Sweetie, death is just a feeling
Hi everyone! Well, this is my first fanfic, and I really don't get how to upload new chapters and so but... Well, I will try! I know my english isn't that good, but I hope you will like it! Oh, and maybe you want to know something about the story. Well, this is a hush hush fanfic. Or, more a Crescendo fanfic. I am so sick about this "Rixon gets send to hell" thing, so that's why I wrote this fanfic! It's about Vee, Rixon and... Some other charachters that might show up ;) But Nora, Patch and the others are still there! I didn't forgot them!
I do not own any of these charachters that are in hush hush/Crescendo or the real hush hush/crescendo story :( But I own the other charachters and my story. So... Enjoy!
Some people say that you need love to survive. That you need someone to hold you, someone to hug you, someone who always will be there for you… Those people should meet me. I was once like them, I believed that you needed love to survive. But I know better now. The only things I need now are a hot cop of coco and a big, tasty hot dog with mustard and ketchup. Yummy.
"Vee! Turn that freaking TV off!" Jeremy shouted as he walked into the living room.
I looked back at him from my space at the couch.
"No I won't. And you can't make me" I said firmly and gave him an angry look. "And by the way, what's up with your outfit? Are you going to grandma Gretchens funeral or what?" I asked as I inspected him from head to toe.
His usual black, messy hair was combed back and he had a black blazer on. Even though he had his regular black jeans on, he still looked like a gentle man with his black blazer and his black shirt on. He almost looked cute. Although, he still looked like something taken out of The godfather.
"No, I'm not going to grandmas funeral" Jeremy said and sounded a bit annoyed. He started walking around in the huge living room. "I'm going on a date, and I'm so freaking nervous. I mean, we're going to Chez Alexander and that's like the fanciest restaurant in town! I won't fit in there with all those brats, I just know it. Wait a minute, why the hell am I telling you this?"
"Get away, you're blocking the TV!" I shouted and slurped down my coke. "And how the hell should I know why you're telling me this? Maybe you want to make a fool of yourself? I don't know."
Jeremy sighed and shook his head.
"You're a pain in the as sis. Anyways, I'm going now."
"Just be home by ten o'clock sweetie! And use a condom, or else your little sweetie will become pregnant!"
"Fuck you Vee!" Jeremy shouted as he walked out and slammed the door.
I shook my head. God, Jeremy could be really annoying. I know, he is my brother and I should love him and take care of him etc. But I don't. He's really annoying and it's not like I hate him, but I don't like him. And no, I'm not a bitch, even though I may sound like one right now.
The thing is, I hadn't always had this attitude against my brother. When I was younger, I really liked him, I almost looked up to him. But as time had passed by, Jeremy had rejected me, and started to avoid me. I really tried to get closer to him, but he never actually wanted to hang out with me. So, as the years went by, we kind of grew apart from each other. But that wasn't something I liked to think about. This was how things were now, and I had accepted it.
I turned my glance back at the TV and focused on the music video. I recognized the song. I had heard it when I was at a Irish pub with Rixon. I think the song was named drunken lullabies… Or something like that.
I felt a knot appear in my stomach. God I missed him. I missed his adorable thick Irish accent, his sweet smile, his dark voice whispering "I love you" in my ear, his soft and gentle lips on mine.
I bit my lip and wiped away a tear. These last two weeks I had tried to ignore the fact that I missed him, but I couldn't do it anymore. I just missed him too much, and… I guess I loved him too much.
I sighed and lay down on the black couch with the blanket wrapped thigh around my body. Maybe I would feel better if I got some sleep. I closed my eyes and tried to throw away the thoughts about Rixon. I took a deep breath and before I knew it, I was asleep and dreaming…
I was standing at a beautiful beach, looking out over the blue, calm sea. The sky was bright and clear, with no clouds. I took a deep breath and exhaled. Everything was so… calming. The bright sky, the blue water, the soft sand… everything. I had no idea how I had ended up here, or how I would get home, but that didn't matter. I was finally calm, and most important, I was happy.
"Vee…?"
I turned around and felt how chock and happiness took over my body. There he was. Only three yards away, Rixon was standing and looking at me with his beautiful dark eyes. He was only wearing a pair of short jeans and his beautiful, black hair was, as always, messy but in a cute way.
"Rixon!"
I started to run towards him and at last, I threw myself into his arms. His arms embraced me and I felt how all my happiness exploded inside me. I was here with him now, in his arms. God, how I had missed him!
He pulled back and pressed his lips against mine and I felt like I was going to pass out. My whole body was shaking, because of all the happiness within my body. My heart was pounding three times faster than usual, and butterflies were flying around in my stomach. How could a human be this happy?
I slowly pulled away from him after a while and looked into his dark eyes. Rixon smiled at me and I smiled back.
He hugged me again.
"God Vee, you have no idea how much I've missed you" he said with his thick Irish accent.
"I've missed you too" I mumbled as I leaned my head against his muscular chest and relaxed. But just as I started to relax, I felt how my body stiffed. I pulled away from him and looked up at him. "Wait a minute, why the hell didn't you came back earlier? Why the hell did you just disappear like that without telling me?"I shrieked and felt how all my happiness was replaced with anger and frustration.
Rixon sighed and looked away. For a second, anger and pain washed over his face, and then, almost as fast as it had came, it was gone.
"I… I couldn't. I couldn't tell you Vee, cause… I didn't choose to leave. Patch made me. I know it sounds weird, and what I'm about to tell you right now will sound even weirder, but… Patch sent me to hell. He's an angel, and so am I."
For a while, I just stood there and stared at him, then after a while I started to laugh. I couldn't help myself! It just sounded so… so unreal. So weird.
Rixon, on the other hand, didn't laugh. He looked at me with a dead serious glance.
"Vee, I'm serious. This is not a joke, I'm telling you the truth."
"Yeah, right Rixon. You know what, I really do believe you. You're an angel and you know what? I'm a werewolf with wings" I said with a smile and shook my head. "You know what, you almost got me Rix, almost…"
Before I even had time to react, I stood leaning against the huge rocks with Rixons strong arms holding my shoulders.
"Vee, listen to me, I'm serious! Every little thing that I told you about is true! "
As he said that, a couple of black beautiful wings were spread out. Mesmerized, I looked at the wings. They were beautiful. I just wanted to reach out and touch them.
"R-Rixon…. I… This can't be true, it's… I…. It's just so… unreal."
Rixon eased the grip around my shoulders and met my glance.
"I know it's hard to believe but… you just have to believe me. Okay?"
"I still don't get it…" I said and shook my head. "Why didn't you tell me earlier? Why were you sent to hell? Why didn't you just come back earlier? Why did you…."
"I couldn't tell you. And it's not because I didn't want to, I wanted to, it's just that… I couldn't. If I would tell you earlier, the archangels would have sent me to hell before Patch did" he explained and literally spitted out Patch name. "I couldn't come to you earlier because the archangels wouldn't let me."
"But… why the hell did you come back now?"
"Easy. Because I love you." Rixon grabbed my chin and forced me to look into his eyes.
A part of me just wanted to throw myself into his arms and kiss him, forgive him. His words reminded me of how much I had missed him. But then there was another part of me, that wasn't ready to forgive him for not telling me. And that part also had a hard time believing he was telling the truth.
"I… I Can't do this right now Rixon, I… I need to calm down. I need to be alone for a while."
"No Vee, you need to hear this! You need to hear everything!" Rixon looked at me and this was the first time he looked really worried, and scared.
"I… I Can't I… I need to be by myself."
"No, you need to stay here Vee! Stay with me!"
"No Rixon, let go of me!"
I tried to pull myself out of his grasp while I kept screaming and telling him to let go of me. At the same time, I felt how everything started to face away.
"Vee, don't do this! Stop rejecting me! If you keep rejecting me I won't be able to tell you about… You won't find out about…"
I sat straight up and screamed. I opened my eyes. I was back in our living room, sitting on the couch with the familiar red blanket wrapped around my body. A dream. It had just been a dream. Nothing but a dream. I Shook my head and looked over at the watch. 06.00 A.M. One hour before school. Yeah, that had definitely just been a dream.