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A/N: Hey! This is my very first attempt at writing so... be nice? Beforehand, I apologize for my English, because it is not my official language, but writing in Spanish just didn't fit. I also apologize for the beginning, I just didn't know how to start. OK, that's it, I hope you like it! :)

(Edit) Now I thank IChimpz for beta'ing this chapter for me! You are amazing, bb!

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If It Kills Me

Summary:"No, no!" I shouted, tears pouring down my face. "You're a liar! Why didn't you tell me earlier?"

"No, Bella..." he said, his arms stretching up towards me." I didn't know..." his eyes were wide with horror.

I flinched away from him. "I hate you, Edward Cullen, " I whispered, and then everything went black.

Chapter 1: Beginnings.

Yes, I'm Isabella Marie Swan. I'm 17 years old and I live in this rainy town of Forks. My life, since yesterday, seemed to be perfect. OK, perfect might be an overreaction. My life was.... bearable? I think that suits.

I was happy, or the happiest life would let me be.

Even though I live in this little town where you never get to see the sun, I was quite happy living with my father. I had a normal life, taking out the fact that I was probably the clumsiest person on Earth.

I went to Forks High Institute; I had a few friends, and a best friend, Jacob.

Jacob was probably the best part of my life. We did everything together. Every free second I had, I tried to spend it with him.

He was a great guy. He still is, I guess. I haven't seen him in a while.

I live with my father, Charlie; he's the Chief of Police. He's a great father but a terrible cook. Don't misunderstand me, I love cooking for him, it just makes me wonder how he survived all those years without me or my mother to cook for him.

My mother. I sighed at her memory.

When I was still a kid, I used to live here, in this very town, till my mother took me away with her to Phoenix.

I lived with her until she got married again. Phil, her new husband, was a good person. Quite funny if you ask me. They were happy, that much was obvious to anyone. He was a baseball player, which means he traveled a lot and every time he had to go I noticed my mum's sadness. She, most of the time, had to stay with me; therefore she couldn't go with him very often. She always told me it was OK, that I didn't need to worry, but I did.

My mother had always seemed to me as a teenager trapped in an adult's body. I always took care of her. This never bothered me, not a bit. I loved my mother no matter what, and that's probably why I decided to leave in the first place, move back to Forks and live with Charlie so she could travel with Phil.

By now you might be wondering why I keep using the past tense, well, I'll tell you…

I had an accident, or so they tell me.

Everything stared almost a month ago...

My mum convinced my father to take me to Phoenix for her birthday and after a long discussion she decided she would pick me up in Forks and we would go, by car, with Phil a few days before her birthday.

"Drive safe," Charlie shouted from the door. We were ready to leave. I locked my seatbelt and waved him goodbye till he was out of sight.

The car drive was going to be long,verylong, but my mother thought it was better that way so I agreed.

"So, Bella…" she started. We were barely leaving the state limits and this was the first time she had spoken since we left home. "…how are things going in Forks? Have a lot of friends?"

This was weird, she seemed nervous. "Yeah, I have a few ," I said. "Angela is one of my best friends at school, she's really nice ,"

"Oh, that's good, " she answered. For some reason she still seemed nervous. I guess it was just because of the ride.

"There also is Jacob," I continued in order to calm her, even if it was just a little. "You remember Jacob, don't you? I told you about him, he's Billy Black's son..? " I trailed off.

"Oh yeah! Jacob" she said enthusiastically. "Billy's son! How could I forget?" She paused and seemed hesitant "So… is he… your… boyfriend?"

"No!" I said too quickly and a little too loud for my liking." He's, um… he's my best friend, justthat." I made sure she heard the "just" loudly and clearly because, even though I liked Jacob, a lot, he was never going to be more than just a friend to me. Not that I wanted him to be more, I definitely didn't.

After that we just had a very casual conversation, we talked about everything and nothing at the same time. Phil started telling us his little jokes and a while after that I end up falling asleep.

When I woke up again, it was already dark, I could see the stars. It was a beautiful night. My mum and Phil had their hands intertwined; they were silent for a while. That was when I felt it. It was something strange, bad-strange. I knew something was wrong. I just didn't knowwhatwas wrong.

You probably just need some more sleep, I said inwardly.

I tried to sleep, believe me, but it didn't work. I still had the strange feeling inside me

"Mum?" I asked. I was starting to think that going by car was a very bad idea. It was not the most comfortable thing out there, if you ask me.

"Yes?" she answered in a distracted voice.

"How long, mum? I'm tired already. "I think I was feeling slightly annoyed too.

"A while longer sweetie, " she said with a reassuring smile. It didn't convince me and I think she knew that because she immediately added, "Don't worry honey; we'll stop soon on a hotel to get some sleep. By dawn we should be leaving again"

"OK, but at what time will we be there?" I probably sounded like a stubborn child, but I didn't care anymore.

"Around noon, probably, " she answered cautiously, like I was going to freak out or something. I'll admit, I was about to, but Phil cut me before I could say a word.

"Maybe we shouldn't stop at all, " he said.

"What?" my mum said. "You need to rest, Phil. You can't stay all the time driving without getting any sleep." Her voice was worried.

"Yes, it's OK. We should stop; you need to sleep a little." The least I wanted in that moment was for them to start arguing, it was not even close to a fight but I didn't want to be the cause of problems between them.

"No, Bella. It's fine. I'm OK. I can make it till Phoenix." he said. My mum was eyeing him skeptically. "Really, honey," he told her, looking into her eyes. "I'll sleep when we get there. That way we will arrive earlier and you know, the weather would be warmer."

That seemed to convince my mother because she sighed and nodded.

It was past midnight when I woke up. I hadn't even realized I had fallen asleep.

I stayed there in silence, submerged in my thoughts, till that strange feeling was back. This time it was stronger, but I couldn't decide anymore whether it was good or bad. It seemed to be both at the same time.

That was when I saw…

A/N: Sorry, cliffhanger! :) If it's too short let me know!

As I said, is the very first time I try writing so be nice! :) Hope you liked it and thanks for reading!

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