Disclaimer: I don't even own my fish, Alexander, why would I own these guys or the movie... I just use it for my own wild fantasies...
Hephaistion sat on his bed in desperation. The tears in still flowed from his eyes. He covered his face with his hands and dwelled in the heartbreak that he felt for the past weeks. Alexander, his king, his commanding officer, his friend, and his lover… married?
I was told I was the only one for him… his only love. I am nothing to him. I served him unselfishly my whole life. I gave myself to his care and purpose without a backward glance. I loved him. I still love him. I am lost without him.
These thoughts plagued Hephaistion for what seemed like centuries. He lay down and cried himself to a peaceful stupor.
"What bothers you so my Hephaistion?"
Hephaistion's eyes darted open and he slowly rose into a seated position with his back to the intruder. He wiped the stray tears and all the moistness from his face. He knew who interrupted his own personal self-loathing. He didn't want to look so vulnerable but his eyes were red and it was obvious that he had been crying for some time.
"My king, nothing is wrong. Worry not about me." His voice slightly faltered and he wished on all the stars that Alexander did not notice. No such luck. Alexander rushed to his lover and wrapped his arms around him.
"Lie not to me. You are the only one who is totally honest with me. Be honest now." He said lovingly as he ran his fingers through the brunette's long silky hair. This act sent chills down Hephaistion's back and immediately he was willing to do anything for Alexander. Alexander knew this and asked the question again.
"What is plaguing you my love?" There was nothing but total love and sympathy in the blonde's eyes.
"I try to show myself as strong but I am broken inside. You break me. That wife of yours breaks me. I was your own, but I have felt for the past weeks that I have been replaced as the love in your life. Now today is your wedding and I know you have shared you bed with your wife as it is customary to do so, but I cannot help but to be jealous. That act has long since been my joy and pleasure. I have lost that to her. You are mine and now I feel as if I mean nothing to you."
His eyes watered just as they had when he had given the ring to Alexander that very night.
"You are my sun, but I scarce feel your rays upon me now."
He bowed his head and his face was flushed. Hephaistion felt Alexander's hand on his cheek. He lifted his head and Alexander cupped his face. He kneeled down and began kissing the tears away.
"I have always-" kiss, "loved you and I will-" he stammered while showering Hephaistion's lips with his own, "always love you and only you for the whole of my life."
His hands left Hephaistion's face and moved though his hair. He kissed him sweetly and lovingly held him close to his own heart. The brunette enclosed his lover in his own arms and held him desperately.
"I am so jealous of losing you. I want you all my own. I want your happiness and if that is with a woman and not myself I wish you all the best. I want you a son." Tears fell at his words.