***ENGLISH IS NOT MY LANGUAGE***
This came up after seeing the promotional pictures of the next episode of Grey's, basically it'll be a bunch of little moments between the apparent new friendship between Meredith and Teddy (I'm so excited) this has nothing to do with my other fic "I Believe in Fate" (which will be updated really soon) this is developed in its own universe.
It was supposed to be small drabbles, but I didn't have much luck with that, once I start writing I can't stop, but I promise, I promise that in the future I'll try to make my chapters much, much shorter, I feel that I annoy you all with my long chapters.
Anyway, as I said this will be centered on Teddy/Meredith, what happens outside of those moments will only be mentioned.
A/N: I've NEVER written Meredith, I'm not familiarized with the character so it may sound OOC, my apologies in advance, but I'll try to do my best. Observations (made kindly) will be infinitely appreciated.
New Beginings
It was almost noon, Meredith had asked me to meet us in the playground of a park near her house, I still don't know why I accepted, although maybe it was only because I felt cornered, somehow she learned my secret and although she didn't want to tell who was the person who told her it wasn't very difficult to guess. Maggie Pierce had broken her HIPAA oath, but I would deal with that later, for the moment I'll just listen to whatever Meredith has to say to me and then I'll go back to my refuge from which I hadn't left in the last days until today... Owen's mother house... ironic I know, but the old woman had always been like a mother to me, always watching over me, always careful of me, always asking Owen where and how I was, always being a mother, the mother that I never had.
After leaving the hospital I felt lost, I had nowhere to go, I started walking the streets of Seattle and when I least expected it I was knocking at the door of Evelyn Hunt, with a suitcase in each hand and red and swollen eyes from so much crying. When she opened the door I didn't know what to say, I just threw myself to her arms crying like a girl, like a little girl who needed her mother's comfort and that was what Evelyn had given in these days, comfort, love, care. I hadn't told her about the baby yet, her grandson, the excuse I had given her about my presence in Seattle was that I was fleeing from a failed relationship in Germany and that the blood clot was only a side effect of the long trip and the long surgery I had in the same day. But to tell the truth what Owen and I had wasn't even a relationship, anyway, I know that Evelyn is not stupid, she, after Owen, knows me better than anyone and based on the way she sometimes looks at me I feel that she knows the truth, that she can read it through my face, through my eyes or just when she hears me crying at night, or when she comes in to tuck me up thinking I'm asleep and I don't realize, while caressing my hair and whispering "Everything will be fine, child". I know that to stay longer with her I'll have to tell her the whole truth, but I don't think that will be necessary, the blood clot has practically disappeared so I don't have much else to do in the city.
While I wait for Meredith to arrive I watch the mothers and the children play, that will be me in a short time. Maybe I'll be like that mom sitting next to the stroller, or like the one next to her watching her little daughter play in the jungle gym, or like the one who runs after her son because he doesn't want to leave the playground.
"Hey, I hope I didn¿t make you wait too long." Meredith's voice breaks with my daydream.
"Oh, not at all, I just got here." I answer and then uncomfortable silence, we both look into each other's eyes, but neither says anything. "You can sit if you like, or do you prefer that we go somewhere else?" I said after the silence becomes too uncomfortable.
"No, here is perfect." She sits next to me.
"So... what did you want to talk to me about?"
"I know you're pregnant." She tells me directly and bluntly, typical of Meredith.
I let out a humorless laugh. "I see that news keep traveling fast at the Grey Sloan."
"Look, I know Maggie shouldn't..."
"Then it was her who told you." I interrupt her and by her expression I seem to be more aggressive than usual, at least of what is "normal" for Meredith.
"She made a mistake, but..."
"That wasn't a mistake, that was a felony. You are a doctor for God's sake! You know that doctor-patient confidentiality is the base of our career!"
"I know, I know and Maggie is willing to deal with the consequences, but... Are you willing to deal with them too?"
"It wasn't me who broke the law by revealing confidential information about my patient".
"You know I don't mean that, Teddy."
Silence. I take a deep breath and avoid looking into her eyes, focusing my attention on the children who play in the jungle gym.
"When I found out I was pregnant with Ellis I felt like my world was falling apart... it had been only a few weeks since Derek's death, Bailey was just a baby and Zola... my poor Zola, she didn't understand what was happening... There wasn't a day when I didn't imagine Derek's face when I told him we would have another child, unfortunately that moment will stay there forever, in my imagination... I never had the chance to tell Derek that he would be a father again, that we would have a child, I never saw his face and his eyes light up with joy in every ultrasound like he did with Bailey, I never heard his laugh when Ellis took his first steps like he did when Zola walked for the first time... I didn't have and I will not have that opportunity anymore. Do you have an idea how much does that hurt?"
"If you try to imply that I shouldn't take away Owen's 'happiness'." I quote with my fingers. "Is not the same".
"Why not? It's his child, you better than anyone else knows how much Owen has always wanted a child".
"It's not the same and you know it, Meredith. Derek would have jumped to the roof shouting with joy, but this will only bring problems... When I learned of my pregnancy my world also collapsed... I was terrified and in one way or another I found the courage to come and tell Owen everything, but... Don't you realize that this could ruin your sister's relationship with Owen?!"
Meredith looked into my eyes with an almost imperceptible smile. "Look... Amelia is happy; it's been a while since I've seen her so happy... I don't know what they have, but they're happy and from what I can see you don't want anything with Owen... Teddy, from experience I can tell you that you don't need a man to raise a child, you don't need Owen, but what you do need is to tell him he's going to be a father... don't do it for him, not for you, do it for your child, he or she will thank you in the future".
"What you suggest is a purely co-parental relationship?"
"Why not? Unless that is not what you want and..."
"No, that's exactly what I want, what I don't want is to cause problems... I'm afraid that this news could ruin whatever Owen and Amelia have".
"If they are mature and intelligent enough they will understand that this happened when they were not together and that your child deserves to know who its father is".
We stay a few minutes in silence, only the laughter of the children, the birds chirping and the air can be heard. Meredith is right, I don't want anything with Owen, but my child does deserve to know who its father is. I sigh deeply.
"I'll tell Owen". I mumble without turning to see her.
"It's the best you can do".
And I can feel the weight of her hand over mine.
Make sure to read the second part ;)