Alright, this is not an actual poem. I call it a 'writning', it's some things I write in a spark of inspiration that, for most part, is very depressing. Normally they have nothing to do with anything, but... I got a sentence from my sweetheart, the one I love. Sabaku no Gaara, the only one ever in an anime to get me to cry. He has done that three times, and I have not only him as a fave, but as an obsession in a way so sick that I directly love him.
What 'relationship' I'm able to have with this person from an anime is sick, and I actually do not like it, because I want a boyfriend, but my heart is already taken away. But what I ask of you is to read my writning and hopefully enjoy it. Maybe get sad, maybe disappointed, since I only wrote this two minutes ago and took five minutes to do so. It's Gaara's POV, and you will have to read to know whom it is to (and it's not me, if my previous words might have given you the thought that I'm selfish enough to write from Gaara to myself, I hate when people do things like that).
Disclaimer: I don't own Gaara, though I call him mine and I claim I don't share. But Gaara owns my heart, so how can I own him?
If you hadn't died, maybe it would be alright
Maybe I wouldn't suffer as I suffer now
Or did
I do not suffer when I bring you the blood of my victims
I only suffered until that moment
Until he told me you didn't love me
He who had kept me warm with his kind words
Claiming you were my sand
My sand is my demon
You are my demon
And I bring you the blood of my victims
So that you won't suffer as I have done
And so that I know I live
If you hadn't died, maybe it would be alright
Maybe dad wouldn't want me dead
Maybe I wouldn't kill
If you really love me, mother, you must tell me
Cause without you, I live to die.
I have no spaces between the lines on purpose, cause that's just how a writning goes. It's not a poem, though close in family.
The meaning of the last sentence is not that he lives, only waiting for death. Just wanted it stated. You're welcome to review me if you want to, but as said, I do not know yet if it turned out well. Cause though I know that 'I have words in my power', I don't necessarily always get the things I write out the way I wanted it at my first try. But I have written what I wanted now.
Enjoy in joy...