Motherhood jitters: a Star Wars fanfiction
Chapter one: the birth
I wanted this fanfic to show a side of pregnancy you never see in movies or books, and that includes diapers. And I don't mean just for the new babies. You see, many women have issues with postpartum bleeding, like my mother when she had me and my brother. She offered me a lot of sympathy while I was having my cyst removed and had to wear diapers myself, and she shared a story about how she had to wear postpartum diapers during recovery, with these huge diapers full of ice to cool down her ladyparts after giving birth. This story includes some of Leia's experiences post-birth wearing diapers, as well as some PTSD from her time as Jabba's slave from my story "Woman in Gold". So that diaper scene wasn't just there for erotic filler, anyone who thinks so. Anyway, on we go!
"AAUUGGHH!" Leia screamed as she felt the intense pain of her vagina being stretched to over a hundred times its width.
She continued screaming as Han squeezed her hand, gently stroking her hair as his wife breathed in and out, her naked body practically gleaming in the hospital harness she was kneeling in. She had delivered a beautiful baby boy just 15 minutes ago, whom she had named Jacen, and rested through another contraction until a human midwife in the hospital had gotten her ready for another birth.
"You're doing great, just inhale slow…" the midwife said as she gently stroked Leia's sides, making her insides contract and violently push with the pressure of a maglev train. "…breathe in and out, and concentrate on your husband."
Leia shuddered as she looked up at Han, who was squeezing her hands as his pregnant wife knelt naked before him. He smiled at her and kissed her hair, making her heart flutter as she winced and groaned through another contraction.
"You're doing fine, honey." Han said as he held his hand out for Leia to squeeze as she panted through another contraction. "Just breathe slowly and carefully."
"Easy for…you to-AUGH! To say, flyboy!" Leia snapped, her hormones working in overdrive to put her into a particularly angry mood. "You're not the one-URRGH! The one squeezing a baby through a birthing canal!"
Han smiled as Leia screamed again, her body shuddering as the midwife in charge held out her hands and took hold.
"The head's out, just a little more…" she said as Leia roared like a lioness and pushed harder than before. "…there!"
Leia gasped in relief as Han held her gently, the midwife taking hold of the baby and gently pulling it out. She reached down and sliced the cord with a small laser scalpel, disposing of it in a small biohazard bag. Leia leaned back and panted, sweat pouring down her forehead and matting her lovely chestnut-colored hair, curled from the day she had spent in the hospital giving birth.
"Great job, honey." Han said as he kissed Leia, cuddling his wife as she panted from the massive strain of giving birth.
Leia smiled as she shuddered, leaning back as the nurse helped her up from the comfortable birthing harness she had been kneeling in and into a hoverchair. She held both her babies in her arms, allowing them both to feed from her breasts, which were large and full with milk. She felt wonderful, exhausted, euphoric, too many descriptions to even fit into one full sentence.
"Congratulations, highness." The nurse said as she carefully cleaned off the crying babies with the aid of another nurse. "It's a girl!"
Leia smiled and let out a breath of relief, thinking about it for a moment.
"What do you…say to…Jaina as…a name?" she gasped.
"It sounds wonderful, Princess." Han said with a smile.
Leia smiled, and she swore she could see her husband's eyes glistening with tears. He wasn't all cold and tough, and she had proven that time and again.
"We'll look over all three of you just as a little post-birth exam, and you'll be all set."
Leia smiled as Han kissed her, feeling relief beyond measure. It felt lovely, to be naked and free with her babies in her arms and her husband there to see the family they had created.
"Would you like to hold them?" she asked as Han stroked Jaina's hair.
Han reached out as Leia gently placed their daughter in his arms, melting as she saw Han's expression of joy. She leaned back and groaned from tiredness as the Mon Calamari nurse by the name of Eklor came back with a hologram chart.
"Well, the birth went fine. There have been a few complications, though." Eklor said as she scrolled down the chart.
Leia's heart jumped in shock.
"What's wrong with them?" she asked, fear coming to the forefront of her mind. "Are our babies-?"
"No, Princess, your babies are just fine. They're perfectly healthy." Eklor said, her large eyes looking at Leia with a look of combined respect and concern. "You just have a minor amount of postpartum bleeding. It's called lochia, and it's fairly common with women who have given birth."
Han looked up at the nurse as Leia looked slightly annoyed but leaned back with her son, allowing him to feed from her breasts as a nurse strapped clean diapers onto him and Jaina.
"Is she going to be all right?" he asked as Leia smiled.
"Of course, Mr. Solo. Don't worry, your Highness, you will be fine." Eklor said as she walked around to a large cabinet of medical supplies. "You just need a few sanitary precautions to be prepared for the postpartum bleeding. Your bleeding will stop and your regular menstrual cycle will start back up in about 10 days in your case, but until then, you'll have to use medical sanitary pads."
Leia leaned back and sighed as Jaina started feeding herself with her mother's milk.
"Well, that's no real surprise." She said as she carefully sat up, her vulva feeling sore and puffy from being stretched. "I've got some at the apartment and-"
"Actually, highness, your postpartum bleeding is heavier than your menstrual flow." Eklor said as she shuffled through the cabinets, searching through their contents. "It usually is, and in your case, we need something much more absorbent than just regular pads."
She opened a large cabinet and pulled out a large, rubbery icebox and withdrew from it a bag that crinkled when she moved it, Leia's ears being alerted to a vaguely familiar sound. She couldn't quite place why it sounded so ominous…until she saw Eklor walking around the corner…with a diaper in her hands…that was definitely not meant to be worn by a baby.
"I'm afraid you'll have to wear these for at least the next 10 days, Princess." Eklor said as she held out one of the large diapers for Leia to see. "They're postpartum sanitary ice pads. You keep them in a freezer and wear them during postpartum bleeding. You soak them in water and freeze them overnight, so that the cold reduces the vaginal swelling and puffiness and it better absorbs the blood flow."
"So I can't get up to use the refresher?" leia asked, panic overwhelming her mind.
"I'm afraid not." Eklor said as she pulled the icebox full of diapers forward. "You're going to have to be on bed rest for at least 10 days. But after that, your puffiness and postpartum bleeding should be all done with."
Leia's heart skipped a beat. She stared at the enormous, padded garment. She didn't care what technical medical name they were given, she was going to be wearing a diaper, plain and simple. And as she considered this, her mind flashed back to 5 years ago, in Jabba's Palace, and the diapers she was forced to wear. It was not a happy memory for her.
"Is something wrong, Highness?" Eklor asked as Leia stared at the icebox full of diapers.
"What? No, nothing's wrong." Leia said, realizing she had been caught staring at the diaper box. "Just…a little tired."
"Oh good. Well, the postpartum pads have been pre-frozen, so you'll just have to keep the container closed to keep them all cold." Eklor said as she approached Leia holding one of the ice-filled diapers. "You'll have to wear these while you rest up, and have someone change you while you change your babies."
"I'll do it." Han said as he squeezed Leia's shoulders, noticing his wife's nervousness.
Leia remembered Boba Fett forcing her to strip naked and put on a diaper, locking the refresher to prevent her from relieving her bladder and bowels in an adult fashion. She remembered the absolute shame she had endured when Boba had changed her and cleaned her like an infant with no concept of caring for herself. Leia especially remembered the humiliation she had endured when she was forced to strip naked and crawl through Jabba's court in an infantile way with a huge diaper over her head, one of the most humiliating acts she had done in her life.
"God, I hated that day…" Leia thought as she carefully lay down while the nurses approached her with the padded, frozen diapers.
But by far, the absolute worst she had to endure had to have been when she was forced to wear a humungous, padded diaper during their trip to the boathouse holding The Khetanna, Jabba's sail barge. Leia remembered the shame she felt, wearing the ballooning diaper of plastic and cloth for all to see. Remembered when she had to be changed in front of the scum of the galaxy like an infant while Jabba and his courtiers laughed at her. She had even been threatened with being forced to wear the diapers under her golden slave bikini, removing any privacy and freedom to relieve her bowels and bladder like an adult would.
"Leia?" Han asked, looking at her with concern as his wife shuddered. "Leia honey, are you okay?"
Leia gasped as the ice-cold diaper was strapped over her crotch, making her shiver at the extremely cold, ice-filled fabric between her legs and the familiar feel of the huge, padded garment.
"I'm fine, Han." She said as she breathed out, her sore ladyparts feeling a little better now that they had an enormous pad of ice over them. "Let's go see Luke and the others."
Leia leaned back in a hoverchair as Eklor carefully pushed her forward into the waiting room. The waiting room was filled with their friends, including Luke, Lando, as well as her old friend Winter.
"Congratulations, you two!" Winter said as she hugged Leia, noticing the tired bags under her friend's eyes. "How do you feel, Leia?"
"In a word, tired." Leia said as she squeezed Han's hand.
"In several words, terrified, humiliated, frigid and exhausted." She added mentally to herself, feeling the icy diaper she had been made to wear for her health.
It actually felt rather nice, despite her subconscious humiliation at the memory of her exhibition at Jabba's palace. The ice pressing against her sore vulva felt very good, physically. It was mentally painful for her to wear diapers, and it hurt far worse when she remembered her humiliation in the palace.
"Aaaw, the two lovebirds and their babies out at last." Lando said with a grin as he shook hands with Han and Leia. "And looking as beautiful as their parents."
Leia laughed at the corny line Lando had used as Eklor pushed the hoverchair towards a hospital speeder.
"Leia, are you all right?" Luke asked, in a tone that Leia could tell meant concern.
She knew he could sense her feelings with The Force, and quickly buried her feelings of shame far down deep. She hated feeling like this when she should be feeling so happy. This was the most wonderful day of her life, and she felt humiliated. Leia mentally scolded herself for feeling this way. Why should she feel sorry for herself at this time, especially since the incident in question had happened years ago? What was wrong with her?
"Yes I'm fine, Luke." Leia said with a smile, her long and matted hair curling slightly from the sweat. "Just worn out. Its hard work in there, you know."
"Well, congratulations, you two." Luke said as he shook hands with Han and hugged Leia, smiling before the couple and their children were led into a hospital speeder. "I hope to see both of you when you're back on your feet."
Leia sighed as she leaned back with her children in her arms, the gigantic diaper full of ice making her remember the gold plate of her slave bikini pressing against her bare female parts…
"Honey, you should get some rest." Han said, shaking Leia out of her shock. "It'll be a little while before we get home, and it would be great if you were fresh and rested."
Leia sighed and stroked his hand as she opened her shirt, allowing Jacen to feed from her breasts.
"Okay, I'll do that." She said as she gently held Jacen's head, switching to Jaina and feeding her daughter before gently rocking the two of them to sleep.
"I'll watch the kids, don't worry." Han said as he kissed Leia's eyes, making them close as his exhausted, postpartum wife leaned back and relaxed in her icy diaper. "You just rest for a while, Mom."
The new term made Leia smile as she drifted off to sleep, the crinkling noise of her diaper actually sounding relaxing in her current state. She could only hear her own heartbeat as she held her babies in her arms, feeling so many emotions she couldn't sort them out. She didn't have the heart to tell Han how she was feeling when they were both feeling so happy. Leia figured she'd tell him later when she was at home…and then she fell into a deep slumber with the ice pressing against her ladyparts.
This wasn't going to be easy to get used to.
To be continued. Next part has some minor PTSD regarding Leia's diapers, just a heads-up.