This takes place in the beginning of "To The Stars". It's an entry from Lisa Hayes' diary written moments before she meets up with Captain Gloval.
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January 10, 2012
I had stood alone on that observation deck. The cold January wind was blowing my hair this way and that. My senses didn't register the numbness in my fingers or how my tears were slowly freezing on my pale cheeks. New Macross spread out before me. Lake Gloval sparkling in the late morning sun in the foreground. The icy, sharp-peaked mountains pierced the changing sky in the background. Of this, I saw nothing but the image in my mind's eye that seared my heart. There was Minmei with Rick's woolen officer's coat draped around her shoulders. Her hands desperately gripping Rick's arms, begging him to let her stay. And Rick…. those crystal blue eyes looking down at Minmei and saying yes. Of course he would say yes. Rick has the kindest heart, but damn Minmei! It's always been Minmei.
Rick's and my relationship has been far from easy. We've had plenty of ups and downs in the past, but I really thought we had made a breakthrough on that rainy night. We both made it clear that we felt the other to be such a huge and important part of our lives. I had said everything short of "I love you." Up until that night I saw Minmei in Rick's quarters, I had felt nothing but regret for not telling him. But seeing Minmei with Rick again makes me glad that I didn't say it. It's obvious it will always be Minmei, and not me.
What do I do now? I can't live with Rick in my life, but I can't imagine another day without him. For the first time since I've arrived on the observation deck, I saw those mountains. I need to get away from here. I can start a new life beyond those mountains. I can use my talents to help pull together those fledgling, post-apocalyptic towns. I can use the leadership skills I have honed these years in the military to do some good. It's time to change my life. A new year; a new me. It breaks my heart to think of leaving the military. It hurts to think of leaving my family: Gloval – who has been such a father to me; dear Claudia – my big sister; and the Bridge Bunnies – my little sisters. A new life without Rick.
Oh Rick…. but what's the point? If I stayed, it would still be a life without you because Minmei is back in the picture. I had spent so many years fighting for our relationship to work, but I think now is the time to just stop.
Gloval is up on the bridge waiting for me. I am intrigued at what he has in mind. Claudia wouldn't say why Gloval wanted to see me. He won't like what I have to say. I don't like having to tell him I will be resigning from the force. The service has been my life for so long, but for my owngood, I need to move on.