This is my first ever fan fiction. I was inspired by Tina68 who when she wrote her first story made it look so easy. This was an idea I had, not sure where it will go but don't hate on the non McSwarekness. We know they belong together but right now Sam deserves to be happy too. This chapter is going to be backgroundish...

(Making up words now) Sam and Allie were together for two years prior to Sam going to his 8 month undercover gig, maybe now we will know why?

Please let me know what you think.

Present time: (Roughly Early December '10)

As Sam drove home from work he found his mind drifting. Perhaps it was the Christmas decorations all over the neighborhood or maybe subconsciously he was hearing Christmas songs on the radio. His head was so filled with thoughts, he found it difficult to focus on anything in particular. He finally pulled into his driveway, not really remembering the ride, and shut off his truck. He sat for a moment, then grabbed his bag and went inside. He dropped his stuff by the door and made his way to the fridge for a beer and then sat down in his favorite chair.

He could hardly believe that Christmas was just a few weeks away. This holiday would pale in comparison to last year, who was he kidding, actually nothing would compare to last year at this time...

Flashback...(Dec '09)

"Come on Sammy, please, I know you hate shopping but I just need a couple more things for my nieces and nephews. You know we have to be favorite aunt and uncle. "Ugh, Allie, he groaned, "what's in it for me?" "How bout lunch and my undying love? she said "Stop right there, you had me at lunch", he grinned . Off to the mall they made their way through the traffic, the crowds and the craziness. After a sandwich at their favorite cafe, they started to make their way back to the car. Packages in hand, Sam paused in front of a jewelry store window. Allie did a double take, then came up behind him and rested her chin on his shoulder. "Watcha lookin at mister? Need me to pick something out?" she laughed. "Do you see something you want?" he asked, his tone and facial expression serious. "Sam, those are...engagement rings? What, I mean...are you serious, we haven't really talked about this?"she mumbled. "Well, I think maybe we should." he replied, his eyes never leaving hers. She grabbed one of the bags he was holding and grabbed his now empty hand with hers. They walked in silence out to the car. The ride home seemed like an eternity. They had been together almost two years and never ran out of things to say. Conversation was always so natural for them, suddenly they couldn't find the words.

Wow, that seemed so long ago, he thought. It seems like just yesterday that he met her at their first day at the police academy. When the sergeant was drilling them that first day and screaming in their faces, Sam wanted to punch the guy. He was however distracted by a pretty blonde with the most beautiful greenish blue eyes. Those eyes that looked like they were ready to well up with tears She remained stoic, he gave her credit for that. Sam gave her a full dimpled smile to which she blushed. Little did they know that this would be the start of a beautiful friendship.

End flashback...

Sam leaned back in his chair and couldnt help but think (or torture himself), back to better times...They had become fast friends. Allie was a natural student, helping Sam study the law, Sam in turn, being the ultimate athlete helped her pass all of her physical qualifications. He pushed her and she pushed him. They were a perfect team. Upon graduation they were thrilled to find out that they were both being assigned to the same division along with Jerry, Noelle, Oliver and Frank. The six of them were inseparable, spending most of their off time together as well as at work. They played on a coed softball team. One afternoon, it was the PD vs. St. Michaels hospital team. Oliver started chatting it up with one of the nurses from St. Mikes. A petite little red head named Zoe. Sam knew immediately that Ollie was a gonner. They were married a year later, Allie served as a bridesmaid and Sam the best man. Jerry was next. He met Jen during a robbery investigation. She was a witness. Jerry took her statement and her phone number. After the case was closed, he could not wait to call her. After a year of dating, they got engaged. Sam and Allie were thrilled for their friend and his new found happiness. Four years had passed since the academy. The each dated sporatically, no one really special, no one really clicked.

One night the group got together at the Penny for drinks to celebrate Sam's birthday. Allie could not wait to give him her gift..two tickets to see Bon Jovi at Rogers Centre in Toronto. Sam loved the band and she couldn't wait to see his face when he opened the envelope, and then again when she put the backstage passes around his neck like she planned. (Her brother Nathan had really hooked her up, she was gonna owe him big time) He could not believe his eyes, he scooped her up and without a thought kissed her right on the lips. It wasn't a passionate kiss, but oh God, they had both felt the sparks. It was as if they were frozen in time and there was no one else around. Why hadn't they done that before? Four years of dinners and movies and laughter, oh so much laughter, how did they miss what was right in front of them? Is it possible that two trained investigators, two people trained in the art of reading other people, missed the signs of what was right before their eyes? Judging by the faces of their friends around them, when they finally noticed them again, Sam and Allie were the only ones who didn't see this coming. Yikes, four years of foreplay.

Needless to say, after that night not only did Sam take Allie to the concert but she was always by his side. It was similar to their lives before but now with all the yummy benefits. They both found it amusing that they could be at work together and then go home together and still not be sick of each other. If this wasn't love, they wouldn't know what was.

After about a year, Sam asked Allie to move in with him. Most of her clothes consumed his closet anyway. He owned his house and why should she continue paying rent? So she did, she gave up her lease and together, they moved her stuff in. Things were going great at home, work was good, life couldn't be better. For the next year, they both would alternate between patrol and undercover work when they were needed until THAT day...

Sam finally came out of his daze and put down his almost full beer bottle. He couldnt really remember if he had actually fallen asleep at any point. He did know two things: He had to work tomorrow and secondly, tonight, he was going to need something stronger to erase Alexandra Healy from his mind.

PLEASE BE PATIENT WITH ME...I KNOW WHAT I WANT TO SAY BUT HAVING A HARD TIME WRITING IT DOWN SO YOU GUYS CAN SEE THE PICTURE IN MY HEAD. :) PLEASE REVIEW...