Freedom
(Duo POV)
Why do the people who care about you always end up hurting you? In 197, I had a lover, his name was Trowa Barton. But I didn't really love him, just enough to date him for a year, then he left me. For the man I do love--Heero Yuy, I can't see how they ever got that relationship started. Probably sounded something like this:
"...?" asked Trowa.
"..." agreed Heero.
"..." Trowa said lovingly.
"...!" Heero exclaimed.
Maybe Trowa and Heero were just lonely. Quatre was infatuated with Trowa for most of the war, but when they finally got around kissing, they both agreed it was like kissing a cousin or a brother. Heero and Wufei dated for a bit, but I'm guessing when they finally got around to sex, they had a problem--both of them a pure top and can't go any other way. I'm sure it happens all the time.
Right now it is AC 198, and I have given up on romance. Never again, fuck it all to hell. Between now and AC 190 I have been raped more than a couple dozen times, I've had three STDs, all of which were treated with antibiotics, so I am 100% clean, and I have only twice had consentual sex.
I grew up on the streets of the L2 colony cluster, survived the plague, and the Maxwell Church Massacre. You would think that after a life like mine, I would be pretty fucked up. I guess you could say I am.
Every night I stay up thinking about death, and how good it would feel to finally be free. But then I look at my picture of Heero I keep in a locket around my neck, right next to my crucifix, and remember that someday I'll be able to see him again and tell him what I feel for him. Then I can kill myself. It's not like anyone will miss me, Trowa has Heero, Wufei has Zechs and Quatre, Hilde has Dorothy, Une has Sally, and Relena hates me (not that the feeling isn't mutual).
Life is pointless. If there really was a God up there, he would have taken pity on me and let me die with Solo during the plague, or even during the Massacre. Can't really blame for not believing in any God except Shinigami. I haven't ever seen a miracle but I know I've seen dead people before.
(Duo POV)
Why do the people who care about you always end up hurting you? In 197, I had a lover, his name was Trowa Barton. But I didn't really love him, just enough to date him for a year, then he left me. For the man I do love--Heero Yuy, I can't see how they ever got that relationship started. Probably sounded something like this:
"...?" asked Trowa.
"..." agreed Heero.
"..." Trowa said lovingly.
"...!" Heero exclaimed.
Maybe Trowa and Heero were just lonely. Quatre was infatuated with Trowa for most of the war, but when they finally got around kissing, they both agreed it was like kissing a cousin or a brother. Heero and Wufei dated for a bit, but I'm guessing when they finally got around to sex, they had a problem--both of them a pure top and can't go any other way. I'm sure it happens all the time.
Right now it is AC 198, and I have given up on romance. Never again, fuck it all to hell. Between now and AC 190 I have been raped more than a couple dozen times, I've had three STDs, all of which were treated with antibiotics, so I am 100% clean, and I have only twice had consentual sex.
I grew up on the streets of the L2 colony cluster, survived the plague, and the Maxwell Church Massacre. You would think that after a life like mine, I would be pretty fucked up. I guess you could say I am.
Every night I stay up thinking about death, and how good it would feel to finally be free. But then I look at my picture of Heero I keep in a locket around my neck, right next to my crucifix, and remember that someday I'll be able to see him again and tell him what I feel for him. Then I can kill myself. It's not like anyone will miss me, Trowa has Heero, Wufei has Zechs and Quatre, Hilde has Dorothy, Une has Sally, and Relena hates me (not that the feeling isn't mutual).
Life is pointless. If there really was a God up there, he would have taken pity on me and let me die with Solo during the plague, or even during the Massacre. Can't really blame for not believing in any God except Shinigami. I haven't ever seen a miracle but I know I've seen dead people before.