she will be loved
it was spring, well at least that's what the beaten up red and white calendar above my bed said. Today was march 21st but it looked as if it was still in the middle of December outside. The ground outside was pale white and the sky above seemed to match it, it looked almost lifeless. The children loved it of course. However that wasn't something I approved of, it became a mission to go somewhere without being pelted with snowballs that felt like breeze blocks in disguise.
Today was one of those days where all I wanted to do was stay in bed but unfortunately that wasn't to be. Today was going to be crazy, there was so much to do with so little time. I was finally moving to live with my aunt in Ohio, I didn't want to leave my home but my aunts making me. Ever since the accident she's been living with me, but now she has everything in order and she says it's time we go home. I get it, my family leave in Ohio, I was born there but by no means does that make it my home. I've been living in Dublin city for almost 17 years and I'm only 18, so to me Dublin is my home regardless. It's the place I grew up and it holds all my friends and my memories. It's going to be hard leaving everything I hold near and dear, but my aunt doesn't think that this town holds anything for me anymore. I however think this town has a lot of opportunities, after all I did have a few scholarships lined up for cheer leading.
I was the head cheerleader at my school and me and my two best friends ruled the school. My best friends meant the world to me. Alison and Emily were my girls and I felt bad that I had to leave them behind, they where family to me, hell Emily even looked liked me, she was 5"8 tan with jet black hair and flawless skin the only difference between us was that Emily had a fuller face than me. We could of passed as sisters. When it came to Alison there was no similarities what so ever, she was 5"6 white with blond hair and pools of blue for eyes. We all had different personalities, I was sort of the quiet one, Emily the sporty one and Alison the bitchy one. Of course however we all did bond over the love of cheerleading, boys and ruling anywhere we went.
I did make them promise to come visit me once school broke for the summer but I knew it wouldn't be the same being in Ohio with my girls. For one, we went out every weekend partying in Dublin and that was okay. The legal age there was 18 but it sucked that it was impossible to do in Ohio because they had a 21 age limit which to me sucked ! I started going out when I was sixteen but I was even younger when I discovered house parties. I suppose Dublin had its perks even though the weather sucked there was always a way to entertain yourself.
It was only 7:30 when my alarm made that noise consisting of the devil screeching himself , went off making me want to jump off a cliff. I had only been sleeping two hours, my friends had thrown me sort of a going away party and to say it was fun would be an understatement but now looking at it I probably shouldn't of drunk that much, travelling all day was going to be a total bitch!
"Santana are you up" I wonder if I ignore her would she go away? Nope, it didn't work. My aunt had made her way into my room already before I had time to reply. " you need to get up dear if we want to be on time for the plane" before I could process what I was doing I heard it " that's just it! I don't want to be on time for the plane, fuck don't you get it ! I don't want to leave, this is my home." To late I said it. I could see the tears fill in my aunts eyes and just as I went to apologise one single tear slide down her face and she abruptly got up and left me alone with my big mouth feeling more and more like shit than I already did ten minutes ago.
I decide that it was time to get up. I pushed my lime green comforter to the ground and was met with the cold air which gave me a chill, this called for me to run to the shower dodging last night's clothes and apparently last night's pizza, crazy right I don't even remember eating pizza. Within a split second I had torn my baggy tee and boy shorts off and was standing in the middle of my shower. It was cold and the moment that the hot water beaded off my skin it immediately soothed my hangover a little bit. Knowing I had very little time I scrubbed at my skin trying my hardest to get the stamp marks off my wrists from last night's adventures. Once that was done and I was as sparkly as a new penny I turned the shower off and dried myself off, little did I know there stood Emily arms crossed, leaning against the wall watching me dry off. It wasn't until she cleared her throat did I realise what was happening. "damn Lopez I'm gonna miss seeing that booty of yours" I couldn't help laugh at Emily's attempt to tease me. "don't worry if you miss it that much I could always send you a picture" I couldn't help mess with Emily a little bit. Her face had went from smug to blushing within seconds. It was cute really. We all knew Emily was gay so flirting with her was always fun weather she would admit it or not she had a crush on me and it was evident when she turned the same colour as her bright pink tee.
I had my back to Emily picking out an outfit. " hey san, is it cool if a shower here" why the girl asked was beyond me. She's been showering her for as long as I could remember and yet she would always ask unlike Alison who would just walk on in. "sure Em go ahead, when your done just go through one of the boxes and find an outfit to wear. I'll be in the kitchen when you're done" I yelled the last bit from the stairs but I'm sure she heard me."
I was blind sighted when I saw Alison at the breakfast counter. First Emily sneaks up on me now Ally, who else did I bring home with me that I had forgot about. Just as I thought it boom. Out walks my on and off again boyfriend Toby. "hey Santana glad to see you're up. I thought I might have worn you out too much last night" his smug grin was cute in an obnoxious sort of way but hell he was still shirtless and with those abs I couldn't stay mad. "you're gonna have to do more than that to keep me down" I let out a small laugh after saying it I quickly closed the space between me and him. I threw my arms around his neck placing a soft but passionate kiss on his lips. Gods knows when I was going to see him again. "alright you two, break it up or else I'll have to turn the hose on you." Of course my aunt had incredible timing. With that we broke and made some distance. I really didn't feel like getting soaked by a hose at 8 in the morning.
I really didn't feel like eating but instead I sat with my extra strong coffee at the top of the kitchen island and people watched. These people were my family and I knew I didn't have long left with them. Toby sat with my aunt which was creepy to me that they were laughing and smiling at each other. Alison was in deep thought starring into space again and Emily was texting away on her phone. These people were the foundation of my happiness and I knew I was really going to miss them . I was broke out of my thought process when I felt a soft pair of lips attack the back of my neck "hmmm" was all I could manage to say. I turned to see Toby, unfortunately he was dressed. "babe, I gotta go but I promise I'll call you or Skype you tonight." With that he flung his arms around me and squeezed me in a tight embrace kissing me one final time. "okay, but come over with the girls this summer" with that he just nodded and smiled wide. We both said bye in unison before he walked out the door only guessing when I would ever see him again. I loved him and he loved me, he was there for me during some of the hardest times in my life and for that I'm eternally grateful.
That only left Alison and Emily to say goodbye too. I knew it would be harder with these too because we were all inseparable. Moving sucked. Me and the girls had finished packing and it was now 2.30 which meant I had 10 minutes until my taxi arrived to bring me to my doom. We stood in the yard with my belongings, well at least the ones I was bringing on board with me. After what seemed like seconds of small talk my taxi arrived. It was just a plain old blue 4 by 4 but to me it seemed like a hearse with doomed spread throughout it. "you know I'm going to miss you two, so much. I don't want to go, this sucks." I tried not to cry but somewhere in between I started bawling like a baby. "aww San we're going to miss you too, thats why we got you this" as soon as Ally was done talking Emily had pulled out this charm bracelet with the word SEA on it. It was blue with little charms dangling from it. "SEA, it's all our names. Best friends for life have to have something to remember each other by right." I had cut Emily off by pulling the two in for a group hug. I knew it was going to be hell without these two by my side. With that I pulled away and made a b-line for the car of doom. Once seated I rolled down the window and waved frantically to the girls standing bawling in the yard until they were out of sight.