Falling for the enemy
Gray…
The color outside is gray with shades of black and white but mostly gray. it feels like its been that way since I 've gotten back to the real world, ironic how outside is the perfect reflection of my heart. its so confusing; a man who had no heart had such an impact on mine. A man who barely said a word to me when he would bring me food but in his last moments of life spoke enough words to engrave them in my mind forever. it moves me to tears every time I dare to venture to that part of my memories.
It's a silent war, with only me and myself. I know I must move on but its so hard. the sorrow that fills me when I remember looking into those endless green eyes for the last time rips me apart every time. It hurts so much but I have to hide it, I don't want anyone to worry especially ichigo. He risked so much to save me I don't want to be ungrateful by not seeming happy, but its so hard. that's the price to be paid
I guess, for falling for the enemy.