Trapped Inside My Head
I know it's been three years.. Three painful years since she broke up with me. But it feels like it was just yesterday. The memories are so fresh, The wounds are still open. She left me like I never meant anything to her. I loved her with everything I had in me. I still wonder if she ever thinks of me. Even though she hurt me so bad, broke all the promises, I long for her. She has my heart wrapped around her fingers. But she'll never be with me. She's with someone else now. She is not mine anymore, she belongs to somebody else.
I'm trapped inside my head,
Feeling lonely & defeated tonight,
As fears & worries surround my bed.
Too tired & weak to fight,
The darkness that stays hidden inside..
I close my eyes laying down,
Blocking out the world around.
Feeling numb as I breathe,
Flashback & memories creep up on me;
At the sight I begin to seethe,
The face that I once lived to see.
You were a part of my soul;
You left, & took away my better half!
Maybe to you..
I was only a clown that made you laugh.
I wish you knew,
With you I was whole...
Now I see you everyday;
With someone who ain't me,
You see me & look away,
Because I refused to become something;
You wanted me to be!
Now with pain & misery I lay,
As nothing more left to say;
You were a phony!
But my heart still aches,
Everytime lonely I wake..
Relentless and painful cries;
No hope just empty sighs.
I wish, you could just see,
The dead body, you made of me..