No Forgiveness
Harry quietly broke away from everyone celebrating and went to Dumbledores office. All of a sudden Harry's chest seared with pain until the pain reached his scar. On his way there though he saw a red headed girl staring at him who turned out to be none other than Ginny. " Ginny look-" he started but was cut off by her saying "Look Harry I know you were going to ask for my forgiveness but after what you did to me this past year. After you left me in the hands of death eater professors I can't forgive you. I'm sorry but I never want to see you again Harry. Stay away from me from now on." She quickly ran off to the great hall leaving Harry standing there with his mouth open. He was not expecting that kind of reaction from her.
He knew that he would have to return to the hall sometime soon so he dragged his way back down the corridor to the hall. He took a deep breath and opened the doors. No one noticed that he had left or that he had returned. He saw the Weasley family sitting near Fred's body. He calmly walked over to them. Mrs Weasley pulled him into one of her famous bone crushing hugs. "Mrs Weasley it should've been me. He should be here with his family. I should've died instead." Harry said trying to keep himself from crying in public. Mrs Weasley let him go and gave him a stern look " Harry James Potter don't you ever say that you wish that you could die. Fred wouldn't have wanted that."
" I don't care if I'm still alive. I wish I was in his place instead. I want to die. I don't belong here. I want to take his place. I'm not meant to live..." Harry said. "Harry we forgive you for leaving this year."
"I do not deserve to be forgiven. I've caused too much damage to be forgiven. Look at Teddy, he is now parentless because of me. Like i said I was not meant to live."
He backed away from the group and ran out the doors. When he reached hogsmead he quickly turned in the spot and arrived at Grimwald place. He tapped the door with his wand and hurried inside. He made his way up to Sirius's old room and got into the bed not caring that he was covered in blood and debree. He instantly fell asleep thinking about Ginny.
the next morning Harry woke up not realizing where he was. He thought that he was back at the Burrow but then when he opened his eyes and saw that the walls were not painted Bright Orange he realized what had happened the previous day. All the pain came back to him. And it wasn't the physical pain that he was used to. It was coming from his heart. He knew that it was the pain coming from Ginny saying that she could not forgive him. He had ran out on everyone in the Great Hall.
Feeling as to stay in bed, Harry called Kreacher who with a loud crack appeared at once. "Master" Kreacher bowed deeply "Kreacher had no idea that you had returned. What can Kreacher do for you?"
"Hello Kreacher please bring me a pitcher of water."
Kreacher tried to argue with his master saying that he needed a proper meal but harry won the fight. Within minutes Kreacher had returned with a pitcher of water and a empty glass on a tray for harry
"Thank you Kreacher"
"Is there anything else Kreacher can get for you?"
"Yes in fact close the house off of the floo network. Also if any letters come Bring them to me and write back to the sender saying that it is from you and that I do not want any visitors at all. No one shall be allowed to enter without asking me first. Got all that Kreacher?"
The house elf nodded then went to go complete the orders that were given to him. Harry turned and went back to sleep. He woke up later in the day and decided to put up some charms around the house. He went to the study and looked over some of the books that Hermione had read during their journey with protective charms in them. Deciding on the ones he thought was the most powerful he went outside and casted the spells. After Harry took a hot shower and let the water rinse all of the dirt and blood off of his body. Harry found some clothes in the bag he had quickly packed from the burrow many months before and went to sleep.
When Harry awoke the next morning he found that Kreacher had made breakfast for him and a stack of parchment had been placed next to the tray of food. Harry ate what he could but left most of the food untouched. After deciding that he had had enough he set his tray down and picked up the top piece of parchment that read:
Harry Where are you? I think that you are at Grimwald place and i hope that im right. How are you holding up? I can't imagine how you must be feeling right now. If you're wondering about Ginny no one sees her much. Only when she goes to use the bathroom or for meals. She is normally shut up inside her room. If anyone tried to go and talk to her she would just tell them to go away. The only one who was allowed inside her room was her mum. please respond. We really need to talk. Love, Hermione
Harry was suddenly feeling even more guilty than before. She should be organizing the funerals that were to take place not worrying about him. He tossed the parchment aside and read the next one
Hey Mate. We are all so worried about you. Here's a list of all the funerals that are to take place. We really hope you can come. We are so worried about Ginny and You. We really need to talk. With best regards, Ron
The other letters were from Mrs Weasley, Mr Weasley, Bill and Fluer, Charlie, Percy, and Neville. He once again called for Kreacher who instantly appeared at the foot of the bed. "You called?" The elf said as he bowed.
"Yes i take it that you have responded to all of these letters and put up the charms and cut off the floo network." Harry said to the elf. The elf nodded.
"I have done all of these things master Harry but I don't know how you would like me to send all of these letters seeing that you do not have an owl."
"How would you like to go and deliver then personally for me?"
"Kreacher would love to"
"All right then off you go."
With a loud crack the elf headed to the burrow.
"mum! You'd better get down here!" Shouted Ron
Mrs Weasley came running down the stairs to the kitchen "what is it Ron?" She asked
"Harry's house elf is here with responses to the letters."