SO THIS IS SET DURING THE BAD REPUTATION EPISODE WHERE RACHEL DOES THE RUN JOEY RUN VIDEO WITH FINN AND PUCK ..JESSE JUST SEEMED TO BE SUPER PISSED LOL SO AFTER RE-WATCHING THE EPISODE I DECIDED TO WRITE THIS... ALSO THE REASON I DECIDED TO WRITE THIS IS BCUZ OF A PLAY CALLED SPRING AWAKENING. IN THE PLAY JESSE SPANKS RACHEL SOOO I REEEAALLY WANTED 2 WRITE THIS. UMMM THIS CONTAINS SPANKING IF U DON'T LIKE PLEASE DO NOT READ I REALLY DON'T WANT ANY FLAMES SOO THE NXT GLEE SPANKING FANFIC WILL BE PUCKLBERRY LOL THNKS 2 SIBASUNNY! ANYWAY PLZ DN'T 4GET TO REVIEW!

Rachel's pov

"I should have been enough for you Rachel." Jesse stated angrily as I stared at him in shock. "I knew you'd break my heart." I mumbled looking down at the floor.

"Well that's the funny thing about reputations. Everyone thinks that I'm the big heart breaker, but the fact of the matter is... you broke mine first." Jesse said softly as he took a deep breath before continuing on.

"Do me a favor, if we end up next to each other in ballet club next week, just do your arabesques and piques in silent. Don't talk to me." He ordered before walking away.

I stood there shocked, and closed my eyes, slamming my head against my locker.

Glee rehearsal passed in a blur, I couldn't even focus on the song because I was too angry with myself for hurting Jesse.

When he left Glee club without even saying anything to me, I knew that I had really hurt him badly.

Even though he put up with my constant need to become a star and when he sat with me and didn't complain once as we watch the phantom of the opera over and over again he was never this mad at me.

I didn't want our relationship to be over. After ballet class I decided that I would talk with him. He loved me and so I was sure that he would forgive me. He had to.

He refused to talk with me throughout the whole class, nearly dropping me as he lifted me up and lowered me to the floor. Maybe he was just as worried about our fight as I was, so that was why he was distracted.

"Jesse! Jesse please wait!" I cried, catching up to him just as he was about to leave after the class was over.

"What do you want Rachel?" He snapped back at me, unable to look me in the eye.

"Could you please just talk to me? I know that you're upset because I lied to you but it's not such a big deal! You're blowing this way out of proportion!" I yelled angrily unable to stop myself from lashing out.

"Really Rachel? How would you feel if I made a video with Brittney and Santana as my girlfriends? How would that make you feel?" He said glaring daggers at me.

I struggled to come up with words as I looked around the room, nervously,

I wasn't expecting him to act like this. Although I had to admit, angry Jesse was pretty sexy. When he raised his voice I couldn't help but get turned on by it.

I forced those thoughts into the back of my head and thought of a correct answer.

"Uh um hurt I guess." I murmured.

Jesse laughed at my response, and I'm assuming it wasn't because he found my response funny. He walked up to me and grasped the top of my arms and looked at me straight in the eye.

"More like humiliating. I am your boyfriend Rachel, not Finn nor Puck."

"I-I know that, and I'm really sorry for hurting you. It's just that I wanted so badly for people to think of me as popular I let it cloud my judgment and I'm so sorry for hurting you." I explained hurriedly. I drew in a shaky breath before continuing on.

"Jesse you have to understand that I didn't mean to." I plead, nearly on the verge of crying as I searched his face for an answer.

Without saying anything he wrapped me into a hug. I clung onto him and tried to stop myself from sobbing. "Will you come over to my house tonight? Please that'll give us some time to talk?" I asked, silently praying that he would agree.

"I have to get home soon. I'm leaving to go visit my parents in Rio next week. I have to start packing." He replied dismissively. "Please for me?" I asked softly.

He sighed deeply and gave me a smile before turning around. "Sure." He replied finally. I smiled in gratitude and took his hand in mine as we walked out of the school.

We went into his car and he drove rather fast to my house. He barely said a word to me for the whole car ride there. Only asking me once if my fathers where home. I answered back No. They had both went out tonight to go see some new movie that was playing at the local theatre.

That was the highlight of the whole ride there.

When he pulled into the driveway Jesse got out and opened the door for me. I got out and headed up the porch steps. I opened the door and went inside, heading up to my room quickly with Jesse following after me.

I was determined to put this fight behind us and make things right. Walking over to him, I caressed his face and kissed him passionately on the lips.

I tried unsuccessfully to unbutton the collar of his shirt, Jesse broke the kiss rather abruptly, staring at me shocked. "Rachel what-?" He started to say before I broke him off.

"I don't know what to do anymore! You're still angry with me and I have no clue how to make you forgive me. So I thought that maybe if I gave myself to you then you wouldn't be..." I stopped talking as the sobs started to take over yet again.

"Rachel come here." He asked softly and pulled me into a tight hug. I stood there limply and tried to get a handle on myself. "Rach. Yes I'm still a bit upset what with what happened earlier today." He admitted reluctantly before continuing on.

"But I don't want you to feel pressured to give yourself to me. I only want that to happen when your ready." He told me sternly. I nodded my head and looked away shyly.

"Well what can I do to make you forgive me?" I asked desperately.

Jesse sat down on the bed and looked at me surprised. "I don't expect you do do anything." He said. "I just want to know that I'm able to trust you again. If this relationship is going to work then I need to be able to trust you and know that you aren't lying to me."

His words where like a slap to the face. I never realized that I had jeopardized our relationship just by making that stupid video. A bad reputation was so not worth this.

"Jesse you don't know how sorry I am. If I asked you to do something to take away my guilt would you?" I asked carfully, looking up at him to determine his expression.

He seemed skeptical. "What would that be?" He asked. I took in a deep breath and braced myself for his reaction.

"I-I want you to spank me."

AND THIS IS THE END OF CHAPTER ONE I REALLY HOP U LIKED IT! AND I KNO THAT JESSE WAS JUST PLAYING RACHEL BUT IN MY OWN LILTTLE WORLD JESSE ATCUALLY CARED ABOUT RACHEL AND FELL IN LOV W/ HER ALONG THE WAY LOL ANYWWAY PLZ REVIEW AND U WILL WILL GET CHAPTER 2!