Hi I'm Riley Mathews. I have an A average in school, 5 AMAZING friends, a loving family, and overall a good life. My dad always tried his best to 'keep me from feeling' as he likes to put it, and I'm starting to thing he should have kept going. But I'm in highschool and I have my best friends to support me through all the heart break and the stress and the drama...or so I thought. You would think that you friends had your back, and that they would never cause you any trouble. But for me that's the COMPLETE opposite. It all started when we learned to feel. God how I wish we hadn't! All it has done to us so far is make things awkward and hard between my friends and I. I wish we could go back to 2nd grade when Lucas would offer to push me on the swings and we would talk about everything until we had to go home, Maya and Zay would challenge each other to stupid and sometimes dangerous stuff that Maya would always win at, and Farkle and Smackle would just sit down while reading our science workbook and discuss it. We didn't feel then and I don't wanna feel now. But sadly it's to late. Now that I understand how I have felt the past 8 1/2 years... I don't know how to stop it. It's like my whole world was turned upside down. I like my best friend, I'm wearing makeup and dressing to impress, I joined the cheer squad instead of volleyball, I'm hanging out with Maya and Smackle more that the guys, and I care about what people are saying about me...But why? This wasn't me but I didn't realize it until someone pointed it out.
Or at least that's what I used to think every morning...