what we do next." I replied lamely.

"Heaven...I'm sorry-"

"Good bye, Logan."

For the second time that day I hung up the phone. The second time hurt much more than the first I realized belatedly.

My heart felt empty. As I thought of Logan's infidelity, I couldn't help but remember that I myself was guilty of the same thing.

Of course it wasn't exactly the same. I actually love Troy, whereas Logan just lusted after Fanny. But still the fact remains that both of us had betrayed our marriage vows no more than a year after we were married.

Was our marriage as strong as I thought it was? Apparently not.

As I sat there on my bed, getting over the initial shock of the situation, I realized a cool numbness was settling over me. It drove away the sharp feeling of abandonment that threatened to overtake me and for that I was thankful.

I welcomed the feeling. After all, why should I despair over this? I had stopped truly loving Logan the moment I knew that Troy was still alive.

Why mourn the loss of something that you had lost already. I had fallen out of love with Logan long before. I had only covered it up with my old childhood feelings of affection I've always had for Logan. But now even that was gone.

With determined steps I left the suit of rooms I shared with Logan and my tears behind. I headed for the parlor where I knew, Linda, our head maid, usually cleaned during this time of day.

"Linda?"

"Yes, Mrs. Stonewall?" Linda said as she looked up from her dusting.

"I would like all of my things to be moved to my old room and all of Mr. Stonewall's things to be moved to a guest room. I have no preference which one it is, whichever is most convenient for you is fine."

"Yes, Mrs. Stonewall." Linda replied, turning to carry out my instructions.

"Oh and Linda?"

She turned back around.

"Just call me Heaven from now on." I didn't want to be referred to as a Stonewall anymore and I never was a Casteel. I was only Heaven, it was enough for me I suppose.

Linda nodded and left the parlor, leaving me to wait for Logan's return.

It took most of the day before Logan arrived. Dinner had just finished. Luckily Tony had just went up to bed so I didn't have to explain Logan's unexpected appearance.

I was sitting in the parlor once again, sipping an after dinner drink when Logan came in. His disheveled appearance and dull eyes showed how much he was dreading this meeting. He came over and sat down beside me. After setting my drink aside, he took both of my hands into his.

"Heaven, I love you. I'm sorry for-"

"So it's true, the baby is yours?"

"I don't know that, you know how Fanny is...but I did sleep with her and for that I am eternally sorry."

I nodded but backed up as he started to embrace me.

He looked away.

"I'm so sorry Heaven. Whatever you want to do about this situation, I'll go along with it. Just tell me what you want me to do, anything. Just don't tell me that I've lost you." He looked up with pleading in his eyes.

I remembered those eyes so well from my days as a girl. I wanted to forgive him but I couldn't, not after what he did. This marriage was nothing more that a farce, I should never have married him while I was in love with Troy.

I looked him straight in the face.

"Logan...I don't think I can go on this way. This marriage should never have happened. I have never loved you as a wife should love her husband. And after what happened today, I can't trust you anymore."

"Oh Heaven, honey. You can trust me I swear it. Please forgive me!"

"In time...I can learn to forgive you Logan. But that doesn't change the fact that this marriage was never right. I want a divorce."

He looked up at me, like he wasn't sure he had heard me right.

"A divorce?! You can't mean that, Heaven. Look, I'm sorry about cheating on you. But it's not like you are totally innocent either. Remember Cal? And what about that guy...Troy or whatever-"

"Don't You Dare Compare what happened to me with Cal or the love I had with Troy to your immature romp in the grass you probably had with Fanny!" I yelled at him.

"I'm not, Heaven. It's just...A Divorce? Why, when we can get through this together!"

"You know what, I think we could have but I just don't want to do anything with You any longer! You're things have been moved to a guest room on the second floor. I suggest you sleep there and leave tomorrow, you're no longer welcome here!"

With that I stood and walked to my old bedroom, leaving Logan staring after me, speechless.

But I didn't care anymore. I had been betrayed by people one time too many times and was no longer going to just go on like nothing had ever happened.

I was telling the truth when I said that I could forgive Logan one day. I could, but I would also forget him as well, and never deign to be hurt by him or anyone else again.

As I walked up to my rooms I didn't notice a pair of calculating eyes, glinting in the shadows, that had seen everything that had unfolded between Logan and I.

If I had, perhaps I would not be in the situation I am in now. Perhaps I would have remembered that I was still only a pawn in the life of one powerful man, my father, Tony Tatterton.

But I didn't remember, and for that...I can never forgive myself.

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