Letters
Peter
Could you please come back?
Pretty please???
I'm bored.
Wendy
Dear Peter,
Well I'm waiting!
All right, look.
I'm sorry I ever left Neverland.
I miss you, and
I absolutely hate, hate, HATE growing up.
There, I said it. You happy? You were right. It's terrible.
I've got this weird new 'young lady' room now
And it's filled with ugly pink lacy things
That remind me of my grandmother
And not with books like it used to be.
And mother told me yesterday that
I've go to start wearing a corset.
… Oh, I shouldn't have said that.
Aunt Millicent says that
I can't talk to boys about that sort of thing.
But still! It's horrid and makes it
Hard to breathe.
And there's this mean girl at my finishing school
Who's worse than Captain Hook
And says that my brown hair is not in fashion
And that I'm too fat.
Mother says that's a load of nonsense, but I don't know.
Is it?
Would I be in fashion in Neverland, Peter?
… Am I boring you, Peter?
Well on a lighter note I'm trying to write a novel!
I have to work on it in secret though,
In my 'young lady' room after hours.
Most people would tease me if they found out.
Even my brothers push me away now
Whenever I try to tell them stories.
They use growing up as an excuse.
Do they just not like them anymore?
Maybe my novel just needs to be more interesting.
I'll bring in the pirates a chapter early,
If you want!
Please, please
Tell me what you think!
Your friend,
Wendy Darling
Dear Mr. Pan,
I do hope you know how absolutely
Unforgivable it is to lie.
Because I am beginning to think that it what you did
When you promised that you
Would never forget me.
How many years has it been, Mr. Pan?
You must realize that
There is no possible way that I may ever return
To Neverland with you.
My duty is to my children and my husband now,
Else the neighbors will say
I'm an unfit mother.
And I cannot bring gossip like that down on my husband…
But I do so love to be a mother, Mr. Pan!
It is almost like being with
You and the lost boys again.
Jane is five years old, and
Daniel has lived for only two.
I wish they would stay that way,
So eager to listen to my stories
As I tuck them in every night.
I suppose I must admit that
I speak of you often, and Jane simply adores your adventures.
See how honest I am?
You could do with an example.
But on special days,
Like Christmases and birthdays and such,
I'll take out my silly attempt at a novel
And read from that instead. Though I haven't yet finished it,
I doubt I ever will.
It is so nice for someone to appreciate my stories again…
But I know it will not last.
Because to normal children they are only stories,
Stories to eventually outgrow
And throw away along with their
Rocking horses and stuffed bears and wooden swords
And recall them less and less
Until they can no longer recognize them.
Can you not see that
I must enjoy the time I have left
Before yet another generation
Laughs at the childish fantasies that
I simply cannot lock in the drawer
Where they belong?
You really ought to be more
Considerate of other people's feelings, Mr. Pan.
Most sincerely,
Mrs. Wendy Moire Angela Stuart
Dearest Peter Pan,
I don't even know why I'm writing this.
I returned from Jane's wedding yesterday
And took a peep into the old nursery
Where I used to play—
Where Jane and little Danny used to play—
And opened that big stained glass window
That you floated into so long ago
To feel the winter chill on my fingers
Like I did so often as a child
After acting out a rather violent and swashbuckling
Rendition of Cinderella.
And you know what?
Stuck between the window frame
And the window sill
Were all the letters I wrote to you.
I got the message.
You never received them, and all these years
I've been writing to no one.
Silly, isn't it?
Wasn't I the one who originally told you that
"Second star to the right and straight on 'til morning"
Was an odd thing to put on letters?
But I must speak to you in one way or another, Peter Pan,
Even if I never clap eyes on you ever again.
I think I've finally finished my novel.
Maybe I'll send it to a publisher if
If I strike up enough courage.
Now that my children are all grown up themselves
It will be easier for me.
Less disapproving faces,
Less neighbors' whispering cruel words behind their hands,
And Jane may not laugh as much
When she sees yet again that her mother is
Only pretending to be grown up.
Because it's just about as easy
To be eccentric when you're a frail old woman
As it is to be innocent and heartless as a child.
The world I live in is
Full of expectations, unspoken rules…
But I doubt you'd understand.
You wouldn't be Peter Pan if you did.
Your world is so different from mine,
And all I want to do now is spread my arms as far as they can go
And leap out that window
In case there is a chance that
Strange old hopeful ladies can fly too.
I'll always believe in you, Peter Pan.
Love,
Wendy
