Title:
Feelings
Disclaimer:
Really? Do you really think…? HA! If only, if only…
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How was I supposed to know?
How in the worlds did you think I would feel? Did you think I was suppose to just nod my head and give you a quick little smile in approval? Did you think I was supposed to move on and forget that for months, you've been dangling me in thin air, been keeping me on my toes, just so that I could know if you felt the same way? Ha.
For once, I felt light. Felt…free, y'know? I felt like I could see light when I closed my eyes. Like all the ugly thoughts in my heart went away, if only for just a moment.
But now, I know.
You love her. Not me.
I guess I should have known better huh?
I love you. So much. You're my light. My Sora. Mine.
When I ask myself what I most want in this life, my head paints beautiful pictures of you. Of honey brown hair, of sky eyes framed in black lashes, of a tanned full lipped face always in a million dollar smile shape. And it hurts. Because I can't have you.
You were never mine to have at all actually. I know that now.
I'm sorry. I never meant to blow up like that. I didn't mean to yell at you and Kairi, didn't mean to say "Why?! Why did you do this to me?! I love you, Sora! You're the only fucking thing I have any more! The only thing that makes me happy! You pick this bitch instead? Do you like making me miserable? Huh?! Do you like seeing me slowly kill myself inside? Fine! Fuck you Sora! Just leave me the fuck alone!".
Did I hurt you?
Because you know for a fact that I really would kill myself if I did that right? I'd rather burn in hell than see you sad.
You should never be sad Sora. It's not the Sora I love, not the one I know.
So I think I should leave. Just…get away for a little bit. I can't handle this right now.
I love you. Remember that. I always will.
Sora. My Sky.
My Life. I'm so sorry.
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A/N: Don't ask. I just felt like writing a drabble about Angsty!Riku. What happened was, Riku is in love with Sora, but y'know. Sora's in love with Kairi. All that jazz. If you kinda maybe sorta liked or hated this little piece of nothing, it would be much appreciated if you left your opinion. Again, sorry for it's crappiness, but it's 2:27 in the morning, and I'm half asleep. Laters.
-Mirror Leak