Chapter 1 Confused
AN: All Characters are property of Dick Wolf and NBC. This is a one shot for now. If you want me to continue I will ask for 5 reviews. Thanks for reading. A/O. This is based on the episode Loss, Ghost, and Lead.
"Olivia, this is about us. Don't tell me you are leaving because you found a better job in Georgia..."
"It's Florida," interrupted Olivia, "It's not always about you, counselor." Olivia was now annoyed by Cabot's complaints. She continued to pack her bags.
The truth is Olivia was departing her beloved hometown on behalf of Alex. Olivia was not only confused about what was happening between her friend, but she couldn't admit she was a lesbian. She decided that the only way to deal with her problems was to run away from them.
"Liv, I love you and..." Alex paused. She drew up her hand to touch Olivia's face but Olivia moved away, "I don't get it! Everything was going fine. Were we going too fast? Because we can take it slow." Alex stared into the brunettes eyes.
"Alex, I... Am not a… lesbian." it hurt Olivia to tell this lie to herself. "I d…d…don't love you." Olivia knew deep down she hurt Alex.
Alex looked for some type of movement to see if Olivia was lying. "You are lying." Alex had tears engulfed in her eyes. The dinner she ate just an hour ago seemed to make her want to puke.
With every being in Olivia's body, Olivia held herself from telling Alex her true feelings. "I...I am not. Just leave. Ok. Just leave." Olivia did not want to face Alex after what she just pulled.
"Um. Yeah. That's what I should do! Leave! You will regret pushing me away and lying to yourself." Alex stated almost in a whisper.
Under her breath Olivia replied, "I already do."
Alex slammed the newly installed door to Olivia's apartment.
Olivia sat on the floor and began to sob.
She realized that her feelings wouldn't change anything. Her love for Cabot was very much there.
It felt like a dagger was stabbed through her heart and then stabbed Alex's heart.
Alex's face continued to replay in Olivia's head. The tears and the screaming. All coming back to haunt her.
Olivia angry at herself got up and packed. She had this affinity for Alex. Why could she stop being a wimp and tell her? Oh well, this is her last week on the job. She wanted to pack early just in case this current case didn't give her time.
Elliot told her to go to the precinct in a phone call before Alex came barging in.
Olivia grabbed her keys and headed out. Knowing Alex would be there will make it more dreadful.
xXx
Olivia arrived at the precinct and joined the conversation.
"Rafael Zapata has men, Cabot. Frankly, I don't want you wondering alone." Don acknowledged Olivia with a simple head nod. "I want Benson and Stabler to watch your every move."
"I don't think-" Alex got interrupted.
"Elliot take the first, Liv, you take the second." Don stated and walked into his office.
"I guess I'm up first. Um... Liv, come around eleven." Elliot told her as he left.
She just nodded her head. 'I really hate Cragen right now' she thought.
Fin noticed something was wrong. "Hey baby girl, you want to talk?"
"Nope, I'm fine" Olivia stated, "Thank you."
11:00 pm
Knock. Knock.
"It's me, Olivia." Olivia stated.
Elliot opened the door.
The brunette entered. "Hey." Olivia directed at Elliot.
"Hey. Well I'm off. Night." Elliot waved goodbye to Alex and Olivia.
Olivia shut the door. "How are you feeling?" Olivia wondered.
"Please, don't try to give me small talk." Alex stated walking to her bedroom.
Olivia deserved that. Olivia decided to take a nap too.
The Next Morning
Olivia woke up. She forced herself to get up. She decided to go check on Alex.
Olivia slowly opened the door and saw Alex still asleep.
Olivia got distracted by a knock on the door.
"It's me Elliot."
Olivia walked toward the door and opened up.
"Hey, I just wanted to tell you Rafael Zapata is dead. That's a good thing because we are now off the case."
Olivia had a surprised look on her face. This was great now she can really rest before she leaves for Florida.
Later That Day
Olivia, Elliot, and Alex were exiting the building.
"Thanks for watching me." Alex directed at Elliot.
"Ok, what's going on betwee-"
A strange SUV stopped and fired a couple bullets.
Elliot took off running after it.
Olivia finally got up and saw Alexandra on the floor bleeding.
Olivia crawled towards her. "No, no, no," Olivia began to place pressure on the wound. "Alex, stay with me."
Elliot came back breathing hard as ever. Staring at the lifeless body of Alexandra Cabot.
xXx
After learning about the death of Alex Cabot. Olivia couldn't believe that she couldn't tell Alex that she loved her. That she wanted to be with her.
"Benson." Olivia finally answered her phone.
"It's Cragen. I just called Elliot. I need you both to meet with DEA. Something about closing the case."
Don hung up.
Later That Day
"What do you think they need? I mean the case is closed."
"I don't know." Elliot shrugged.
They finally arrived there and exited the vehicle.
"Hey, I just wanted to show you something. She didn't want to leave without seeing both of you."
Olivia and Elliot were just as confused.
The DEA opened the door.
Olivia gasped. Tears flooding through her eyes. "I thought you were dead."
Elliot was just as in shock as Olivia. They both stared at Cabot to see if she was real.
Olivia wanted to tell her everything but with Elliot there she couldn't.
Finally, Elliot and the DEA saw that they both needed to talk so they both entered the car.
The driver exited.
"Alex, look, I didn't mean anything…" Olivia took a breath, "I am a lesbian in love with Alex Cabot." Olivia smiled.
"So now you tell me. Now? If I was shot…"
Olivia kissed her. Olivia's hand in Alex's blonde silky hair. Alex finally gave in.
"It doesn't get better than this." Olivia whispered through the kiss.
AN: Kind of corny, but it's so cute. Hope you guys liked it. I'm up for writing more chapters. I just need 5 reviews.