Okay so for those of you reading this I suggest reading Silent Shadows prior to this because this is the sequel people.

And you assume they want to read this one anyway..

SHH. I'm trying to start this series smooth and nice ):c

Look how well that's going…

ANYWAY IGNORING YOUR RUDENESS, I think we're just going to plunge into this.

I was talking a the few people who help me with ideas in writing this and such and we came to this conclusion for the second series so, without further ado~

Still Shadows.

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Flashback

Without even realizing it, I was standing in the doorway of my own house. My house. The house I grew up in, good memories and bad.

My hands trembled as I close the door, thoughts plaguing my mind as I couldn't get away. After all, how can you get away from your own thoughts.

I want it all to end. I want to stop thinking, I want the sadness to end. I want this all to end.

Again without realization I had slowly made my way to the kitchen, and picked up a steak knife, in cold trembling hands.

I can't go out without apologizing at least.

I opened my phone slowly and dialed the first number, shakily raising it to my ear as I stared at the sharp knife.

"Hello?"

Levi's voice startled me, as I choked back a sob, putting the knife to the side.

"Eren? Eren are you there? Answer me brat what's wrong."

I closed my eyes as a hand made its way to my mouth, silent tears slowly trickling down my cheeks.

"I..I'm sorry"

I whispered into the phone, more tears slowly gliding down my face.

"F..forgive me.."

I slowly picked up the knife, putting the phone down on the floor as I sat there against the cabinets.

"Forgive you for what? Eren? Eren! Speak damn it! Let me know you're okay!"

"G..goodbye Levi…. I'm sorry."

Before I knew it, the knife was in my side as I let out a surprised yell at the coldness of the small blade.

"Eren! Eren where are you! Speak to me! Let me know you're okay!"

"Stay with me.. Until I fall asleep..."

I dropped to my side with a sickening sound as I started at the picture in my phone, a picture I had taken a few nights after we had slept together, when he was looking at the sunrise. It was a beautiful picture, I was proud of taking it.

I was glad that it would be the last thing I saw.

"Eren! Eren I'm on my way. Come on Eren.. Say something damn it! Anything!"

Darkness slowly started to cover my vision as I smiled staring at the phone, my lips parting to whisper.

"I Love You…"

And with that, everything was dark, and I was once again, alone in the silent shadows.

End of flashback

I opened my eyes gently to be greeted with blinding light.

Did I succeed? Was my pain finally over? Was I finally free?

My heart sank when I tried to move, only for my wrists to be harshly greeted by restraints.

No…No No No… Shit…

Panic started to slowly rise as I rubbed till my wrists were numbed by the rough strength that bound me to the stiff bed.

The room almost made me nauseous with the bleached smell and the painful look of the white walls.

Shit… This can't be happening… I have to be dead.. please let me be dead.

I struggled until the sheets came off, as I took a sharp breath, my side burning with intense pain.

My eyes narrowed as I remembered what had happened, and before I knew it tears are brimming from my eyes and down my face as I choke out a sob.

Levi… I'm so sorry…

I wish I had been successful in my desperate attempt to die, though I knew this was mainly my fault for not having a better plan.

They were going to give me up to a place like this anyway…

I thought, my despair quickly turning into rage, feeling betrayed. My heart lurched as I heard a knock on the door, and I struggled for a second longer before someone came in the door.

A man wearing a doctors coat walked in calmly whom I supposed was supposed to be the doctor as he walked over with a stern face, sitting in a chair and wheeling over.

I stared back at his blue eyes with pure hatred. I was slightly taken aback as his stern face switched to a cheerful smile in a split second.

The hell is up with this guy?

"I'm Erwin Smith I'm going to be your case worker, your doctor, your den mother… you name it I'm the guy Mr. Jaeger."

I snorted, already annoyed with him as I rested my head on the pillow, ignoring the searing pain in my side from which I knew I'd stabbed myself.

"You know you gave us quiet a scare… We almost thought you wouldn't make it.."

He looked over as if to see how'd I'd react and I simply looked over matching his stern eyes that couldn't be hidden behind that smile of his.

"I wish I didn't.." I hiss, clenching my teeth tighter as pain shoots through my right side.

He smirks softly, approaching with some medical supplies.

"You're as stubborn as Levi said you'd be.." He mutters, and I freeze at the mention of the name.

"Where is he.." I choke out unintentionally, sounding more pathetic than I'd like it to be.

Erwin gives me a sad smile and cuts the bandage, starting to dab softly at the swollen wound.

"You know.. he cares about you more than you'd like. And honestly when he called a week prior I almost tho-"

I cut him off, any concern for Levi suddenly replaced by rage.

I knew it. I fucking knew it.

"A week prior? So no matter what I fucking would have done I still would have ended up in this damn-" I'm cut short as a hand is on my shoulder, the smile replaced with a firm look, before he continued his work.

"True you would have been here prior.. though probably on better terms. We have been watching you Eren… we do care. And it isn't Levi you should be mad it. You should be thanking him. He's the one who tried to save you. Those other two friends of yours tried to commit you earlier but you're father was in the way.."

He'd finished putting on the bandages as my mind started to spiral out of control.

Does he mean Mikasa and Armin? Would they really betray me like that…?

I tighten as Erwin sits back in his seat, jotting a few notes.

"Now we're going to wait a few days before decided where to place you for care."

I don't look up as my tongue lashes at him, spitting out the words like they're acid.

"The hell's that supposed to mean."

He sighs softly, putting his clipboard down.

"Well… You'll be either placed with Stationary Medical Co…or….."

I stared at him not in the mood for these petty wastes of times, as I looked out the window.

"Or?" I waited impatiently as he let out yet another sigh.

"You'll go where Levi works. The Wings Of Freedom Mental Hospital"

My eyes screwed shut, as I hissed under my breath, heart broken.

Was his feelings for me a lie? Was he just there to watch my every move like a fly with a broken wing trying to jump into a cup of water…?

Without opening my eyes I try my best not to lash out insults

Fucking bullshit. I won't believe. I won't believe everything I've known is a lie. That everything good that's happened to me since my father's been gone is just.. shit.

"Who else.."

I muttered quietly, barely audible as I tried to calm down.

"Excuse me?"

He leaned back in his chair causing a surprisingly irritating squeak.

"I said who fucking else. Who else have you planted in my messed up fucking life. Well? Mikasa and Armin are they fake too? Are they part of your sick little game with my life?"

I suddenly lost it, as I glared over with burning rage in my eyes. He starred at him with a black expression, slightly reminding me of Levi, before I was brought back to my original thought.

"No. You're two friends were not apart of the.. surveillance, although they had contacted us a month before. They do care for you Eren, they worry very much. I hope you know that. We all just want you to get better."

That's when I lost it. I was so fucking done at this point that I thought I was going to pass back out.

"Are you fucking serious? Get better? I'm not sick you sad fuck. There is nothing wrong with me!" I started to pull on the restraints once more, boiling over with anger.

"This is all bullshit! Worry for me? Care for me? If you knew one god damn thing about me you'd WISH I'd kill myself long before! I have suffered for so long and when I finally get a chance to decided how I want my life to go, you take it away from me" I hissed angrily.

I had gotten more and more worked up that I hadn't even noticed Erwin calling in someone to help him out.

I suddenly realized he was there as he approached me with a needle in hand, determination plastered on his face.

"Get the fuck away from me damn robot" I spat as I tried to move but remained fastened by the restraints.

"You just need to calm down." Erwin sighed, taking all his notes and work and putting it in a folder, waiting for who ever the fuck had the needle finished.

"If you move more, It'll hurt more"

I glared at him angrily as stuck the needle gently in my arm, surprised when I didn't feel anything because of how careful he was.

"Thank you for assisting me Bertolt.. This one is going to be a bit of a challenge.."

I spat at Erwin as I was hit by a wave of drowsiness, continuing my angrily rant though my speak now slurred.

"Shut the fuck up you bitch… You don't know.. anything"

Or at least that's what I was trying to say. It came out more as a soon drunk mother fucker sound like this.

"Shhhhut the fwuck up you… you bitchhhhh… Y..you don't know any tin…."

And before I knew it I'd laughed for a moment about how I said 'tin' and was lost to the darkness once again falling to slumber.

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Mk so that took longer than expected and I can't really make a proper farewell since I need to quickly post and head over for some work out because of a shitty friend who's making me work out for swim team.

Anyway guys I'll see you in the next post! Bye~

Wolfie

Oh okay so I just don't get a say in anything I understand..

Shhh no one likes you.

Rude ass moth-

OKAY bye guys! ^-^