In Your Arms
12/26/08
By Silver
I want
Nothing to deal with you
Or them
All of you left me
In the cold rain
Without a care
Not wondering
If I could make it
Broken and torn
As I was
All of you turned
And walked away
And I'm not sure
If you meant to
Leave me this blade
The perfect, wonderful object
To help me commit my last act
Of selfishness or selflessness
However you look at it
I've lived longer than I should have
So I'll just go
Since none of you
Ever wanted me
I picked up the blade
Then rain is calming
I have no fear of death
The blade felt good in my hands
I lifted it to my left wrist
Then slashed it open
Twice to make sure
It hurt for a little
But not too long
Then I switched it over
To my left wrist
And attacked my right
It felt good
Nice
Pleasant
I dropped the blade
With shaky hands
Now blood and tears
Mixed with the cooling rain
And just as I started to slip away
An close my once lively eyes
I thought I heard your voice
It called out to me
I opened my eyes
When did I close them?
I don't know
I can't remember anymore
It's harder to breathe now
Blood is staining my clothes
I thought for a moment I could feel you
Next to me
Holding me and crying
Telling me it would be alright
That I was safe now
I knew you were right
This lie that was made
This lie called life
I put an end to it
To my lie
But
For some
Odd reason
I felt utterly guilty
And in my last moments
I knew why I felt that way
It's because everything you said
Was never a lie
It was always me not listen
And I tried so hard
For you to hear
The words
That were echoing in my mind
"I... lov"
But I can't get enough air
I'm struggling here
So with the last of my strength
Pulled your lips to mine
And kissed you
You understood what I was trying to say
But I wanted you to know
One more thing
So I whispered with the last of my breath
"I always wanted to die in your arms"