Something very different from what I normally write.

WARNING: torture and rape.

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To Break and Heal

To Break

Kakashi screamed as the burning sensation went through his body. He never wanted someone to kill him like he did now. All he could feel was pain and the cold floor, on which he laid. He could feel Orochimaru's cold eyes on him. He knew the man was a sadist, but this was insane. He was insane. If he could break Kakashi, a man as hard as rock when it came to torture, then he truly did things no sane man would do. This man had no soul.

"Had enough, Kakashi?"he asked, a sickly grin on his face. Kakashi breathed heavily on the floor. Even though Orochimaru had been able to break Kakashi, he still didn't spill any secrets. His loyalty to the village was stronger then anything. Kakashi would never give anything to this man, even if he got every limb ripped off.

"You're quite stubborn, even though I have preformed some off my most painful tortures, you still won't talk. Perhaps, I must take further measures," he said. Kakashi couldn't lie, he was afraid. Further measures? What the hell did that mean? He felt himself get pulled onto his back. His eyes widened as he saw Orochimaru on top of him.

"Perhaps, I must break you more," Orochimaru said as his snake-like tongue licked Kakashi's cheek. Kakashi squirmed under it, but he had no strength to do anything to protect himself. He felt Orochimaru reach into his pants.

He knew.

He knew what was happening here.

He closed his eyes tightly, he want to stop this, but he was so weak. The torture from just moments before took so much out of him. He let out a whimper when Orochimaru entered him.

"This doesn't have to last long, just tell me what I want to know."

Kakashi said nothing. Orochimaru frowned and took his time pleasuring himself with Kakashi, his toy. He clawed at Kakashi, adding to the many scars.

"For hating this, you're so easy," Orochimaru said as he moved in and out simply. Kakashi bite his lip, he hated himself. He hated this. He couldn't even put up a simple fight. He felt like snakes were slithering up his body and choking him. He was beginning to sweat, he wanted to die. Orochimaru took his face into his hands and made him look at him.

"You belong to me now," the sick man said. He bent down and bite the side of Kakashi's neck.

Like fire.

Kakashi felt as if he was engulfed in fire. He hadn't even realized that the one screaming was himself. Orochimaru watched as the Hell Curse Mark formed. A wide grin formed on his face. He stood up and fixed himself up. Suddenly, the wall burst and smoke filled the room. Orochimaru narrowed his eyes as he looked at a familiar face, but soon the sick smile returned.

"Why hello, Jiraiya," he said as he looked at the man. Jiraiya glanced down at Kakashi and then looked at Orochimaru. Orochimaru waved a hand and turned around.

"You can take him, I'm done with him." He began to walk away.

"You fucking bastard!" Jiraiya shouted as he started to form seals.

"A fight between me and you would last pretty long, no? By the looks of it Kakashi doesn't have 'pretty long'," he said. Jiraiya stopped and took another look at Kakashi, who was bleeding heavily on the floor and gasping for breath.

"Go head, I no longer have a need for him."

Jiraiya narrowed his eyes, but the quickly picked up Kakashi and ran away from this terrible place. Orochimaru only watched and smiled.

Jiraiya ran for a few minutes and then placed Kakashi down and rapped him in his jacket. He gave him first aid, for it was all he could do.

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When Kakashi woke up, he felt sore all over. When he opened his eyes he saw a white ceiling. His eyes widened and he sat up quickly, soon regretting doing so. He whole body tensed up in pain.

"Hey, hey, take it easy." he heard a voice say. When the pain went away he looked up and saw Asuma standing over him.

"Asuma?"

"Hey, how ya feelin'?" he asked as he took a seat on the side of the bed.

"I'm....broken," was the reply he got. Asuma frowned.

"Kakashi, look at me," Asuma said and Kakashi looked up. "You were tortured and.......raped," he said and Kakashi looked away. "Look at me Kakashi." He said, he waited until Kakashi's eyes meet his again. "Jiraiya told only me and my father what happened to you. Kakashi, you were tortured by one of the sickest man, he's not even a man, on the earth and you're alive. If this was any other shinobi, they'd be begging him to have killed them."

"I wanted to die," Kakashi said.

"But did you beg him? Did you ask him to end your misery?"

Kakashi shook his head.

"You're very strong Kakashi, if I didn't know what happened, I won't be able to tell. You're sitting here like it never happened. I'll say it again, you're very strong, but you're not invincible. You broke, so now it's time to heal." Kakashi looked up at Asuma, who had a small smile on his face. "Unlike breaking, you have friends there to help you heal." As if on cue, the door opened and Gai, Kurenai, and Iruka walked in. All asking how he felt and when he'd be released. The small group was there for a couple of hours, just chatting, until the nurse ushered them out telling them visiting times were over and Kakashi need his rest. As the others left Asuma stayed behind to tel Kakashi one last thing.

"You're not alone Kakashi," Asuma said as he bent down and hugged Kakashi, "No matter how much you might avoid and ignore us, we'll always be behind making sure you're okay, lil bro."

Kakashi felt tears stinging his eyes and he laughed.

"Yeah, I'll remember that when I'm pulling you're ass out of the way of a flying kunai!"

"Oi! That was only once and I thought we agreed to never talk about that!"

The two men laughed.

"See ya tomorrow," Asuma said as the nurse began to usher him out as well.

"See ya."

"You have really great friends," a voice said from the window once the nurse left the room.

"Yeah, I do," Kakashi said. Jiraiya smiled at the boy, he could tell that the healing has begun.

"Get some rest, they'll be all over you tomorrow. Gai has been saying you owe him a challenge," Jiraiya said as he was about to leap off the windowsill but stopped when he heard his name.

"Jiraiya..."

"Hn?"

"......thank you, for saving me," Kakashi said.

"Heh, no problem. Heal up and don't push yourself, okay?"

"Okay."

Jiraiya leaped down from the hospital window and Kakashi laid down. He fell into a peaceful sleep, filled with dreams of him and his friends.

A smile crept onto his peaceful, sleeping face.

To Be Continued...