Title: Just This Moment
Here
Author: Saku
Pairing: Sakura/Tomoyo
Fandom: Card
Captor Sakura
Theme: 8: Our
own world 二人の世界
Rating:
G
Disclaimer: I don't
own it nor do I imply that I do. I am only borrowing the Card Captor
Sakura characters and world for my fun, only to return them once I
have had my fill of them. (Though they may be slightly more
wrinkled/torn/disturbed/or whatever else then when I took them.) That
means I don't make money off of them- or else I wouldn't write
fanfics on free sites- I'd be sitting in a pool of money.
A/N:
Ok this is a couple firsts for me. Mainly my first girl/girl pairing.
So reviews are LOVED especially to let me know if I'm good with this
or if I should stick with yaoi. But this is such an unloved pairing
it seems!
The song is Noir's "Lullaby." The english translation can be found on animelyrics under Noir. I just felt like this song worked for the mood I wanted.
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Yuki ga furu
Shizukana Lullaby utau awai yokogao
Toji komerareta chiisana heya wa
Ai to yoberu kiga shiteiru
The sound of Tomoyo's voice drifted in the air, floating lightly as it danced in the gentle breeze before flew to the heavens above.
Standing alone in the music room, Tomoyo had her back to the open window, her eyes focused on the blank wall in front of her as she sang the song that she had been planning for the carnival her school was going to host.
Sakura had explained many times to her that she didn't need to practice, that her singing was perfect. Yet Tomoyo was terrified that she would mess it up when it came time. So the girl had slipped into the empty room while Sakura had cheer leading practice.
Slowly her dark eyes slid shut as she placed a hand on her heart. The song seemed to take on a life of its own. It's beautiful tale being told for the first time as Tomoyo poured her soul into what she sang.
Happy or sad. The song never mattered, it always sounded sweet and beautiful when she sang it. Or that's what Sakura thought, as she sat in the tree her arms resting on the windowsill.
Kotoba mo iranakute
Omoide ga yawaraide
Yasuragi nante shiranai kedo
Ichiban sokoni chikai bashode nemuritai dake
Anata no sobani iru
She had skipped out on the last half of her practice, telling her coach that she felt sick, before running for the tree that she knew would give her a front row seat to the beautiful performance.
Eyes wide, sitting high in the tree on a thick branch Sakura could not help but to let a small gasp fall from her lips as she listened to the words. This song seemed to carry more power as Tomoyo's voice cracked with emotion. Tomoyo always bared her soul in songs, her eyes becoming watery with the saddest songs. Yet this seemed different.
Swallowing she stared at her best friend. The one she loved to hang out with every day. The one that she would die if she was left alone.
Why did this song effect her so much Sakura wondered as she leaned closer; her elbows resting on the wooden sill as she pulled herself off of he branch she was resting on.
Thin, yet strong, arms held her in the air as she dangled from the second story window, her stomach resting on the sharp edge. It was as if the song was pulling her in. Its meaning deeper then what she could understand, yet begging for her to understand it. To acknowledge what was before her.
Yuki ga furu
Shizukana Lullaby Sotto yoru wo uzumete
Kanashii kotowa shiritakunaino
As Tomoyo hit a high note, she turned towards the window, her eyes watery as she stared at the girl she loved with all of her heart! Two sets of eyes locked as Tomoyo sang, neither having the strength to break the contact.
Never in her life had she loved someone this much! She had had crushes before, yet nothing ever this strong. Nothing that ever hurt her this bad, as this love did.
It killed her inside every time she watched Sakura chase after Yukito, knowing that she would never chase after her. To watch as Syaoran's love for her grew. She knew that Sakura was wanted by a boy and loved a boy.
Yet she could not help but sit and dream. And wonder why? Why could Sakura not love her? Why did she have to love her friend this much? Why did it kill her each time she thought about telling her beautiful friend the truth?
Would I be rejected, Tomoyo had to wonder as she stared at her friend.
Should she tell the truth? Blurt it out and wait with bated breath as she waited for Sakura's answer?
Dakara zutto utatteite
Yoakega kurumade
Zutto kono mama
Tomoyo wanted to! There was no doubt in that, yet she could not find the courage to tell. To explain what she really meant when she said, "I love you Sakura!"
Her heart pounded at Sakura's stare, her eyes so penetrating. Searching her eyes so deeply. Too deeply for Tomoyo as she broke the contact between them. It felt as if she was searching for the truth, as if she would find it out if she searched long enough.
A soft hand brushed Tomoyo's pale cheek causing the girl to start. Eyes flicked up, staring at her friend. Gnawing on the inside of her mouth Tomoyo forced a smile.
"That was beautiful," Sakura claimed as she stood inside the classroom, hugging her best friend tightly. "Your voice is just so beautiful! Everyone is going to be listening to you when you sing!"
A smile crossed Tomoyo's pale face as she nodded. Sakura's excitement was always contagious; it could always push away her fears and sorrow, only bringing excitement into her heart.
I should tell her, Tomoyo thought as she watched her friend bubble.
Grasping Tomoyo's cooled hand tightly Sakura tugged her towards the door. "Come on we have to tell Kero about it! He'll love it too!"
I should te-
Silently Tomoyo slipped her hand out of Sakura's grasp her head shaking lightly. Sakura stilled immediately, her head dropping to the side. Her body stilled as she watched her best friend, wondering what was wrong.
"No," she whispered more to herself then Sakura.
"What's wrong Tomoyo?" Sakura rested a hand on Tomoyo's shoulder, gentle fingers squeezing reassuringly. "Are you nervous about singing? The song was good!"
"No," Tomoyo replied just as softly as before. Slowly she stepped up to her friend, hugging the other girl tightly to her. Her breath stuttered as her heart sped. This felt too perfect! Tears built behind her lids as Tomoyo laid her head on Sakura's shoulders.
"Please Sakura," Tomoyo asked, her breath wafting against Sakura's neck, "can we stay here for a little bit like this?"
Sakura swallowed as she wrapped her arms around Tomoyo in a tight hug. Tomoyo couldn't help but to gasp at the feeling as her heart stopped. If she died now, Tomoyo would have died with no regrets.
"Sure," Sakura whispered. She didn't know what was wrong, yet she didn't want to break this moment. It meant so much to her best friend, that Sakura could not find herself wanting to break it.
A broken smile crossed Tomoyo's face as she buried her face deep into Sakura's neck. The smell of the playground's sand filled her as she breathed deeply, burning this moment into her memories. She never wanted to forget this moment.
A soft kiss fell on Sakura's neck as dark eyes slid shut. At that moment there was no one else in the world. No Yukito, no Syaoran. No one but Sakura and her.
A smile ghosted her face as Tomoyo refused to move, it would take all of Sakura's strength to move her, as Tomoyo wished desperately that they could stay like this forever. Just the two of them. The two of them lost in their own world, a world where no one else existed.
Just this moment here.
