Disclaimer: I don't own these characters. Stephanie Meyer does.
"What do you see when you look at me?" I asked the beautiful man who stood in front of me. I was so nervous. It had taken me so long to finnaly ask him. I had no idea what I felt or what he felt.
He didn't answer. I felt my sadness and confusion well up in my eyes and break loose. Warm hot tears streamed down my face. I turned away to hide my shame. I knew it, I knew it all along. There was no way this godly person, this Adonis could ever feel that way about me. There was no way he could ever see me the way I saw him.
Suddenly I felt an icey cold hand under my chin. He began to lift my face up. I averted my eyes so I wouldn't have to see him reject me. His pefect lips forming those deadly words.
"Look at me."
That statement startled me. It was so full of sadness and pain. It matched the way I felt. His musical voice was heartbreaking. Why would he be upset if he was turning me down, telling me I wasn't good enough for him? Why should he be suffering? Was I so repulsive that it caused him pain? Was that why he was hurting?
I still couldn't face him. "Please... God please look at me" his voice cracked on the last sylable. I slowly glanced at his face. What I saw captured my attention and I could no longer look away. He looked so sad, confused, and hurt. He looked like evertyhing he loved had been taken away. My tears came faster. Seeing this beutiful... godly person,being, so hurt caused me physical anguish. I was sure if it was possible for him to cry he would.
The raw emotion displayed in his eyes was, for lack of a better word mesmerizing. I had never seen him express his emotions like this. Usually his eyes were a black mask, hiding everything away. But not now. The were full of emotion and it killed me to look, but I couldn't look away.
He slowly and delicatly pulled my face closer to his, as if i was a piece of fine china. Before I could register what was happening his lips were on mine. I was so surpised! I could barely think, my lips burned beneath his and electricity ran up and down my body. I wonder if he felt it to? Slowly my eyes closed and I began kissing him back. His lips were soft, cold, and unsure. It was intoxicating. If I could have kissed him forever I would have. He slowly pulled away, as if he never wanted to stop.
"When I look at you I see every wonderful thing a person can be." His voice was husky with passion and desire "I see a beautiful wonderful caring person, I see someone who I want to spend my life with, I see the person who stole my heart, I see someone who is everything I ever wanted and everything I ever needed, and I see some one who is much to good for me." His icy hand trailed down my neck, down my shoulders, down my back until it came to rest on my hip. His eyes were so pleading. "I love you." His said. He looked so unsure and sad but at the same time he looked so confident and sure. My heart raced, and my blood boiled.
I could never do what he had just done. I was in shock. This angel, MY angel loved me. He had no intentions to reject me. I didn't repulse him. He LOVED me. I could barely get my mind around it.
But in that moment I knew. I loved him to. He was my soul mate, my other half! This man, this wonderful man was meant for me. And only me. The plain, shy, unremarkable girl. He was mine!
I placed my warm, shaking hand on his frozen cheek. His eyes were closed and they fluttered at my touch. My tears had stopped, but I was racked with tremors.My nervousness was getting the better of me before i had even opened my mouth. I was scared. So so so scared. What if's attacked my brain, immidiatly making me unsure.
I slowly leaned my face closer to his ear.
"I love you to" I whispered. My voice shook. He quickly leaned forward again, coming for a kiss. But I pulled away. I took my hand off of his face, and slowly left. He didn't try to follow me.
I didnt know why I was doing this. I didn't think Icould take it anymore. Love. It was such a scary thing. I didnt know if i could handle this. All of it.
The tears came again, and this time harder. I began to run. I didn't know where I was going, or why. All I knew was that i had to get away.
Something caught my foot and i fell to the ground. Sobs racked my body. I needed him here. I needed him with me or I wouldn't be complete. But I was scared.
I was destined to run away. Forever.
I think this sucked. Oh well. I might continue, probably oh well. Review I guess.