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Title: No Regret
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I wonder why I always put up with you. I wonder why I beleived in a man who had a reputation of being the playboy of Central. I wonder why I risked my life for a man who drowns himself in alcohol everyday. I wonder why? I wonder why Roy.
Roy, if only you knew. If only you knew how happy I was when you proposed to me that day. If only you saw how I jumped for joy when I was pregnant. But you weren't there. You were in heaven knows where; drinking yourself to death. Sometimes I wonder why I loved you. But I always ignored my question and kept convincing myself that you are going to change someday soon.
Roy, if only you knew. If only you knew how much I feel worse than Gracia when you left me. Because just like Hughes, you left me alone with a daughter. But, at least Gracia felt her husband's love towards her unlike me, I almost never heard the sentence 'I love you' coming from you to me.
Roy, if only you knew. If only you knew how much I sacrificed just to be with the man I love. I sacrificed my job, my freedom and so much more just to be with you. I practically sacrificed my own life just to be with you. And what do I get in return? Nothing absolutely nothing but our dear daughter.
Roy, if only you were here. If only you were still here to see us. I really feel bad when you left me with our daughter. Oh Roy, why? Were you afraid because the military found out? Are you afraid because we broke the fraternization rule? If so, why? Why did you have to marry me in secret if you didn't love me enough to risk your damn military rank!
Roy, if only you were here. If only you were here to see the pain I and our daughter endured just to stay alive. Fortunately, Gracia, Alphonse, Sciezka and Maria were there to help me and our daughter. Heck, even the the newly wed Edward and Winry are there. All of them just to help us.
Roy, if only you were here. If only you saw how beautiful our daughter has grown. She has you eyes, your hair color and even you lazy attitude. But even though I should be disappointed that she has your lazy ego, I am happy that she has that trait. Because she reminds me so much of you. And meaning that she truly is Flame Alchemist Roy Mustang's daughter. And there was never a day that I did not tell our daughter how her father was the greatest.
Roy, if only you were here. If only you were here to see and feel how much I miss you. How much I miss your face. How much I miss your voice. How much I miss your hug. How much I miss your kiss. How much I miss your warmth. How much I miss your smile. How much I love you.
But you know, as I look at your grave today for your tenth death anniversary, as I look at the great Flame Alchemist's grave, I feel your presence near me. And to be honest, even though I experienced so much pain and sufferings, there was never a day that I regreted working with you, being with you and loving you.
And as I stand here with our daughter and friends, I, Riza Hawkeye-Mustang, state that I have no regrets or whatsoever, being married with the man who is known to be the Flame Alchemist, Roy Mustang.
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Author's Notes: God, that was so sappy! I don't even know why I wrote this. Maybe I just wanted to try it. Oh well. I really don't expect much reviews for this story/POV. But I do hope I get some even ust a few. So that I would somewhat feel appreciated even though my spellings and grammars are wrong. Haha. Oh well, please review.
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